You, Me, We, Us

Chapter 51

Hudson and his Dad

Hey son is she ok now ? yeah she's sleeping. Are you ok Hudson? I take a breath and then say no I'm not and I cry like a baby my dad hugs me my mom comes over and hugs me and I explain what she looked like when I found her how she left her door open because she was that sick how I just know if I hadn't gone I would have lost her. My dad looks at me when I calm down and says Hudson I know how important she is to you. Dad if anything happened to her I don't know if I'd survive. We sat there a while just chatting he finally says I know there was something specific you want to talk about what is it. Well it kinda has to do with what Janet said but also I just have some questions about girls in general because I'm getting older and I need to know but no judgements or guesses or anything please . Ok go head. Well how is s*x different for girls than guys? What I mean is emotionally. There are girls in my school who sleep with anyone. It doesn't seem to bother them, but then there are girls that sleep with a guy get attached. Then the guy just ditches them. I guess I feel like I need to know, to try to avoid mistakes in the future. Well for most girls/women they don't have s*x the first time just to get it over with no matter what they say, they are usually feeling something they may not have a name for it, it's an emotional experience and it also depends on the people involved, people like the girl who sleeps around are sometimes broken in some way and figure out that usuing their body get them things they want but also be careful because sometimes girls like that just want to destroy others happiness you've told me the nasty things that one girl said to Zoe. People like that aren't happy and don't want others to be happy. They sometimes try to create misunderstandings between two people in order to divide them.There are thoes who don't find s*x to be anything other than a physical release but those people are generally raised that way so its no issue for them. When those people have s*x it's not sacred it just an act until they find someone who it's more with. Dad what about the other kind of girl? Usually they feel love for someone but don't know what to do with it or what kind of love it is and sometimes they get confused and they sleep with someone and it ruins things because one person is more invested than the other. Like there are guys and girls who are bestfriends and they have s*x and their relationship never recovers because the girl is more invested than the guy or vice versa. I stare at him wondering if he knows something. Then he says there are those rare friendships where they are two souls that are connected and no matter what happens they fight for eachother because their love is selfless they would quite literally lay down their lives for eachother and if friends like that have s*x it's powerful and amazing and most of the time something comes of it and ties them together, their relationship is stronger, forever. Dad the last set of friends how do you know that they wouldn't fall apart and ruin their friendship. Son let me ask you a question. If you had s*x with Zoe and she ended up falling in love with you and you loved her but didn't fall in love with her but she got pregnant what would you do? I would marry her and we would have kids. Ok, but your not in love with her so how would that work how could you sustain that. Well we are good together and I do love her and I want her to be happy more than anything. More than your own happiness? Yeah, if she's happy I'm happy. So, let's play this out you and she have s*x you love her but aren't what you call inlove now everything going fine you both are either working or in college and she tells you she's in love with you and wants to marry you but you still hold the position of your not in love if you tell her you don't want to get married and aren't in love with her it will break her and ruin your relationship. At the same time you and she have been having s*x say two years in this time do you date anyone besides her are you going to sleep around? Is she going to date anyone or have s*x because your just friends who have s*x but you aren't dating? You know I wouldn't do that. What if you found a girl who your attracted to what then? Better yet what if a really nice good looking well off man shows interest in her then what? Dad this is hard, one thing I know is if I was having s*x with her there wouldn't be anyone else and she damn sure better be doing the same. What about the other question. I wouldn't want to hurt her and yeah I could be happy with her. But would you be settling? No she's not the girl that's a settlement . What about her weight? Dad I love you but what kind of question is that? A legit one. Does it bother you? I use to think it might but no it doesn't. It's weird she eats healthier and exercises more than the other girls but it never changes I mean shes the only girl who can keep up with me through agame of 21. Ok I just had to ask Son. Why Dad this wasn't even about her. Dad; wasn't it though? I'm not saying or assuming you are having s*x with her but I think you and she have had some changes in your friendship and now you're asking these questions and the way she was upset earlier I didn't say anything at the time but she looked shattered that Janet said you wanted to use her for s*x. I think the world of her and so does your mom and as much as I'm your dad I'm going to tell you this because she is one of the sweetest people with the biggest hearts I will kick your ass if you hurt her, are we clear? Yes sir but Dad if I hurt her I'll get my own ass kicked. Ok as long as we are on the same page. She's good to you and good for you. Now go check on her and make sure she's drinking enough water. Oh and Son, yeah dad, make sure all the things Janet said don't stay with her we all love her and want her to be here. I know dad. Hey dad?Yeah?You know she doesn't have a lot of money, I know. But she had already got everyone in the family a gift and no matter what she got its priceless she even got something for Janet. Wow for the girl who's mean to her and treats her as her enemy hmmm that's a special person some guy will be lucky to marry her some day. I sigh irritated yeah Dad I know. He chuckles at me actually chuckled.