Love Story... Not???

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It was a refreshing monday!!

And for the record mas maaga akong pumasok sa skul. Inaagahan ko na talaga everyday kasi nga nakakapagod umiwas sa mga kamalasan.. Sa totoo lang hindi naman kamalasan ang nangyayari sa'kin, kasi sadya lahat ng pang-aalipusta nila sa akin.. ALIPUSTA TALAGA!!! Kasi talaga namang inaalipusta nila ako, hinahamak-hamak, kinakawawa.. Bullying in this world is illegal.. But in them bullying me is their life!!! And so I qoute "You should never ever interlude on other's life!" First, because sometimes they are just a stranger to you, second they might be just someone who was pretending to be part of your life..

At isa pa pag ba pinatulan ko sila, titigil ba sila sa mga ginagawa nila sa akin???

Nakuh, baka nahihiya na nga si satanas sa mga ginagawa nila sa akin ehh.. Baka pati si satanas hindi na sila tanggapin sa impyerno at ilipat ang impyerono katabi ng lagit para hindi na rin nila maabot at marating..

I honestly have tried, not just once, nor twice neither thrice, but alot of times na pinigilan ko sila. Nakinalaban ko sila. Na ipinagtanggol ang sarili ko.. Naipakita sa lahat na mali ang ginagawa nila. But would you believe that noone cared?? That noone even believe what I am fighting for.. That I am getting my human rights, but as if I am not a loving han beimg to them. So they doesn't even care that whatever s**t they are doing to me..

I don't definitely trust people, not any one. But I never hate anyone. That's the fact.. Even how they makes my life suffer, even how they makes my life miserable, even how they made me think of not living it never made me hate them..

They were just too insecure on how too good to be true I am.

I am a 17 year old lady, never been dependent on my family. Since I was 9 years old, I have learned to make my own money. I have learned to stand up on my own.

I have friends I trusted the most, but apparently as time goes by when I have learned some secrets about my life, everything had changed!!

My friends just befriending me, because they are getting somethimg from me.. I am not a materialistic person, even when we have money. I lived a simple life since I grew that's why it was never been a problem to me to live indepently and simply with nothing but a simple rice and a sardines in the table. Sardines is my favorite dish..

I know how to cook and baked.. I know how to do the house hold chores. I am a fully independent lady at the age of 17, I have my own house from my own money.. At the age of 9 I learned to work to support my own needs.. I have never been materialistic because I know how hard to earn money.

I have a part time job and a full time job at the same time.. My full time job is just online, so it is comvinient for me even I have school in the morning, thought I need to go personally for my full time job sometimes. I worked as part time job as a working student, I am waitress at night. It's hard, really hard as in very hard living alone and standing up just by your own. But I do enjoyed my life..

It was not as precious like rich people was, but I could say that I am happy having a simple yet happy life.

I am not saying n happy life ang mga nararansan kong pagpapahirap nila sa'kin everyday.. But I am not being negative!! Yes, I know I have the worst life. Like I cannot see anyone in these world to trust my life with. Because in every second of everytime minutes and every air I intake and breath was like a misery. I may complained on how my life is being miserable, but I knew naman that I can still live happily despites of all the things that is happening..

"Ohh you are early, I mean more early today." Naparoll eyes na lang ako ng magsalita ang Prinsipal at umupo sa 4 seater couch niya sa office. "Don't dare to lean your foot nor shoes on the glass table, Ven." And she glared at me. As in sobrang sama ng tingin ng ipapatong ko ang paa ko.

"OA! Kala mo naman ginto ang glass table mo!Tsss!" Sabi ko at inirapan siya nahiga na lang sa couch. Damot ehh, papatong lang naman ang paa sa table. Arte.. "Such a gay!" Sabi ko at pumikit.

"f**k! Me gay? You know how many girls droll over me, Ven!" At ngumisi si koyang niyo! Tsk!! Yabang!!

"As if I care!" I said and roll my eyes even my eyes was still closed. "Ehh, ang pangit mo nga!" I said pang asar lang sa kanya..

"F-"

"Alam mo hindi ko alam bakit Prinsipal ka ehh kung makamura ka nga kala mo walang katungkulan. Umakto ka kayang kagalang galang!" Sabi ko.. Kasi tignan mo may Prinsipal ka bang maririnig na nagmumura. Diba nga dapat huwaran sila sa mga studyanteng katulad ko..

"As if I care what you said and think, Ven." See napakabastos na Principal. Wala man lang ipakitang maganda.. Kaya ang mga studyante dito sa eskwelahan na ito ay mga walang modo ehh.. Kasi ultimo namumuno walang modo. "And comming from a student like you, huh? Do you think I need to respect you? You don't even know the word RESPECT!" Kahit nakapikit pa ako alam kong nakangisi yan ng todo.. Tsk! Ang yabang talaga.

"That's why you need to be more respectful infront of me, because I might just be like these because you are showimg me no reapect at all!" I said at natahimik siya.. See!!! tssss!!

"You're too early, what really what brings you here?" Sabi niya matapos ang mga ilang kinutomg katahimikan..

"Matutulog!" Simpleng sagot.. Ayaw ko nga sanang sumagot kasi nonsense lang rin kaya lang kailangan ko pa rin siyang respetohin dahil mataas pa din siya sa'kin.. At baka kapag p]nakitaan ko siya ng kagalangan at respeto doon niya matutunan ang salirang respeto at kagalang galang.

"Tss! Bakit ka pa papasok ng maaga kung matutulog ka lang rin, at talagang dito ka pa matutulog sa opisina ko? Baka nakakalimutan mo na Principal ako dito at estudyante ka lang dito?" Sabi niya at sa tono ng pananalita niya ay parang nagyayabang siya na Principal siya..

"Sir Dina, noong pinasok ko po ang opisisno mo malaking mga letrang PRINCIPAL's OFICE and nabasa ko sa labas, so I know whonare you and what are you here! But that doesn't changed the fact na gusto ko matulog sa opisina mo!" Sabi ko.. Natatamad ako kausap ang lalaking ito.. "At isa pa natutilog Ko pwede ba na gawin mo na lamang ang mga paper works me at hayaan akong matulog." Sabi ko at mas ipinikit ang mata ko..

"That is exactly my point, you came early to school to just what? To just sleep? What a honorable and respectful student you are that you think, I guess, these office is like an Hotel that you can stay whenever you want! For f*****g pete's sake these room is a principal's office. You are just a student and you are acting that you can just do whatever you want even in front of the most respectable human being in this school.. I don't get what is really in your mind!" Sa tingin ko mababali nanaman ang leeg niya yan sa kakailing.

"As I have said awhile, I have read that it is a Principal's Office before I enter." Bored n a sagot ko. Ayaw ko namang maging bastos kasi kinakausap niya ako tapos hindi ako sasagot.. Hindi naman ako ganoon ka bastos!! Tahahahaha.

"Yeah, and you have the guts to sleep and talk to me like that?" Gigil na sabi niya at ang koyamg niyo galit na.

"You know what Mr. Dina, kaya Di ka na nakapag-asawa kasi ang grumpy mo. Mahihiga lang naman ako dito ahh.."

"Lang?? LANG? You call it "Lang" when in fact you should bot be doing it?" Galit na sabi niya at naramdaman ko ang presense niya ss sabi ko kaya napafilat ng kaonti ang kaliwang mata ko para makonfirm kung lumapit nga siya sa akin.

"What?" I just said ng maconfirm ko na nasa gilid ko na siya at nakatingin ng masama sa akin.

"That's the reason why all the students here is making horriboe things to you!" Sabi niya

Napabamgon ako dahil sa sinabi niya at sinamaan siya ng tingin.. "THAT'S A FOUL WORD!" I glared at him while saying it..

And ang koyang niyo tinaasan lang ako ng isang kilay.. See ang bakla talaga kaya walang asawa to ehh.. Grumpy na mukhang bakla pa..Tssss!! I really don't understand iyong mga babaeng nagkakagusto sa kanya..

"And you think what you said to me are not foul words??" Nakangising sabi niya at mukhang nag-iinis si koyang niyo.. Haiyst!! Akala ko mga matatandang dalaga lang ang mahirap kausap at masungit pati pala matatandang binata!! My Gosh!!!

"What is foul words dun, totoo lang naman na hindi ka makapag-asawa kasi grumpy ka!" Inungusan ko siya at nag cross arms ng mga kamay ko at mataray na tinignan siya..

"Do you think it was not foul to say those kinds of words infront of your Principal?" Tanong niyang nakataas ang kilay. Ang bakla talaga!

Tumango-tango ako sa kanya.. Hindi naman talaga foul words iyon ahh.. "Why? Do you think it is better to talk things like thay behind your back?" Sabi ko at napailing ako sa mga pag-iisip na meron siya..

"That's not the point, Ven!!" Inis na sabi niya at kinalma ang sarili. " Inis na sigaw niya at natigalgal ako sa pagsigaw niya.. Kailangan sumigaw talaga???? I was about to shout back ng magsalita ulit siya."Ven, it was not good talk behind my back, yes!! But all I am saying is, is it respectful for you to talk to me like that? You are even yelling at me, talking back at me!! FOR YOUR MORE INFORMATION MS. ANGELIQUE HEAVEN DE TRUTH, I AM YOUR PRINCIPAL HERE IN THESE SCHOOL!! If you cannot respect me as your principal then respect me as a human being!!" Drama niya..

Tssss!!!!

"Sir, I am not disrespecting you---"

"Then what do you like of the things you were doing and the thing you were saying to me?" Mataray na tanong niya, ts!!! May sa bakla talaga itong si Sir Dina.

" Sir I am just silently here. I would just like to sleep and be in peace----"

"And you don't considered it disrespecting, huh?" Inis putol niya sa'kin at tinanong yan ng pasarkastiko.. tss!! Siya nga itong bastos na hindi ako hinahayaang magsalita man lamang ehh!!!

"How does it became disrespectful?" I asked puzzled trying to think carefully why does he act like that..

Honestly, gusto ko man siyang pilosopohin but I wont. Kasi in these state, yang ganyanang mga pananalita niya, galit na yan deep inside at baka parusahan ako ng hindi oras., Kaya nga ako nandito kasi para maka-iwas naman kahit papaano sa mga pang-aalispusta nila sa akin tapos ngayon naman na nagpapahinga ako at nananahimik ehh masisisra lang.. That is a NO NO NO!!!

Huminga siya ng malalim at tinignan ako ng parang hindi siya makapaniwala sa mga inaasta ko ngayon.. Na parang nagtitimpi siya ng husto para hindi lubusang sumabog at hindi masyadong magalit. "Ven!" Sabi niyang may diin at huminga ulit ng malalim. "Office ito, hindi HOTEL, MOTEL o REST HOUSE! Hindi ka pwedeng matulog dito." Pigil inis na dugtong niya.

Napapout ako at napakamot sa ulo. "Ehh ikaw nga nakikita kitang natutulog dito madalas ehh, tapos sasabihin mo na hindi ito tuylugan?" Sabi kong pangangatwiran..

"Haiyst!!! Ang sarap sisihin ng mga magulang mo sa pag-uugali mo!!" Sabi niyang nagpipigil ng inis at napapa-iling. " Ms. Angelique Heaven De Truth Office ko ito kaya ako pwede kong gawin ang kung ano man ang gustuhin ko rito as long as nagtatrabaho ako ng matino.---"

"Ohh nag-aaral din ako dito ng matino Sir Dina, kaya pwede ko ding gawin ang gusto ko!" Pigil ko sa sinasabi niya niya at nagtaas pa ng hintuturo ko sa tapat ng mukha niya at nginitian siya.

"Pat---"

"OPPPSS!!" I said at pinutol siya sa pagsasalita.. I even put my point finger on his lips to shut him off!!

Inis naman niyang tinanggal ang daliri ko sa bibig niya at masama akong tiningnan.

Bumuntong hininga na naman siya ng pang sampong beses para pigilan ang pag-kainis, at hindi ko alam bakit ko ba binibilang kung naka-ilang buntong hininga na siya.. tsss!!

"Just get out of my office now, hanggang nakakapagpigil pa ko at hindi ka maparusahan." Walang ganang sabi niya at bumalik sa pagkakaupo sa upuaan niya.

Napanguso naman ako at napadabog na parang bata. "Kaya nga ako nag-stay dito at nagpapahinga para makatakas sa mga pang-aalipusta ng mga estudyante mo dito na wala yatang breeding at walang mga kaluluwa!" Sabi ko na waring nagsusumbong sa tatay at pasalampak na naupo sa couch.

"Huwag ka kasing masyadong mataray at isnabera!" Inis na sabi niya at tinignan ako ng mataray.. Tssss!!!

"Ako pa ang mataray? Ako nga iyong inaapi!" Iningusan ko siya..

"Bakit? Sino sa tingin mo ang dahilan kaya nila sinimulan yan?" Mataray na tanong niya sa'kin at tinaasan pa ako ng kilay at nakangisi pa..

"Ehh di sila!" Sabi ko..

"Sila???" Nakangising tanong niya sa akin.. " Si Trish ba ang unang nagsaboy ng pintura sa'yo? Si Trish ba ang unang naglagay ng bubble gum sa'yo? Si Tris----"

Bigla umusbong ang galit sa dibdib ko ng banggitin niya ang pangalan na iyon.."Oo siya ang dahilan!!! Kasalanan niya!"Inis na sigaw ko.." Kasalanan niya!! Kaya mo sila hinahayaan na ganituhin ako dahil sa mahaderang babae na iyon?" Inis na sigaw kong tanong sa kanya.. Tinitigan niya lang ako at hindi nagsalita. "Kasalanan niya at hindi magbabago ang isisp ko na sisihin siya ng sisihin!! Wala akong kasalanan!! WALA!!!" Sabi ko at tumalikod na sa kanya.. Pabalang kong isinara ang pintuan ng upisina niya at lumabas ng school..

I don't feel well after hearing her name!!!

She is.....

Umuwi na ako at nagmukmok sa bahay.. Hindi na lang ako papasok..

Nawalan na ako ng ganang pumasok!!!