Her Future

Chapter Eleven

October and Dean spent almost every night since then tangled up together, Dean had taken the day off and went with her the day she had to tag sharks, though he found the whole thing just plain idiotic he loved how her face lit up with her boss after every catch after every tag. She loved her job, she loved being carefree and he could see that in her face every day.

Here is a woman who has been sheltered and told wat to do most of her life and after she finally stood up for herself she was reaching all her dream, all her goals, she was happy and he loved nothing more than seeing that look on her face. It was almost July and they had made plans to go to Hawaii for their romantic vacation, they would do this on Independence day, so they could make love on the beach under fireworks.

But until then he just wanted to spend every waking day with her, he wasnt sure why but he couldnt go a morning with out seeing her she either stayed at his place or he stayed at hers. Today his brothers and him including Milly and he hoped October were going to throw a cook out at James's house. It was a hot summer day and the gathering was long over due, James had his son and it had been to long since Dean had seen him. Jakeobe was Deans pal, it being his only nephew he cherished him and everytime his b***h of a mom would let James have him he was always there with them.

He sent a text to October letting her know of tonights plans starting at 3 pm, texted back saying she would be there, this made him smile she always wanted to be around him, Percy took quite an affection to him as well, the Irish Wolf Hound being half of the size he should be by now was a huge lug, he loved to cuddle with October on the couch or bed, many times the two of them had arguments about who would sleep next to her in her house, at his house the dog slept on the couch.

He was going to make a great dog for her.

Here he was at his brothers it was a bit passed three and she hadnt shown up yet, what was taking her so long he thought to himself, then he seen her little car pull up and her get out of it, he watched as she slowly walked her way to him, her hair falling down and straightened that day to make it appear longer, no glasses today just a navy blue t-shirt and white shorts with black sandals, she was also carrying what looked like a paper in her hands as she walked up to him, her face was set grimly.

"Hey little one." he said to her and kissed her.

"Hey." she said when they stopped kissing.

"Did you write me a sexy note?" he asked playfully.

She smiled but it didnt last long and it didnt reach her eyes, "Whats wrong October?" he said.

She just looked at him, "I need to speak with James." she said and started walking to were my brother was.

She handed him the paper and Dean watched as he read what was on it, he then grabbed her arm and told Dean to follow. when they got inside he took the two of them to the office, "When did you find this not Tobie?" he asked her.

"Just a bit ago when i was heading this way, it was stuck in my windshield wiper." she stated.

"Well what the f**k does it say?" Dean said impatient.

James rolled his eyes at his brother but held up the note and started to read it, "October...I have watched you for some time now, i have watched while you have ripped my heart out f*****g that bar tender, does he make you c*m good w***e? did you like the present i had left you? she was in fact delightful loose as a w***e should be but delightful as i took her life, the second one wasnt so great, and she got hidden so close to you someday you will find her mangled body. and soon October, soon you will pay for what you have done to me, you will scream my name, then, if you dont do exactly as i say you will die. xoxo."

Dean saw red, "Who the f**k is it?" he said looking at his brother.

"I dont know Dean, if you want me to guess id say it is Ez's killer." her replied then he looked at October, "What arent you telling us October?" he asked.

She sighed, it was time, "It might be my ex husband." she said, she looked at Dean as she said it and his face said it all, he was pissed but he was also shocked that she had been married before.

"Your husband?!" he stated voice raised.

October flinched a little, "No Dean, ex husband." she said.

"Ok when the hell did this happen?" he asked crossing his arms over his chest.

"About seven years ago, " she said, "I met a man my family knew through business. He was about 6 years older than I, my parents insisted i go out with him, i didnt see why not at the time, he was sweet and he liked to laugh and make jokes. two years after that they again insisted we get married, so he bought the ring and we went to the court house and tied the not." she told the men looking at her feet.

"What else?" James asked, he noticed the look she threw at him after he asked for more info. "October, i need to know it all, and i think its time you told my brother the same." he said looking at her with narrow eyes.

She already knew both men were judging her she could see it in their eyes, it made her angry that they would, they had known her for months the real her so when she seen those looks she felt let down. Fine she thought if they wanted the damn story they would get it.

With a raised eye brow October paced to the window. "After i  married Mark Jones, everything changed, i was to never leave the house or even the bedroom with out being done up, that meant cloths shoes make up and hair. I was to attend, in his arms as a trophy, every gathering the company had set up, he worked for my parents, my parents owned a law firm that i too had started to work for, i was made to go to law school and work there along with them and my brother, i hadnt started yet when he and i got married, i did a few months later." she turned around and looked at both the men confusion on their faces, just wait boys, she thought.

"If i missed one gathering weather it be because i was sick or had to do something, he would punish me, it started out small at first locking me up for a few hours in an unlit and small closet or in the dirty basement. Then it escalated soon i quit missing anything. when i started doing everything he asked it was always other things he would nit pick at. I was flirting with another man supposidly one time at a gathering when we go home he slapped me, not to hard as to not leave a mark or because he hit like a b***h im not sure. The final straw for me was when i had found out i was pregnant with his child. he didnt want a child he told me and we got into a fight because he said the next day i would abort it weather i liked the idea or not. When i refused over and over he went nuts, said that he would just take care of it himself. he punched me and when i fell he kicked my stomach so hard he broke three ribs, then he pulled me by the hair and threw me down the basement steps and made me stay there for 5 days with just water. on day 5 he came down to see me sobbing sitting in a pile of my own blood, i had for sure misscaried, he picked me up bridal style being very gental then he washed me up and took care of me, all the while telling me if i had just listened and did what i was told none of this would have been so bad he wouldnt have hurt me.

"I went to my parents about this and they laughed in my face, every marriage has their issues you work through it they said, stop pissing him off they said. they hadnt cared about my baby and the fact that he killed it. i had had enough, when he was at work i packed all my s**t and moved back in with my parents, then i told them after the divorce i was going to move away." she said it all.

"Why didnt you have him arrested?" James asked her.

October laughed at him, "He is a big shot lawyer, what do you think the police did when i went to them?" she asked him sarcasticaly. "Thats right they laughed in my face. so i divorced him and i ran." she stated.

She looked at Dean, she could see the anger in his eyes but this time it wasnt at her it was at the situation, "The scar on your back?" he asked her.

"Yes i got it from falling down the stairs." she said back. "Are we done here? there are people waiting for all of us." she stated getting antsy.

James sighed, " I'll send this off tomorrow and have it tested, if it is him he knows what he is doing, its safe to say he has done this more than twice, and apparently we have another body to find." he stated putting the note away. "I'll see you two out there." he said and walked out of the office.

October just stared at Dean waiting for what ever was going on in his head. "I'm sorry." was all he managed.

This pissed her off, "Just save it." 

"No i am sorry October, what you went through was horrible and your parents are horrible. Everyone here will protect you i can promise you that." he said to her.

She looked up at him to see the truth in his eyes, "I just need you Dean." she said walking towards him.

It was as if another slap in the face when he had stepped away from her, "I just need a little bit babe," he stated, holding up his hands.

"What?" she asked.

"You let all of this happen between us without telling me you were married, you didnt confide in me." he said to her.

"Would you have confided in me?" she asked raising her voice a little, "Would you have told another woman what happened if you were treated like trash? Does your brother go around telling women about his story?" she asked him.

Dean let his head fall, "No he doesnt and your right, but now he is after you and he is sick and playing horrible games, the situation is different October and you know that."

"So your saying?" she asked throwing her hands around.

"I'm saying we should go back out and enjoy the rest of the day, and after today you give me some time to deal with all of this, i will help keep you safe no doubt about it, but i have to sort through what you have kept from me for so long." he said. "I need a break." truth of it was that he was scared, he knew he had fallen in love with her the moment she walked through the gates to his brothers back yard, and it had came full swing and smacked him in the face, he loved her, he was terrified he didnt want to love her, and now he had to worry if he was going to lose her like he lost his parents, he couldnt handle it. Maybe if he took some time away from her the feelings would disolve and they could just be friends.

"Take all the time you need Dean." she said, her face blank and distant, he had put that look on her face.

"I'm sorry." he said, and she just walked passed him and back outside to talk with Milly, he decided to follow after a little while and found his nephew swinging, "Hey champ!"  he said cathcing Jackeobs attention.

"Uncle Dean!" the little boy screamed and ran towards him. Smiling and laughing he caught the little boy in his arms throwing him up in the air, "Who is that pretty lady?" he asked staring at October.

October smiled at him and he smiled back, her smile left when Dean replied, "That is October, she is our friend." he said to him giving her a look.

Just friend huh? she thought to herself, feeling her heart break even more, she was by far tired of being treated like crap for her actions, she understood why he was mad why he wanted time from her, and today was supposed to be a great day, she had woken up the last few mornings feeling sick and hungry, noticing the same signs she took a test and found out she was in fact pregnant again, she was so happy here she had a great guy she had fallen for spent weeks with, it had happened fast she knew that but she wanted him, she wanted this baby with him.

Then she had walked out to seeing a note on her car, she had giggled thinking it was Dean giving her love notes. But it was much worse, she had to tell her story, and because of that she had lost her babies father. she didnt know how she would tell him but she knew he wouldnt find out now, and maybe not for a while.

As she watched him play with the little boy her heart broke more when she had had enough she turned to Milly, "I have to leave." she said.

Milly didnt even ask she knew something was up and she would get to the bottom of it later, right now she seen the need to escape the the hurt in her friends eyes, "Ok love, call me later?" she asked as they hugged.

"Always." October said, she made her way over to James, "James?".

"Yeah?" he answered looking at her face, something was up.

"I'm not feeling to well, I'm going to go home." she said.

"Before dinner is done?" he asked.

October sighed, trying not to let the tears loose. "Yeah im tired, thank you so much for your help and if you need anything else you know where ill be." she said giving him a hug.

"Of corse, hold on ill have Dean walk you." he said and started to move.

October grabbed his arm. "Dont bother." was all she said before she walked away and got into her car and headed for home.

James walked right up to Dean, "Jake go play uncle Dean and i need to have a word, Look there is Milly." he said pointing to another one of Jakeobs favorite people. smiling as he ran off with a scream, hearing her scream as she ran towards him as well. he turned back around and looked at his i***t brother. "What did  you do?" he asked him.

"Excuse me?" Dean replied.

"To October, what did you do?" he asked.

Dean looked over not seeing her anywhere, "Where did she go?" he asked.

"Well little brother, she went home." he said.

Dean just looked down, James could see the pain in his face. "Hurts to love someone doesnt it?" he asked when realization struck him.

Dean looked up and shook his head, "It doesnt matter, she didnt trust me with this, and now, how the hell should i cope with losing her, just like mom and dad?" he asked his brother.

"You just cope Dean, you dont be an i***t and push her away when she needs you." he said.

"She still has me, i just cant be in a relationship with her until she trusts me." he told his brother getting angry.

"What the f**k do you think she did in the house?" he asked.

"Came clean because she had to." Dean stated.

James smacked the back of his head, "You f*****g moron she could have asked you to leave if she didnt want you to know." he said.

That sunk into Deans brain, and a part of him started to realize he had f****d up, but the more dominate part of him was still freaked about losing another loved one. "I just need time James." he said rubbing the back of his head.

James sighed, "Dont take to long Dean." he said to his stupid brother.

Dean didnt know how long he would take but he needed space from her, his everyday had been filled with her, he had needed her like he needed air. Maybe that was his issue he had gone to fast with her because of the pure lust she gave him, he just needed to slow things down, he had seen her face when he told Jack she was just a friend, he should have said girlfriend, but he didnt. She had hurt him, even if it was making him realize she could die, he had wanted to hurt her back and he did, and now he felt like an asswipe, he did his intentionally she did what she did out of fear, he supposed he could have related instead of acting out. He would fix it, he just needed a few days to find out if he truley loved her or if it was s****l lust.