I had talked and acted brave just now but it's really hurting and beyond what I had imagined.
I covered my face with both hands and broke down completely. The tears came hard and fast, shaking my entire body. Lisa sat beside me and pulled me into her arms. She held me tight without saying a word at first. She just let me cry.
“I gave him ten years,” I sobbed against her shoulder. “Ten whole years of my life, Lisa. I gave up my career as an interior designer. I stopped seeing my friends. I stayed in this house every single day taking care of him. I bathed him. I fed him. I massaged his legs when they hurt. I slept beside him every night even when he could not touch me. I cried so many nights because I felt so lonely and unattractive. And it was all fake.”
Lisa rubbed my back in slow circ
