Born to be a wolf.

Hope before sadness

There wasn’t any pain I welcomed the distraction of the wolf, she tore free of my human skin and there stood a beautiful golden wolf. “Feel like going on a run?” Abel asked me as he opened the door to let me go, I took off like a bullet and from the moment the cold air touched my fur I felt free and completely at peace. I ran to the top of the mountain and let out a howl that just released all my emotions that I had been bottling up. Before sunrise I went back down the mountain to where Abel was waiting for me, he looked like a proud parent watching his child walk for the first time. I went down in the basement so I could change alone; I howled a good bye to the moon as I changed back. I quickly got dressed and kissed Abel goodbye before running back to camp and sneaking back into my cabin. The feelings of completeness stayed with me, I can’t remember the last time I was that happy. At 7am I went for a shower and got dressed before joining the others for breakfast, but at 8am I had to go and call my aunt Gwen and tell her about Jessica’s call yesterday, then we waited until the video call came in. “Good morning all, we are here to hear the last will and testament from one Billy Ray Cyrus.” A man in his last 60’s read out. “To my dearest Gwen, I leave the deed of the ranch to you paid off as well as $15 million dollars. To my dearest Selena, I leave everything to you, the houses, the cars, the business and all my money. You are my greatest creation now and forever, I lived a great life before you were born but then you made it exceptional in every way possible. I leave this world knowing you will change it far more than I ever did. There is also a small note added the night he died.” I was completely in shock already. “Dear my little wolf, I have enjoyed these last moments with you more than you will ever know and I am so incredibly proud of you. Never shrink away from greatness, some are born great but you my dear where born out of kindness and great love, you will change the world forever and I will be with you every step of your journey. From now and forever always your greatest fan Dad.” I burst into tears and ran out of the office and straight into Louise’s waiting arms, I cried against her shoulder for what felt like hours. She helped me back to my cabin then put me to bed. “Your father loved you Selena, just hang on to that.” She gripped my hand tightly before leaving; I just wanted to be swallowed up by a black hole and never feel anything again. Just before sunset I went up the hill, I didn’t chain myself up I just sat there crying with my wolf as we both felt the lose. At sunset I got up and went back to my cabin and climbed into bed, then at 7am I got up went for a shower and decided to face the day head on, I threw myself into the daily activities and all group sessions then I would spend my nights meditating and talking to my inner wolf. The next lot of full moons weren’t painful at all but quiet pleasant actually, I studied how she hunted and how she viewed the world and I in turn told her about how I saw the world and the values I had as a human. I didn’t see her as evil or a monster, she was me in every way other than the way we looked but I thought she was absolutely breath taking. We were truly one person now because as mad as it sounds I now felt like I was complete in a way that I never knew I was empty. But summer was starting to come to an end and with only 1 week left of camp things took a turn for the worse; I will remember the sound of their screams for as long as I live. It was really early morning when 2 scream pierced the air like a gunshot we all came out of our cabins and went towards the screaming girls. It was like something out of a horror movie, she was torn apart and the blood was everywhere but my wolf picked up the scent of two other wolves and one was from the wolf that made us and that pissed us both off. Police came and taped it off; even some parents came to pick up their kids saying it was unsafe to stay. Gwen called me when it hit the news but I refused to leave saying that we were all staying together in the mess hall which was the truth and we did everything in a group but in camp spirit we had a boy camp/ girl camp dance on the second last night, and this was going to be the deciding factor about whether I would be a werewolf or human. The morning of the dance the camp was electric with excitement and happiness, the brutal murder completely forgotten as the girls were running around getting ready, I couldn’t stop smiling as I watched them. I helped with setting up and decorations then with the food and drinks, but around 3pm Louise found me and told me off for not being ready then told me that there was something at my cabin that I needed to get first. I was surprised to be let off on my own but she was very forceful about it so I went off to my old cabin, when I opened the door I saw a black box laying on my old bed with a note on top of it. My heart seemed to stop, there was only one reason I would have a surprise box my dad had set this up. With trembling fingers I picked up and opened the note.

My dearest Selena,

Thank you for always being honest with me and I love you more now than when you walked into my room. Never hold back who you truly are, run in a straight line and never look back. Once a butterfly and now a wolf, I'm so proud of you. I can leave this world knowing that whatever life throws at you, you can take it head on and not only survive it but thrive. I will always be with you. Love always now and forever your Papa wolf. Just look to the stars and you will find me there. Xxx

I was crying as I opened the box and saw the most amazingly beautiful dress; it was a designer 7 piece just for me. Golden fur boot and wrist coverings, then a skirt and top then a head piece with ears of a wolf. I went into the showers to get ready, I showered the put all the pieces on then did my makeup to match it and by the end I was very happy with how I looked. I walked out with my head held up and decided to have a fantastic night until I had to go, I was having a drink with another camper when the 2 wolves crashed thru the window. I was shocked sunset was still 40 minutes away, how the hell did they change without the moon? But before I could do anything someone was slammed into me, as the screams from the others filled the air. As their screams and wailed got louder the wolves became even more evil and sadistic , they were torturing their victims but that’s when it hit me. They were turning the teenagers, he was building a pack. I made my way outside and screamed to Elijah and Abel, I knew it was stupid but I had no choice. “Selena…Run… Go…” Louise said stumbling out holding her throat as blood ran down her hands staining her jumper and jeans. “Louise! No, no, no you can’t die as well. Please stay with me Louise, no just stay with me. Please.” I cried as I held her head in my lap.