My Marriage Diary

My Weakness

It was a thanksgiving service. I woke up late, and my parent left without me. I decided to take my time and avoid attending Sunday school just to avoid being in a class taught by brother JJ. Charles beeped my phone, and I told him I was preparing for church, he offered to give me a lift since he was running some errands around that axis. I dressed up and waited in front of our gate for him and within a seconds we were on our way to church.

I arrived at church just in time for the praise and worship session. Nini my younger sister was gleaming with smiles as I approached. She ushered me to a seat and winks. For a moment I was wondering what the hell is always wrong with the stupid girl. I sat down, closed my eyes and said a quick prayer and stood up to join the wonderful praises. As I was dancing and rejoicing for no reason, I mistakenly pushed the person beside me and turned to say sorry, lo and behold, it was brother JJ, my youth President, Sunday school teacher and oh my gosh, my suitor.

I couldn't find the voice to even utter sorry, I just stood there, mouth in awe and I was stunned.

" Sorry," he said as he adjusted himself

I just nodded my head like a lizard, still staring at him, and wasn't even sure of what was running through my mind. I mistakenly stole a glance around the church and my eyes met with my younger sister and she smiled and gave me thumbs up. Gosh, that silly girl knew JJ was my seatmate and still ushered me to sit close to him... But wait a minute I did not even see him when I sat there, was the sort of invisible or what? Damn it, so it was his bible that was there... He must have joined the ministers in prayers. My blame, I couldn't even his bible.

Throughout the church service, my mind was nowhere to be found, yes I was so uncomfortable sitting close to our handsome youth President. He’s got that brown skin adonis look going on, dark eyes that make me weak at the knees. He has the heart of a lion and the soul of an angel. He’s fit, muscular, with an almost perfectly symmetrical face. He has an African heritage that shows in his features and body type.

Brother JJ is one of those men that exudes sexuality, intentionally or not, and sends me into overdrive. As if God had moulded him just to spoil these eyes. The cold dark eyes of the man were full of intensity. He had a Roman nose and a thin pair of lips that was in a form of a smirk. His tight jaw was an angular shape that was filled with little stubbles. He had on a white cotton shirt with a silky blue vest and a pair of black pants, which tied everything together.

I kept on stealing thousands of glances at brother JJ, from his black designer shoes to his face, no wonder all the young sisters in the church were always flocking around him. Sometimes they engaged him after church in the meaningless discussion, and one reason he had more sisters in his Sunday school class that the church even had to some of them to join another class.

One thing was certain, despite his handsome, rich and intelligent personality, Brother JJ had this undefined pride, his arrogant smiles didn't even push away Most of the sisters I'm sure always give testimony every Sunday just to be noticed by him.

" hold your neighbour's hand as we sing I need you to survive"

That was the pastor's voice from the pulpit, I had died time and did not even know how to hold his hands, but he did hold mine and I melted and I believe he knew the effect he had on me.

Finally, the song ended, and the pastor still wait ahead to tell us to turn to our neighbour and say

" I love you".

That was the height of it all, I turned to look at him, he smiled and said: " I love you".

Immediately after the grace in fellowship, I hurriedly rushed to the ushering unit to give Nini a slap of her life, but I met her in the company of her departmental people, I angrily walked out and went to the car park to wait for my parent. It was boring, so I decided to take a few selfies to keep my self busy.

" Hello sis K"

I turned and there my weakness was standing before me in the full mission to devour daughter of Zion. I blinked my eyes a million time and nodded my head.

" I did not see you in the youth meeting, your sis said you were out here, so I decided to check up"

" youth meeting? oh, sorry I was not aware".

" It was posted in the youth w******p group that there will be a brief meeting after service today, nevertheless, we have rounded up"

" okay" I responded

" do you mind if I help you with the pictures? "

he asked as he stretched his hands for my phone. I handed him the phone and struck 4 or 5 poses and said thank you. He put his hands in his pocket, smiled and walked away without even looking back.

" what arrogance? proud rich brat".

I murmured as I changed my DP on Bbm.

"Beep" that was an SMS, I checked it and saw a message

"You look so beautiful today, and you smell nice"

I tried calling the number but it kept showing user busy, just then another message came in

" stop trying to call me, look in front of you and you will know"

I hurriedly looked in front of me and the only person I could see in the midst of sisters busy taking pictures was brother JJ, fiddling with his phone and wasn't even looking at my direction.

" that ladies man " I muttered the words and dial Charles number.