Our Little Secret: in Love With My Professor

Stay With Me

Albert

I can't believe that my evening and all the expectations I had just went out the window just like that.

After Emon took me back inside, we didn't even stay for long. My chest felt constricted and my throat was hurting since it had started swelling due to the allergy and so, we had to go back home.

All the while, during the drive, I didn't speak. My mind was on what had happened.

Why was Ed back in my life and what did he want? I made it clear that I was over him when I left that night and I never intended to go back there. I didn't want to see any of them. As long as I kept in touch with mom and dad and I knew that they were okay, I could care less about my brother or Ed. They had both betrayed me.

For the past year, I have really tried to build a life for myself and I was almost falling for Emon but Ed had to just come to my life and destroy all the walls I had tried to build around my heart.

Ed… my first love. The man who made me smile. The man who made me have my first wet dream. The man who my body craved day and night. The man who I was determined to win, age gap be damned. The man who made the sun shine in my life even when I was gloomy.

Ed, the man I wanted to be better for.

Ed. The man who hurt me. The man who gave me my first heartbreak.

How can he expect me to just leave Emon and go back to him as if nothing happened.

Anyway, I am not even sure that is the reason why he came looking for me.

Or, I am just overthinking it and it was just a coincidence. Maybe he did not even know that I was in Nevada and it was all one big surprise for him as it was for me.

But then again, why would he leave his home and his son to come here? What's in it for him? Why the school I am in of all the schools in this great state?

And what was with him having the exact meds I needed for my allergy? Did he know that I would be there? How did he know that I would eat pineapples?

I hate all this and…

Without even knowing it, I hit the dashboard and Emon looks at me and he controls the steering wheel with one hand and his right hand right hand holds mine.

“Baby, what's wrong? Should we pass by the hospital?" He asks and I shake my head.

Obviously, I can't go to a human hospital because then, they would find out that I am not a human. What's with my exaggerated heartbeat and pulse?

I know that I am not like other werewolves and I don't heal fast and all but that doesn't change the fact that I still heal faster than most humans and my metabolism is higher and my heartbeat is also higher as compared to humans.

“I am sorry that I gave you that cocktail. We have been together for a year and I should have known,” Emon starts blaming himself and I squeeze his hand that's holding mine.

“Don't worry about it. I never told you and there was no way you would have known,” I tell him and it's the truth.

"I'm still sorry. Tell me what I can do to make it up to you," he says and I can feel the guilt in his voice.

“Anything?” I ask though I know that Emon would bring me the moon if I asked.

“Anything," he says as I smile.

“How about you never leave me?" I say.

I know that I am being selfish but I need to know that Emon would be with me no matter what happens.

I know that I am being a bad person since I don't love him but I can learn how to love him.

Emon pampers me and gets whatever I want and sings to my tune and he has never gotten angry at me and… he's the man I wish Ed was but I don't care. I can and will learn how to love him.

“You don't have to ask. That I will do. It's you I should ask not to leave me. I don't know why but I feel as if…” my heart beats faster at that. Could Emon have discovered the relationship between me and Ed?

"As if what?" I ask with a shaky voice.

“I…" he sighs, “never mind," he says and I can't take it.

“Emon, talk to me. What's wrong?" My throat is itchy and I cough.

He looks at me and I turn his head so that he can look at the road and he chuckles.

The last thing I want is a car accident because I am not sure that Emon would survive.

It's still early and there are a lot of vehicles on the road and I can see people busy in their shops as we drive by and Emon clears his throat.

“Don't leave me. Can you stay with me? I know that we had agreed on friends with benefits but… I am sorry Al. I am the one who fell in love with you and I know it's against what we had agreed on and … can I be selfish and ask you to stay with me?” This is the most vulnerable I have ever seen Emon in the one year that I have known him.

I don't know what to say. Should I promise him? What if I don't keep that promise?

So, I keep quiet because I don't want to lie.

We get home and the guard in duty opens the underground garage for us and after we pack, we get out on opposite sides and Emon comes to my side and takes my hand.

“Baby, there is no pressure. Think about it. I will be okay with whatever decision you make," he says and I feel tears sting my eyes.

“Okay," I say and kiss his cheek and he smiles at me. The smile that always grounds me.

“Let's go up?" He asks and starts pulling me and my mood is starting to get better.

“Al?" The baritone I would know even with my ears closed.

“Professor?" Emon calls as we turn and he's as surprised as I am.

“How… what… why are you here?” Emon asks.