In front of those three people, I just met with evidence in my memories that I can't remember.
I had to stop this. I buried my body's pain in my heart that couldn't breathe, which turned into a garden of pain and stood up
They made me sit on the chair.
"How did it happen?"
said Cenk then
"What are these scars?"
Said .Mehmet
I was supposed to tell, but what was I going to tell? I didn't know anything myself. I felt the need to tell myself. Somehow, these people were going to make me give back my self-confidence.
"Okay I'll explain" I said
They all sat across from me.
I have a girlfriend. Ali left me in an alley one day when we were going to meet, and then someone put a sack on my head and took me to a house. The man told me that Ali sold it to them for gambling debt and he whispered in my ear, "Find me".
I told it so blindly that I didn't know any details.
Then the boy on the roof
"Suppose they did this to you, then why did they ask you to find them?"
Cenk was fired immediately.
"So how did these bruises occur?"
"What bruises,"
I said
"The bruises on your stomach,"
"Do I have a bruise on my stomach?"
The boy on the roof just as I was about to remove my shirt
"Lacunar amnesia"
he said then
It is memory loss about a particular event. Memory loss is mostly temporary and is the result of psychological trauma.
"Let's forget everything like him. If he wants it so much, let's find the moment."
he said, "but first let's teach you how to defend yourself."
Mehmet, after what the boy on the roof said,
"Why are we getting involved, Meric?"
"You don't want me to remind you?"
Mehmet bowed his head, "You're right."
The boy on the roof turns to me
"Now another friend will come and he will teach you to defend yourself."
"Why don't you teach?" I asked.
"We need to get in touch to teach you. I don't think you're ready for that", he said.
I shook my head, Mehmet turned to the boy on the roof.
"I'm leaving anyway, I have no job," he said.
Boy on the roof
"No, let's talk to me a little bit," he said, and they sat on the chair.
I started to look around me with my eyes.
Cenk, who has been pitying and looking at me with confused eyes since morning
Bending over my feet
Yes "
"Why did you suggest that I defend myself?"
"People protect themselves by reflex, but you didn't use any anchors to defend yourself that day. That's why."
said.
Actually, it was very true when I thought about it. I never defended myself against Ali, I let Ali crush me.
We didn't talk again until we got home. When I got home, I felt uneasy, as if I wasn't safe.
First I went to my room and took off my clothes.
I needed to take a shower but now I was a stranger to my body. How was I going to do it? I couldn't do it anyway. I put on my clothes and went to sit
"I'm sorry, you're not the lead role. How should I know you've been through so many scripted things?"
I laughed for a long time
"You have such a beautiful smile," you said. I was just about to thank you when a distant voice said.
"My love," Cenk called out, turning around.
As I was about to sit where my feet fell in love, my doorbell rang. I wondered if it was Ali. I hesitated and started walking slowly. It was the boy on the roof. He handed me the bags in his hand and I was stunned for a moment.
"No, I can't take these, thanks," I said.
"If you go out again, you can buy me ice cream and we'll be even," he said.
"Thank you very much" I said, and took the bags from his hands.
I closed the door and went to the kitchen, threw everything in my fridge, placed what the child on the roof bought, put everything ready to eat on the table and started to eat. There was no feeling of satiety at all.
I cleared my desk and went inside. I started to repeat what Zeynep taught me. After an hour or two, my doorbell rang again.
It didn't even cross my mind that it might be Ali.
"We're going," said the boy on the roof again.
I said "where" when I went out of my house. I started climbing the stairs.
"Not over there" he said.
I said "I'm going home."
"He's not in my house" she said.
"My love, you have come," said the girl who came towards us, "who is this," she pointed at me.
On top of that, Cenk
He said, "He just arrived, your house wants to learn self-defense."
He held out his hand to me and said, "I'm Zeynep."
I am Cenk's girlfriend. Cenk turns his head towards Zeynep.
He said, "What, are you trying to tell the girl to stay away from Cenk by saying this?"
I laughed again at this, Cenk.
"You really have a beautiful smile" he said.
Zeynep stared at Cenk.
Cenk must have noticed that
"You're so beautiful too," he said.
Zeynep must be triple
"Let's get started and teach you how to defend yourself."
I got up and went across to Zeynep. Zeynep stared at me.
"You don't have to be stronger than him to neutralize someone, you can beat anyone with tactics. To start with, I'll teach you how to defend yourself with your hands and basic kicks", he said.
He taught me how to defend myself with my hands and basic kicks for an hour. After an hour, Meriç got up from his chair and said "gather".
I learned to do just one little kick for an hour, but even that felt good to me.
We all came to the boy on the roof.
"We need to find this lover, this is our last hope," he said then.
"We're meeting at my house tonight. Don't forget to call Bade. I'll tell him everything, let him do the research he needs to do before he comes."
After everyone said OK, I got a little closer to the boy on the roof.
"Do I have to come?" I asked.
"Yes you have to come," he said.
"Will you drive me home?"
"Okay, let's go" he said.
When I got to the door, I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and let the boy on the roof grab my wrist. We started walking.
"Was it Ali who came to your house that day?" he asked .
"Yes" I said after a pause.
"Can I ask something ?"
I went downstairs, put on my shoes and started walking. When I came to the door, I took a deep breath and closed my eyes again, the boy on the roof grabbed my wrist again and we started walking.
I never said that I didn't have a question to ask, and he didn't have any questions to ask, and he didn't ask anything.
It was a two-story house. Downstairs, there was a living room and a kitchen. I didn't know what was on the top floor, but I didn't know what it was, but probably there was a bedroom. I went in and sat on the black sofa. Everything in the house was black anyway.
I sat on the chair. Cenk, Mehmet, Meriç sat on the seat opposite me. Zeynep and the person I thought was probably Bade sat next to me.
"You can start by telling," said the boy on the roof.
Bade pretended to shake his head and began to explain.
"I got your address from Meriç and watched all the camera footage of your address. That day when Ali left you, I found the address of the house where they kidn*pped you.
I did some research into the house. It belongs to people known as THREE ENEMIES, rookie, scalpel, executioner.
The battle was thrown, "Why do they buy the same house if they are enemies?" he asked.
Bade said, "They are the enemies of the people, not each other."
"You go on," said the boy on the roof, turning to Bade.
The so-called rookie never kills anyone in the gambling business, but gets all their financial expenses. They call him a rookie because he didn't kill anyone.
The person they call the executioner is in the drug business, that's why he is called the hangman, mostly targeting young people. The orphanage was heaven for him.
According to the information I have obtained, the person they call a scalpel is a woman who takes part in the trafficking of women, especially small children.
“Why do they call it a scalpel?” Cenk asked.
He was crossing the left arm of the woman he used in trade with a scalpel.
"Come to the murderer, wait a minute, they have networked like a script, I will cut off the person who steals my lead role," said Cenk.
The boy on the roof turns to me
"Raise your arm, do you have that scalpel mark?" he said .
Maybe he shouldn't have asked so easily a truth that would ruin my life.
I slowly lifted my shirt up. I didn't want to see that trace, I didn't want to see it. I pulled my shirt halfway up my arm like I was halfway through my life.
When I took the rest of my shirt off, that mark was there, that cross mark had stolen my life from me too.