you are my everything

chapter 12

Harsha's pov 

pain, hurt, depression, angry these are the only things that remained in me, I don't for how long I can keep this facade of hatred in front of her. I feel tired, restless, and moreover helpless that I can't do anything to protect my loved ones. I feel like I don't deserve her. 

I know I am hurting her, but what can I do, I just want her to be safe. I know today I became a big piece of s**t by hurting her and also leid to her, that our marriage is about a business deal but nothing else, I just want her to be safe, after our fight I know she says she wants to go to her home, I don't want that to happen it's not safe for her.

yes, she is in threat, and that was because of me. I feel ashamed to call myself her husband.

when uncle called me that night and what he told me shook me to the core, I was in rage, anger and wanted to kill those bastards and tore them into pieces.

I came to India the very next day, my father, uncle Rahul, and Ajay are there.

I greeted them and we went to our house.

Ajay is driving us, while dad, uncle, and Rahul are in another one.

yes, Ajay and I are est best buddies, to say best also small word.

" so, what are you going to do about it," he asked.

"I don't know, I just feel like I wanted to kill them with my own hands," I replied with rage.

" we will, we definitely going to kill them but before that, we have to ensure madhura's safety," he said with some rage, Ajay never shows his true emotions, he shows them rarely but this time he did.

the whole ride was silent as we were in our thoughts on how to handle the situation.

we reached our destination, Ajay's mansion, as Ajay's parents are in the USA he lives alone in his house, and we cant discuss this matter in front of our family members so we came here.

this place hasn't changed a bit, from childhood we used to hang out here most of the time.

" Harsha, after thinking a lot Ajay gave us this idea." my father spoke.

everyone is looking at me with a worried face.

" what is it?" I asked with a blank expression.

" you have to marry her and take her to London. It takes time for them to know her whereabouts, and we can plan to destroy them in this meantime. although dad is old now he used to be a mafia leader when he was young and he had many connections with them even now also, well that allow me to be one of them now, even we are not directly involved, that doesn't mean we do crimes and all, we stop them, our alliances are everywhere. in every country.

I looked at them in pain and in anger.

" look beta I know what you are going through but there is no other solution for this problem now. uncle spoke.

"I can't, I can't do this, there has to be another solution," I said and made my way out.

I feel angry, rage, I punched the wall after coming out of the room, Ajay followed me, he yelling my name, when I am almost reached my car, he stopped me.

" what do you think you are doing? huh," he yelled.

" you know what they are talking about, you f*****g know, what I am going through, still you want me to do this.?" I yelled back.

right then Karthik and vineeth came there.

" what's happening here bro," Vineet asked me.

" you know what he is talking about?" I asked looking at Ajay.

" trust me if we had any other solution than this, we will never ask you about this," Karthik said looking at me.

" so you both know about this, huh," I yelled, I am getting angry, right now I am frustrated.

" Harsha pull yourself together this is not the time for your f*****g emotions ok, and what is wrong with you man." Rahul came out yelling.

" besides I am gonna ask you one Harsha, you don't wanna answer it ut think about it.  can you trust someone with your wife safety, huh." Rahul asked.

I am stunned. " I know I am her brother and we are there for her, but it's not safe for her to be here at this time, we have to send her to someplace where she can be safe," Rahul said looking at me.

I stood there without talking and thinking about what he is talking about.

he sighed and continued " safe place, but where, can u leave her, somewhere alone and trust someone thinking she is safe, we all know you can't, and also know what happened in the past makes you think you cant do it." he said and nodded to Ajay and left.

I stood there bewildered. what am I even thinking I am too selfish to think about another plan, Rahul is right, there is no other place, I have to protect her, and I can't trust her safety with someone, f**k now I can't even risk of trusting someone now.

I am sorry my love for thinking selfishly thinking about myself, I will protect you no matter what. I know can't control myself, I am around with you, ut I have to e strong.

if I am in front of her my mind recalls all our past memories,  which she doesn't even remember, and that I can't control myself I will e an emotional wreck.

"I am ready," I said determined to protect her.

" you what?" they asked shocked.

"I am ready to do this, sorry man, I just can't control myself," I said and apologized Ajay.

"Woah, someone got a serious issue of manner here." he mocked, normally it's rare I say sorry to people.

we all laughed.

"let's go in I just want to taste the wine you bought from Italy." Karthik excitedly while entering into the house.

" don't you dare touch that one, I am saving it for special occasions," Ajay said and hurried behind Karthik who is now running inside.