FROM EVİN ACAR:
My whole body was startled by the sound of gunfire, my breathing accelerated, I became unable to control my body.
The sounds around me were fogged, my sense of time stopped. I saw Meriç walking towards me.
When he grabbed my arm and shook me, my body was met with voices that filled my whole mind and the man lying motionless on the ground.
He grabbed my arm and tried to pull me out.
"No, no, join me, he'll tell you who he is," I said and got out of Meriç's arms.
I started walking towards the man who was covered in blood on the ground, sitting on the ground:
"Get up, get up, finish your words, get up", I started shouting.
Meriç took my arm again and said, "Let's get out of here, the cops will come soon." he started shouting.
"Let me go, he knows who the real boss is, let him go". He had already kicked me out while I was shouting at him like that.
When I get out of your arms:
"Are you thirsty for your death, my daughter? I guess you are very interested in going to jail."
"Don't you think I care so much about your voice? Didn't you say that I made up such a story to seduce you at first?"
Softening my voice a little:
"Did you think I didn't hear, while I was painfully counting the marks on my body every night, how many purple and how many pink, branded like I was a cattle. I don't even remember what I went through when I was left alone. Did you think I came to seduce you?"
My eyes filled with tears and even overflowing, raising my voice a little more:
"I went through everything and you had the courage to come out and bring Ali in front of me. I tried to prove myself to you at first, but now I will never, never try to prove myself to you again."
When I finished my words, both of our eyes opened with the sound of the siren.
“Let's get out of here, right now,” he said, and started walking towards me.
After making a stop sign with my hand:
"No, you go, I'll stay here." I said ,
After giving me an angry look on my face, "What the hell are you doing? Let's get out of here," he said .
"I didn't have time to explain. I said" go go go".
He looked around uncertainly.
"I will try to reach you somehow. Go run" .
After making sure that Meriç was gone, I entered the cafe again and squatted down by the man on the ground:
When I counted three, two, one, zero, a voice behind me
"Hands up," he said in a stern tone.
I stood up slowly and clasped my hands above my head.
As no one else was found at the scene, we should take you to the police station as the first suspect."
Two cops, who were big, with undetectable features in their hats, and the other was at most two inches taller than the other, put handcuffs on my arm and put pressure on my head and put me in the police car.
I have been laughing from the moment they put me in the police car. I didn't know why I was laughing, like the police didn't know.
After a while, the two cops in the car started to laugh at me, but one of them was more angry than he should have been.
Turning to me:
"How can you be so unscrupulous? How can you laugh like that after killing a person?"
Turning to his friends, he said, "You are the one accompanying him." Then he leaned back in his seat.
What he said stopped my laughter and even took me back to that day. After what he said, I realized how numb I was. I may not have killed that man, but after all, someone was killed in front of my eyes.
When I looked at my hands, my brain was telling me that I was guilty of even killing that man.
My hands were covered in blood, as were my clothes and my face.
When we arrived at the police station, the policeman sitting next to me came and opened my door, grabbed my arm and started dragging me down a narrow corridor.
My breathing quickened as my skin hit each one. I wanted to smash my body and hit people.
Finally, we got rid of the crowd and arrived in a quiet room.
All four sides of the room were filled with bookcases filled with documents. The table in the middle looked as if it had been turned into a corner.
I sat on one of the two chairs facing each other, and the police officer sat on the chair opposite me.
"The crime scene has already gone to find evidence, until they find the evidence, until the laboratory results come out, it will find a tomorrow, the solution to this matter. You had best tell us quickly. Did you do it?"
I couldn't answer any of his questions. Because it would be absurd to say I didn't do it, it wasn't even among my possibilities to say I did it, it would be best to keep quiet until I found out my identity.
For the first minute, the police officer did his best to get me to talk . It didn't seem
When he said, "Identify this, let's continue the investigation," I took a deep sigh of relief.
After a while, the police officer who went to investigate me called the commissioner who was investigating me.
Finally, they found out, while I was thinking that I would get out of here soon.
The police officer came and untied my handcuffs.
"Please sit here calmly, they'll come and get you soon," he said, and left the room.
On the other hand, I completed the task of waiting for the doctors to come and take me, not from where I was sitting, but by walking around the police station.
I got into the car like a sweet girl and lay on the stretcher.
While I was tying my left hand to the stretcher from the doctors in the car, I had already taken the phone that would be my communication tool with Meriç from his pocket.
It took us a long time to reach the hospital, but the police officer had called the nearest rehabilitation center.
I knew something was wrong, getting back into pretty little boy mode.
"I have to go to the washroom, stop the car," I said, then tried to stand up.
The doctor tied my hands very hard.
"No, you'll go when we arrive," he said with a stern look.
"No, I want to go now!" I said sweetly.
I couldn't risk myself . Only then could I convince them that I was not mentally stable .
In a contemptuous manner, "stop we stop by a gas station with no crazy people." Said
If my hands weren't tied, I would swap their faces. I calmed myself down by taking deep breaths and finally I reached my goal.
After driving a little further, the car stopped, "Let him do whatever he wants, I'll help him if he wants," said the man driving the car with a smirk.
The woman who untied my hands gave a stern look, then opened the car door and went out with me.
I quickened my steps, we walked in together, I entered the bathroom at the end and locked my door.
After I took out the phone in my pocket and saved Meriç's number, I started to write what to do.
I listed the answers "It's over, I'm leaving" that I had prepared when the woman outside knocked on the door.
After deleting all the changes I made on the phone, I put it in my pocket and left.
It was obvious that he was suspicious, he took my arm and dragged me into the car.
I lay down on the stretcher, put the phone back in my pocket while I was tying my left hand.
The car did not go very far. They untied my hands for ten minutes at most and took me out of the car.
As you grab my arm and pull me out of the car
"You're a big i***t," I smiled and started walking away.
It was a mountainous area, there were no houses around, this desolation scared me.
They took me to the back garden of the house, which we can call the plot. After putting me in the middle of the garden, they also left.
I waited for a while, finally shouting "kill me, come on, kill me like you killed other girls.
I was startled by the sound of a gunshot and pain in my ear. I was very hurt. When I took my hand to my ear, my hand was covered in blood.
With the pain of being shot , I said , " What you can do will be limited to this and this . Meriç Welcome " I said in a confident voice .
I took a deep sigh when Cenk said in his high-pitched voice, "Get out, horsemen are coming in front of us...