Loving our scared Hearts

CHAPTER TWO 2

BENARD’S POV

" What is it, Uriel? " I asked my personal assistant as I sat up on my bed. Biting my lower lip, I listened attentively to all he had to say about the business.

" Sir, this is the second time you have stood up the wedding planner from Mr Delgado ""he said, and I cursed under my breath.

" I thought the meeting was tomorrow ? I asked and frowned immediately. I realized he had called me earlier to inform me about the meeting.

" Sir, I called you earlier to inform you about the meeting. ""You even agreed, ""he said calmly.

Oh , did I agree? How come I forgot about it ? I got down from the bed and wore my room slippers.

" Have you heard from her? I asked and he sighed softly. Miss Shebly was really annoyed about the situation. "She freaked out and said a lot of things out of anger. " He went ahead to explain in detail.

" I was busy yesterday evening," I said, and my mind went over to what was keeping me busy the previous night. The blond girl from the club. I smirked as I remembered the dirty things we did together the previous night.

What was her name again ? I can't even remember, I made my way out of the room.

" Sir, I think you should try to call Miss Shebly and apologize, ""he said, and I frowned. What exactly should I be apologizing for ? It's not like I'm the first person to stand someone up.

" Sir, you did it twice "Uriel said, as if he was reading my thoughts. I groaned in frustration. "Fine, I will call her up and get back to you" I said, and he sighed in relief.

" Buongiorno signore {good morning sir}"" the workers greeted me as they walked past me in their working uniforms.

" Hey love "", I heard someone call and looked up in shock. What exactly was this girl still doing in my mansion this morning ? I wondered whilst trying to hide my shock.

" Are you hungry ? ""I made breakfast, ""she said, walking towards the dining table. I nearly had a heart attack seeing her in my sweatshirt.

" I'm not hungry. "Why are you still here ?" I asked her in surprise, and she turned to me with a smile on my face.

" Come on Ben. ""You must be starving, let's have breakfast first and think of ways to...""she trailed, and I stared at her, then at the dining table.

" I'm not hungry Stella. " I don't understand why you are still in my house. ""Yesterday was fun, trust me, but I don't want this.I don't want a woman in my house cooking and wearing my sweatshirt, ""I said, trying my best not to panic.

" Benard, did I do something wrong ? She asked, and I rubbed my forehead in frustration, What have I gotten myself into?

" Yesterday was a one-night stand. It's called a nightstand for a reason, Stella. I don't understand why you're still at my place this morning. Okay, maybe you're still here because you just woke up. I understand. "But why are you in my sweatshirt and trying to act like we have a relationship or something ? " I said calmly.

" I thought we had a connection. "Last night the way you touched me ..." She trailed and I stared at her.

" That's the way I touch any other woman," I said, and her eyes flashed with hurt.

" Last night was fun. ""I can write you a check or something if that makes you feel any better ""I said, and regretted my actions immediately. Her hand met with cheek in a slap.

" non sei altro che un bastardo”{you are nothing but a bastard}she spat in Italiano and I didn't say anything in return.

" The door is that way,"I said when I noticed how furious she was. She went upstairs and came downstairs with her bag and shoes.

" You are not a stone Benard. One day you will understand how many girls you have hurt when you meet someone like you ""she spat in hurt.

" By the way, my name is Adelaide," she said angrily and rushed out of my house.

I don't think I'll be stupid enough to want anything serious with anyone. The essence of serious relationships is because of what they had to gain from the relationship. I learned that from my parents.

My parents are very successful politicians. They always played a perfect couple while I watched my Dad cheat countless times and my mom pretended like none of it was happening in front of her. He would sleep with the maids and anything in a skirt. At seven, I realized mom didn't care about what all he did, because of what she had to gain from the marriage and, at that point, she was already having a series of affairs. What hurt more was the countless times we had to fake a happy family in front of the world. At eight, they got divorced and married different partners. Dad still keeps different mistresses and has a lot of children. Mom has twin girls in her new home and is genuinely happy. While I'm all flawed up by their mistakes.

Why then should I go into a serious relationship when I already know the outcome ? One day, I'm going to get bored with the relationship and hurt someone's daughter, so it's better I don't even venture into that part of life.

I'm never going to get married or have children. I'll enjoy my life to the fullest. After all, we only live once. The closest I have to family are my best friends.

Adonis Stravakos and Leonardo Delagdo . They are my greatest support. Leon is getting married soon, and I'm supposed to meet his wedding planner to discuss how things are going to go, with regard to the kitchen.

I'm beginning to feel guilty for standing her up, but I was busy. It's not like I did it on purpose anyway.

You did it on purpose. My mind mocked me and I sighed. Maybe I did it on purpose. I'll just find a way to make it up to miss Shelby. I wonder what she looks like.

Today is going to be a long day.

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SARA’S POV

" Bride to be, huh. "My girl is going to be someone's wife" Avyrll teased our friend Imani as she walked into my sitting room with a bottle of soft wine and three glasses.

" I'm going to be someone's wife, the same way that both of you are going to be someone's wife one day , Imani said and Avy cooed while I frowned.

" Count me out of it. ""I do not want to be anyone's wife," I said immediately, and both the girls stared at me like I had grown horns unknowingly.

" What did you just say ? ""Imani asked from where she sat on my sofa.

" I said I was not going to be anyone's wife. ""Marriage is not for everybody. ""Maybe I might consider getting a sperm donor when I think of having kids,"" I said, and they stared at me with jaws dropped.

Unlike me, Imani is a South African girl. She has a complete family and grew up with all the love she deserves. She is average height and very beautiful.

Averyl is the craziest in our midst. She's light-skinned with a bubbly personality. She's a total softy and a social butterfly . She was raised by her father after her mom passed away. Her Dad is South African and her mom is British.

" Give me five thousand three hundred reasons why you do not want to get married ? " Imani asked, frowning.

" Get me a book, I'll write you a dictionary if that's what you are looking for," I said, and Avy threw a cushion at me.

" Sara guys have more to offer. "Life is not all about s*x,"" Imani said, frowning.

""Life has to be about s*x. What's life without some serious fun ? I asked and Avy and I burst into laughter as she blushed red.

" Bad girl ""Avy hailed as she shook her butts dramatically.

" I still don't believe in random s*x," Imani said, frowning.

" That's where you keep getting it wrong. ""It's not like I sleep with any guy I meet. ""I won't deny the fact that I have an active s*x life. ""I'm not a prude nor am I a virgin. ""I'm only being realistic, ""I said and Avy laughed.

" She's just a girl, and she's on fire ! " Avy hailed like my personal hype woman.

" Men tend to ruin vibes by talking about marriage. ""Why should I get married in the first place and feel vulnerable towards a man that deserves nothing from me? ""I said and Imani sighed softly.

" I'm scared of the guy who would love you madly. "He'll cry,"Imani said, and I chuckled.

"Why would somebody's son decide to fall in love with me? I'm not a candidate for love. I said, getting up on my feet.

" Have you talked to Benard after the other time you called in anger?"" Imani asked, changing the topic.

" That arrogant peacock that stood me up twice ? The day we meet, that man would get a piece of my mind ", I said angrily, and Avy choked.

" Babe" Avy whined, and I frowned in her direction.

" You're a wedding planner, you should get used to clients like Ben. I still think the guy was busy though. "Leonardo's friends are sweet souls" Imani said, and I raised an eyebrow in amusement.

" There's nothing sweet about keeping a woman waiting,"I said, and she sighed. Avy whistled immediately I walked past her.

" Now what ?"I turned and burst out laughing.

" What's funny ? I asked, raising both hands and she laughed.

" Your backside is giving what it's supposed to give. ""You look like the reason men get seduced," Avy said, raising her glass dramatically.

" Some serious confusion,"Imani said as I twerked my backside teasingly.

""Give your life to Christ Sara "she said as I laughed.

""Girl, you need to see me in action”". I said teasingly and

Her eyes widened, and her jaws literally dropped in shock.

" SARA! "She screamed in horror while Averyl laughed at her expense.