"I should have called you. But I was f****d up in the head from all of it, and I still am. I have nightmares and s**t now. I wasn't a person that anyone wanted to be around. I wanted to give up and die. I actually did try to kill myself, and I had to be put on suicide watch. Thankfully, my friends wouldn't let me just roll over and give up. They pushed me and dealt with me being a b***h. And while I could handle their pain and disappointment, I couldn't with you all. And I couldn't just sit there and put you all through emotional pain and suffering that I was going through. I didn't want you to see me that way either. I'm sorry. I really am. But at the time, I thought that I was protecting you all," I told her.
She got up, and come over to me, and sat down with me in the recliner and hugg
