The Alpha and her Luna

I Kissed a Girl

I've never kissed a girl before, but when her lips touch mine the electricity between us is palpable. I hear a strangled cry escape from my lips, but it dies against hers, muffled there as the kiss deepens. My lips part as her tongue explores and my own tongue moves tentatively to flick against hers. I've never even imagined kissing a girl, but it's different than kissing a boy. It's softer, sweeter, and somehow more intense than I've ever felt in my life. I can feel my entire body melting against her, and when her arms slide lower to pull me to her I don't pull away. Something about her calls to me and I hear Becca, my wolf say quietly, "She called us her mate. This is our mate. The Alpha's daughter. Liv.. "

Something about the urgency in my wolf's voice makes me pause, and Chloe must have feel that because the kiss ends. Her forehead rests against mine, and both of our eyes close. We bask in the feeling for the moment, breathing in each other. Even with closed eyelids I can feel the tears prickling at my eyes just behind my lids. I whisper, only centimeters from her lips, "You have to reject me. Don't you?" I lift my head, breaking the spell between us, and my eyes open. When she lifts her head she looks confused. I don't give her the chance to respond. The words come tumbling out in a rush and when I finish I am out of breath."Everyone's saying it. You have to choose a mate to be Alpha of the pack. You can't choose me. I can't... I can't be rejected. Not now. I'm sorry. Please... don't."It was then that I pull forcefully away from her. She looks stunned, those beautiful icy blue eyes blinking at me in confusion.

I do the only thing I can think to do. I flee. I turn and run from the kitchen and out of the pack house. I can normally find my way home in the dark, in fog, and even in the rain. Tonight is the exception. I get turned around, and eventually come across one of my father's greenhouses. It's there I wake the next morning, my eyes puffy, and my heart feeling as though it had broken.

I have met my mate, but I was going to be rejected. Why would the Moon Goddess be so cruel? How could my life have changed so quickly. I never asked for more than I had. I was content with my lot in life, and I hoped one day to have a mate to love me as much as my parents loved one another. I'd never have that. I'd never have a mate. I don't think I could live with that fate.

When I finally leave the greenhouse the faint sliver of daylight is starting to show on the horizon. I take a deep breath and steel myself for what I have to do and begin the trek to my home. Life will never be the same for me. I know that now, and it is time to take charge of my own life.