Maybe Mika’s presence somehow soothed the loneliness that I felt today. It’s been the third day since I left New York, and since I don’t have a phone, I don’t know what is happening there or if Maximus is looking for me.
Did he miss me?
Well, I doubt that.
If he missed me, he could’ve found me already. It’s been days and there’s no trace of a search. Or maybe he won’t really find me because I’m not relevant to him.
He doesn’t love me. He just wanted to cover the lies of his father. That’s it. He wanted me gone even. So maybe if he finds me here, it’s not because he cares. It’s because he wants me gone. The thought makes me sick, but what hurts more is that I still want him to come.
I still have morning sickness, and even today when I woke up, I suddenly craved steak. I tried making so
