My Marriage Diary

Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea

My relationship with Charlie wasn't a bad one. He was a spender, he spoilt me with a lot of beautiful gifts. They were times I had to lied at home that we had an excursion in school and went ahead to travel outside the country with Charlie and Emem. My parents never knew there was more than just my childhood friendship with Emem, f**k it, Emem was practically my future sister-in-law, and her parents never knew of that too.

On one of our trips, it was Charlie's birthday, I remembered that date vividly 14 July 2007, Emem's mom had begged my mom to allow me to go to Abuja on a vacation with Emem. My parents had agreed, and I had packed my bags It was our( Emem and I) little secret to lie about the Abuja trip, when in reality we were on a cruise to Kyoto, Japan.

We arrived in Japan, and Charlie had introduced us to his friends, Emem was busy exchanging contacts because she loved adventures and meeting new friends in quote 'men'. Charlie couldn't stop showing me up to his friends and did not even let me out of his sight. Did I tell you he was so possessive and obsessive at the same time? Now you know. I could see his female friends were just envious of me, who wouldn't be? He is very handsome and a dream of every woman that has taste But I alone knew he was just a 10 year old between his thighs.

That afternoon was his birthday and the venue was somewhere close to Kyoto Botanical gardens. After the party, he had suggested we pay a visit to the Botanical gardens... It was a beautiful sight.

I will recommend you take your lover there.

And to my amazement, Charlie had proposed to me..... I stood there and was contemplating if I wanted to really take this ride. But the echoes of " Say yes, say yes" scream of the passer-by and our friends couldn't let me figure out what I really wanted... Already their cameras were already capturing the moment, and I stretched forth my hand, and he placed the tiny diamond ring on my finger, tears on my cheeks, he wiped it out with his fingers and kissed me passionately. Still date I can't comprehend if it's was real tears of joy, or tears of sadness.

Emem had jumped on me with excitement,

" I can't believe my friend is getting married to my one and only brother. See, I'm confused, we promised to be each other maid of honour, and I had promised my brother to do the best man duties on his wedding day..... So who will I disappoint?"

Emem was found asking people for a solution to her predicament. I stood there, admiring the beautiful nature before me, and one mind taking me back to my s*x life with Charlie.

Aside from the s****l activity, Charlie was a good man, handsome, rich, caring, romantic but oh no.... the s*x. I can't be moaning to a s*x toy all my life.

" babe, see that guy"

Emem had pointed to a handsome young guy who had girls flocks around him.

" yes, what's with him? "

" the guy is cool... He is actually Nigerian, a medical doctor, Charlie's roommate in the university, I used to have a crush him, but I was way too small You won't believe it, I was in his room last night, oh my gosh, his s*x game is one, he is too sweet Chai he has the biggest d**k I have ever seen, I wish he can be mine forever"

For a moment, I felt that pang of jealousy for my best friend. She was there rejoicing and giving testimony of her s****l life, and I was on the other side stuck in love with her 10-year-old d**k owner of her handsome brother. I looked at her, pushed her aside and walked away.

Our flight back to Nigeria was a silent one. Emem was still upset about my attitude towards her, and I owe her no explanation. I basically kept to myself while staring at the iron around my finger. I pulled out the diamond ring and slide into my wallet immediately we arrived at Calabar airport. Emem's driver was already waiting for you and it was another long drive back to Uyo.

" babe, you are not happy, What is it?

I knew Emem not to be the type that keeps malice, I hugged her so tight with tears in my eyes, and apologised to my behaviour lately. I could feel she had tears in her eyes too as she kissed my forehead.

" my latest sister-in-law, smile for me na"

I had to the smile just to make my best friend happy, how was I gonna tell her that I was jealous of her s*x life. I was here about to be trap forever in a sexless marriage...but love prevails.

I got off the car and knocked my gate... Just then Justice Akpan's car drove out and I waved at the occupants of the car while trying to roll my boxes in.

" see my bundle of joy oh... My miracle baby" mom came running towards me.

" How was your trip? How is Abuja? "

Mom was too excited for my liking and I kept looking into her eyes in a bid to find an answer.

" good afternoon dad"

" good afternoon Koko mummy"

dad replied as I went to give him a hug.

"Good afternoon senior K",

my younger ones and cousins had come struggling to get my luggage.

"But wait a minute what's senior Ity, senior Ima and big bro Oty doing at home?"

Why is everyone so happy to see me? I wondered.

" oh my gosh, I hope they had not seen the video of my proposal? " oh how I hated public proposal. I rushed to check Emem f*******: timeline to be sure the crazy girl did not post anything.

"Fine girl" my mom kept teasing me.

" mom you guys are scaring me already"

I said with a sad face.

" Justice Akpan, his wife and son came around"

"Yes, I saw as their car drove off"

I responded fixing my eyes, on mom

" The youth President wants to court you"

my younger sister broke the news.

" Brother JJ? " I exclaimed in shock.