The hum of the engine and the rhythmic bump of the road beneath us filled the air as we drove towards the new city. I sat in the backseat of my parents' car, the leather warm and familiar against my legs, scribbling a list of things I needed to do in my journal.
The scenery outside the window shifted from the bustling metropolis I was used to, to a smaller, quieter city. It was charming, with its tree-lined streets and quaint shops. I pressed my face to the window, taking in every detail. Despite its size, it felt like a fresh start, a place where I could reinvent myself.
Obviously, no one knows me here. I can be anyone I want to be. The Alexander that everyone from my old school would bully is gone.
This is my last chance.
Our car slowed to a stop, and I sat up straighter, my heart pounding with excitement. As we turned the corner, our new house came into view. It was massive, the biggest in the neighborhood, a white colonial with black shutters and a sprawling front yard.
My jaw dropped in awe.
I noticed our new neighbors peeking through their gates and windows, whispering amongst themselves. Let them talk, I thought. I didn’t care. All that mattered was that by next week, I would be attending a new school, with new people and new opportunities.
We stepped out of the car, and I grabbed my bags, eager to explore my new room. The house was even more impressive on the inside, with high ceilings and polished wooden floors.
I ran up the staircase, two steps at a time, and found my room at the end of the hall. It was perfect—spacious and bright, with a large window overlooking the backyard.
I started unpacking, carefully arranging my books and posters, transforming the empty room into my own space. I was halfway through hanging up my clothes when my mom’s voice echoed up the stairs.
“Your new uniform just arrived!”
I bounded down the steps and snatched the package from her hands, tearing it open with a grin. The uniform was crisp and stylish, a far cry from the drab attire I was used to at my old school. I rushed to the mirror, holding it up in front of me, and made a decision right then and there.
I needed a haircut— a makeover.
I was going to start this new chapter of my life with a new look. I can’t be seen around this town in my cracked glasses, overgrown shaggy hair, and yellowed bruises. If I’m going to make some friends around here, I need to fit in.
Of course, I had already tried that trick at home. But it was just different.
They had already known me as the geeky loser that everyone picked on. I begged my parents to transfer me to a new school but they’ve always told me that that school was the best for me.
Well, now, it’s different.
I have a blank slate and I have a week to work on it.
...
The doorbell tinkled softly as I stepped into the barbershop, a familiar but somewhat dreaded sound— but not today. The place smelled like aftershave and old leather, a comforting mix that always managed to calm my nerves. I ran a hand through my hair, feeling the overgrown strands that I’d let go for far too long, and glanced at my reflection on the mirror.
My hair looks unkempt from all the wind outside. It covered my eyes and looked a little bit scraggly and awkward. I don’t know how I managed to let this get this bad but I guess I didn’t really care much about how I looked. I mean, whether or not I was presentable, I’d still feel miserable. Nobody really paid attention to me in school except the bullies who would order me around anyway. So, who cares about how I look?
Well, I do, now.
"Hey there," the barber greeted me with a nod. "What can I do for you today?"
"I need a haircut," I said, sliding into the chair. "Get rid of the shaggy look. Something clean, make it look like one of those guys over there." Then, I pointed at a poster they had taped at one corner of the shop.
"Got it," he said with a grin, snapping the cape around my neck.
As the clippers buzzed to life and the first chunks of hair fell away, I felt a strange sense of nervousness. Each snip and buzz seemed to cut away a piece of the past, a piece of the guy who was always the target. When the barber finally spun me around to face the mirror, I hardly recognized myself. Gone was the messy mop, replaced by a sharp, confident style. I thanked him, paid, and stepped out, feeling lighter.
It wasn’t anything fancy: just a French cut with a blunt fringe. Even if I tried, I could no longer hide through my hair. So, why even bother to hide? As I walked down the sidewalk, I caught a few stares and I nearly panicked.
But no. I know this may be too sudden. But no. I’m not going to be that guy anymore. I badly need to survive. If I have to embarrass myself trying to look cool, then so be it.
Next stop: the mall. I navigated the bustling crowd, my mind set on one thing—reinventing myself completely. I passed by stores filled with clothes I would never have dared to wear before, but today was different. I walked into an H&M and began picking out outfits that were the exact opposite of my usual wardrobe. Bold colors, stylish cuts, everything that screamed confidence.
After gathering a few selections, I headed for the fitting rooms. Graphic hoodies, denim jeans, sweatshirts, and brand-new Jordans: I got everything that the sales associate told me to get. I know that half of the things she’s been telling me are all just half-assed flattery, but I don’t care. It didn’t look like me so it must be good.
Satisfied with my choices, I paid and left the store, carrying bags that would put even the girl from that Shopaholic movie my mom used to watch all the time to shame.
Lost in my thoughts and the buzz of the mall – and partly because my head was also spinning around from all of the shops surrounding me – I didn’t see him until it was too late. I slammed face-first into a solid chest, stumbling back and nearly dropping my bags. The impact startled me, and I looked up to see a guy towering over me, his expression more annoyed than concerned.
"Watch where you’re going," he said, his voice dripping with disdain. He didn't offer to help, just stood there looking down at me, an eyebrow raised in challenge.
I nodded quickly, something of a reflex in these types of situations. "Sorry," I muttered, trying to avoid his gaze.
As he turned to walk past me, my gaze fell on all of the paper bags I was still holding and something in me snapped. I wasn’t going to let anyone ruin this for me. Not now, not after everything I’d done to start fresh. I gritted my teeth, and before I could second-guess myself, I reached out and grabbed his ankle, pulling as hard as I could. He stumbled and fell to his knees, a look of shock and anger flashing across his face.
"You should look where you’re going," I said, my voice shaking but determined.
He glared at me, clearly furious, but I didn't stick around to see what he would do next. I hurried away, my heart pounding in my chest, every nerve on edge. I ducked into the next store and peered through a gap in the posters, watching as he brushed the dust off himself, still fuming.
My hands trembled slightly as I sat on the floor, trying to steady myself. People started looking at me as they walked past but I just ignored them. As I picked out more clothes, the adrenaline still coursing through me, I felt a spark of pride. I’d stood up for myself, even if it was just a small act of defiance.
It was a start. Bullies like him didn't expect people to fight back, and now he knew that I could.
I knew the risks, but I also knew that I couldn’t live my life in fear anymore. This was my last chance in high school, my last chance to be normal, to be someone who wasn’t constantly looking over his shoulder. And no one was going to take that away from me. Not now, not ever.
With renewed determination, I paid for my clothes and stepped back into the mall, ready to face whatever came next. Hopefully, it would be a less scary guy.