The pain I wake to is the worst I have ever felt! It is like a constant stabbing pain going through my entire body at full speed with no break. The burn that comes with it feels like my insides are roasting inside me slowly! I try and be strong as I feel myself sweating like I have been running flat out for days, I am cold, so cold that I felt like I and going to freeze into a popsicle. With everything happening at once I couldn’t help but scream my pain out at the top of my lungs as tears fell down my face as I curl into a ball and hold myself tight. I feel helpless, just like I did all those years ago, visions I had kept locked away are flooding back hitting me with full force in my weakened state, I can’t block them, I can only endure them.
I hear my door swing open, but I am too weak
