Werefate

Chapter 18

As he goes, everything in me still. I can't comprehend what the f**k happened.

I couldn't hold my body so I fall to my knees with a bang. The tears just keep flowing down my cheeks. I couldn't even stop it with my will.

Stop .

Stop him .

STOP HIM.

The voice screams inside my head. I hear his car being started. Yesterday, someone drove his car and parked it in my aunt's garage.

He is leaving

What the f**k is wrong with you?

The voice keeps on screaming and squealing so hard that I think some of my blood vessels may have also blasted.

But then I heard a small whimper. I don't know how it is possible that I am remotely hearing this voice. But there is nothing I can do.

I hear my wolf whimper for her mate. She keeps whimpering in the agony of pain. Which is not even possible because I haven't even got her yet.

The gravity of the situation hits me hard. It isn't only about me. I never thought I would be selfish. I only kept thinking of Ashley but not for a second did I think about my wolf; although I have yet to gain her completely, I shouldn't have forgotten her existence. When I have heard her previously, which again is unheard of.

I don't think about Lucus. Yes, he is mine, but I can't take him for granted. I know he would never leave me. Since childhood, he has been my rock.

When have you been for him?

You just keep munching off him . All the time.

He gives and gives and gives and you just take and take and take.

Today, again, you showed your selfishness.

The voice keeps laughing.

You chose your sister. For a werewolf, it's all about the mate. And you are trying to be scarifying ghost.

It just keeps on laughing. As if my misery gives it huge satisfaction.

This is the first time I have agreed with the voice. Because what wrong did it tell? In the amount of stress I was feeling I didn't even realize that the voice was not sounding like a mysterious puzzle but like an actual person. That was giving me a taunt and mocking me.

The bright golden glowing bond in my mind turned to a shade of gray which seemed so alarming.

The psychic bond doesn't twist, maybe because Lucus's vibe didn't give it a sense of rejection, but the color suddenly changed to gray. f**k.

It was so alive when Lucus was there. Maybe this is the reason for a color change.

I just stay kneeling, not knowing what the f**k to do. I couldn't call him. I didn't want to confuse the hell out of him, but I needed him too .

I don't know how the hell I am going to stay away from him when I am the one that made him go.

I remain in that position for a long time or maybe not. Maybe it may be a minute passing, but for me a century. I feel mother pulling me to her chest.

My stiff body actually melted under the warmth that my mother was emitting. She is embracing me with all her might . Maybe it is her way to make her daughter feel loved when all she felt at the moment was restlessness and desperation.

I feel foolish. I feel cruel.

I try to make one thing right and destroy everything in the process

" Sweetie, let's go home. Your father left with Lucus. " my mother mumbles against my temple.

" I heard what you said to Lucus and I am not sorry that I was eavesdropping you all . You want to make it right with Ashley. I totally understand, baby. But look what your decision already did. You left yourself to the verse of death. I know how difficult it is to leave with a mate. I know. " Her voice goes back to nostalgia. Bad or good, I can't comprehend.

" Your dad had a relationship with my cousin. We never talk about this stuff because we want to keep the past in the past, but I need to get some sense into you." She pulls my chin up , wipes all my tears. I am sure there must be some snot flowing too.

Then she grabs my hand and takes me inside the living room where she makes us comfortable on the couch. I feel my Aunt coming behind me.

She also sits close to me on the couch. She wraps her hand in the middle of my abdomen. And lays her head on my shoulder. Her way of giving me silent support.

" The story I am going to tell you is way back, when you were both not born. I was in my early twenties when I found your father. The moment I saw him I knew who he was to me. " Her voice sounded so gloomy.

" Do you know where I met him? "

" Where Ma? " I whisper. I know this story is going to have a happy ending. But I never realized there must be struggles for my parents to be together too. I could never imagine them having a problem.

" In my cousin's house. I was there for some work. "

" Ma, I didn't know you had a cousin." I try to think about which cousin she was talking about but nothing came to my mind.

" My cousin Alexandria. We never talk about her. Your father was dating her and came for a visit and just happen to see me there. " She hops as if out of breathe.

I couldn't believe what I am hearing. I mean I thought it was just me going through the loop but my mom went through the same.

" He was in denial which hurt. " She continues. " Lucus is young. Just learning to be an alpha. But Arthur he was a established Beta. But he loved my cousin. He did. Now I realize it was different kind of love. He saw me and he also knew what I was to him. He kept dragging their relationship for a damn week. But he couldn't stay away. It is against our nature to ignore or reject one's mate. I never felt the rejection so I didn't experience what you went through. But he did keep me in loop. I sure made him regret. " She gives me her infamous smirk.

" My cousin took it in a bad way. Our family stopped speaking. Once she really got her true mate, it was sorted out. She tired to give us a closer. But the bond between family previously ended real bad so even though she is happy in her life with kids we don't keep tabs. " she concludes.

" Now you might get scared that it will happen between Ashley and you. It won't. She will understand. Our Ashley is not so naive to come between mates. I know she thinks she loves Lucus but your father and I know it's just infatuation. Now if you hide here it won't make things easier. Face them honey." She kisses my brows.

" I regretted keeping my grudge to your father because it didn't only make him pay it made me miserable. So don't prolong your suffering when you know it's you both that going to get together at the end. "

My aunt and My mother both leaves me with my thoughts. I am tired of fighting Lucus. I think I have suffered enough.

I can't keep everyone happy . I can try which will just turn it into a cluster.

With these thoughts I go inside the room to pack my bags to head towards my ultimate destination with my mother .

Lucus just wait for me. Your mate is on her way.