The Essence of Eternity - Awaken

Chapter I - The Realization

Friday 00:03, May 14th, 2010

I always thought there was more to come in my life.

My life was not bad but it never felt complete either. I was trembling through my steps all my years. I was living, studying and enjoying but always with the anticipation that my real life had not yet started. I was never sure of my actions. Never completely satisfied with everything I experienced. I followed my daily routine just to leave behind my days, my years… until this something would appear. Until this someone would appear… until he would appear.

I was looking forward to be madly and passionately in love... to live for him. Aren’t we all? I did not expect anything more than every girl dreams, did I?

And he did appear! He showed up and all the rest faded away. Only he was nothing as I expected him to be…well, not nothing; he was damn gorgeous and sexy and smart. But I could see disaster coming. I did not care - He had come for me!

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I think back at the time when life was easier, ordinary but safer, and I kind of miss this feeling of monotony. Did I ask for this new life? Was it always in my destiny to turn? Once I met him I had no choice. I could never live without him, so the decision became easier. Was that the right decision i keep wondering?