Written by the Moon

25~ KISS

I stood up immediately as he answered. Should I be relieved or get more confused with this freaking situation? He doesn’t even know why he wants to spend time with me?! so, how am I supposed to act upon his actions? I’ve been thinking so much the past few days and he’ll just say he doesn’t know?!

Just great! How stupid of me!

I walked away at a fast pace but he still got a grip on my hand. I wanted to lash out at him but I decided that it won’t make things any better. I breathed heavily as I turned to face him. I put on my poker face, looked at him with no emotion but he was looking torn.

I almost reacted at his torn expression but I decided to just remain blank in front of him.

“Are you confused?” he asked me as if he was in the same situation with me. except that he looked like all the emotions were like his burden.

“No.”

“If you are confused, I’m more than puzzled with everything, Nav.”

“I said I’m not confused, Forest!” my voice raised a bit.

He licked his lips.

“I don’t know how to feel, Nav.”

His voice contained a lot of emotions. It sounded strained, confused, fooled, and everything in between pain and betrayal. I swallowed hard as he let go of my hand and brushed his hair with his fingers. He looked up to the night sky and closed his eyes.

“Damn it. I don’t know what to do anymore, Eloise.”

I licked my lips and closed my eyes. I walked away from him and never looked back. When I was far from him already, I thought he didn’t follow me. The moment I stopped from my steps, warm hands embraced my palms.

I went farther away but he didn’t let go of me. I turned to him with all the anger and confusion on my face.

“Let go, Forest.”

My heart pounded so hard that it hurt. And it even hurt more seeing him broken. Even when I know I’ll get affected by everything, I still remained cold and stern.

“Can you please stop walking away from me?” I saw how his adam’s apple had a hard time as he swallowed slowly. I looked away.

“Let me go,” my voice almost trembled. I can already see my chest moving up and down as my breathing ragged.

He blinked weakly and looked away after letting my hand go. I sighed as he freed me. I didn’t have to think anything before walking away. I don’t need to have any second thoughts when my decision is already final. Tonight, he won’t be confused anymore.

Whatever I witnessed earlier, was just a glimpse of what he is really feeling. It’s just a glimpse but it’s already making me tremble on my knees. What more if I would know the whole story? I’d go crazy. I wouldn’t be sane. He confessed he doesn’t know yet with just his expressions and desperate acts of seeing me were enough to convince me that I had to leave.

It was dangerous for me especially for him. He is a noble bound to marry a woman of the same status as him. I went back inside the venue and when I thought I was already fine now that I’m far from Forest, I was wrong. My stomach felt like being on a roller coaster ride. My breathing hasn’t come back at its normal pace. My throat felt like it has been clogged with a huge rock.

I am just so uncomfortable and felt like I did something wrong. Felt like I left an unfinished business.

Sham and Mark noticed me. Jedi and Michelle were with Christiana having a conversation at the other tables.

“Did something happen?” Mark immediately tended to me.

Sham’s quiet but is looking concerned.

I nodded. I couldn’t open my mouth to speak. My mind went blank. I blinked a couple of times as I tried to calm myself down.

“Do you need something?” Sham asked.

I shook my head. I still can’t speak. I’m lost with words. It took minutes for me cam down. When my breathing has calmed down, that’s when Mark urged me to answer his questions again.

“Did anyone hurt you?”

“I’m fine, Mark.”

He didn’t look like he was convinced.

“Are you… sure?”

I glanced at him. Mark has been the only one who has been with me until now. He trusts with anything yet I can’t tell him my true feelings. I still can’t fully trust him now. Not because I don’t have any faith in him but the situation I am with can harm him. I can’t risk him.

I smiled as I nodded. He still didn’t buy my excuse but the good thing is he stopped bugging me. I sighed at that.

The party still continued. I remained sitting as Mark guarded me. Sham went together with Christiana. My eyes fixated only on my fingers. Everybody had fun. The party was loud with the programs. Everyone participated. It seemed enjoyable but I never did.

And the next thing I knew, it was almost midnight. It has become a tradition to the Wolves community to celebrate the eighteenth birthday of the women in their pack until midnight. It was to figure out if they are ready to see their mates or to find out of they will be having mates. It goes around as to revealing the mates or to just give clues.

Last night, I decided. I decided on Forest because it is my duty, my job. In the dark night where the moon was only visible and the stars were nowhere to see. I looked up at the sky and went down to the empty scared paper. I have prepared for this day to come where I will write for my wolf’s destiny for the first time. I was excited.

But now, tonight, I felt little voices whispering to me with so many options. I immediately shrugged them all away because there was only one option. No, there is no need to have options because it is already destined by the Moon Goddess and it is my mission to make a good delivery for his love story.

I have decided.

                                                                                                     The first writing of Forests’ destiny

On the joyous night of celebration of the newly born woman, the breakthrough of Zafeya Marice Chidrome will ignite. The night where the nobles of nobles will rejoice in victory to the unity of two hearts. As the last hour of October 2nd last, Forest Castriel Alcazar will recognize his beautiful mate. Zafeya Marice Chidrome will welcome her mate as Forest Castriel Alcazar will devote his heart only to her. On the early morning of October 3rd, two bonds will tie. Forever.

                                                                                                     Eloise Naveah Acadian

My eyes remained on the sacred letter as I am on the balcony just above the garden as they started to have the last dance of the night. A ritual to know if Zafeya will meet her mate. I looked at my phone. It’s almost midnight. Ten minutes more till midnight.

My eyes went back to the sacred paper where the letter remains. Just below my name is written. It only needs my signature now. Just one signature for everything on the sacred paper to happen tonight. I want to sign it now but my hands aren’t even moving.

I looked up to the sky hoping to see the moon but it’s not there. the sky is back to peach black. This is hopeless. I don’t even know why I am not signing the paper. I licked on my lips as confusion and irritation consumed me.

“C’mon. Nav. Just one sign.”

I sighed when I can’t convince myself to sign the sacred paper. I am feeling so torn now yet just below me, at the garden, are full of cheers and peals of laughter. They are having the time of their lives. But here I am, having second thoughts when I shouldn’t have.

This is the part of my life where I should find myself happy and excited but why am I in this position where I am torn?

My eyes glanced at the garden. My eyes remained on two persons dancing together. Zafeya and Forest. They look perfect. They look good together. Both of them can contribute a lot to Athanatoss. it’s a shame for me to be hesitant on signing the sacred paper when just one sign can give a good impact on the communities of the Athantoss. A Witch and a Wolf.

This is final.

I summoned my relic, my pen. With my trembling hands, I slowly wrote my signature. This is the right decision, Nav. I sighed as I finished signing the paper. This is it.

The sacred paper vanished into ashes as the wind led it to the sky. My eyes followed its direction. I smiled but it slowly faded as I looked down. I realized its midnight and the writings of the sacred paper had happened. Everyone cheered as their chests glowed. Their hearts have recognized each other.

And Forest’s eyes never left Zafeya. They went closer. I must be happy. I should be. There’s no reason to have regrets. I smiled as they danced.

But I never expected Forests’ next move. He slowly cupped Zafeya’s small fae. As he leaned closer. The crowd was quiet. All in awe to two hearts united.

My jaw dropped as the moon and stars appeared just in time as Forest kissed Zafeya softly.

To be continued…