Thirty-Four: ReedShe said she loved you. I had been repeating this in my head while driving to the hospital. It was under the worst possible conditions, but she'd said it, and she'd meant it. I could feel the intensity that came with the words as well as the fear that came after, but it wasn't fear that it was untrue, it was that it was true, and she couldn't deal. That was fine. I'd been waiting for her to realize it since we were eleven.
I found my car parked poorly in a spot in front of the hospital without remembering driving there. It occurred to me that my mind was so unfocused, and I was so out of balance that I was opening myself up to just about anything, energetically speaking. I knew I'd be walking into more pain and more grief when I went to see Jared. It was going to hurt, bu
