Lucus:
I don't know what happened how it happened but Nessa seems distanced these days. After her k********g she is there but she isn't. I tried to keep her out of her shell but she just keeps going into it and I am f*****g frustrated.
" Babe, you have your birthday in a few days and I can't be more excited. You are going to meet your wolf. " Ashley's voice distracts me from my thoughts.
Ashley. I don't know what the hell am I doing with her. Don't get me wrong I loved her. We have been together like two years.
One day I was told that I should leave basketball and be responsible. I couldn't slack off , being Alpha is my destiny. I didn't ask for it. I am dominant in my human no doubt. I always wanted to be alpha of my pack but I wanted it on my terms. When my dad told me that I didn't have an option that I have to be the alpha that the pack needs. That I can't date who the f**k ever I want, I needed to wait for the gift of Goddess Moon the rebellious streak in me won.
If I could die taking control of my destiny I would. I would get all I want. And then one day my bestfriend Ashley started showing interest and I took it. I was a teenager and did I took it. We never took it far. We never had s*x. I don't know something in me never let me take it that far despite being the hormonal asshole that I was.
Then the days went on. I started practicing and preparing for being an alpha. I started having the responsibility. The forest started calling me. The patrols duty seems exciting. The soldiers and our lieutenants in the wolf form was all I lived for. I grew up from that asshole rebellious teenager.
I knew I need to give up the relationship with Ash. I saw how my father and how the males in pack adored their female , their mate that I was craving the same one. I would never admit that but secretly I do.
Then Nessa got kidn*pped. The wolf in me crawled in my skin. I was scared shitless. We never could get a answer because the wolf in me complied me to kill those bastards.
I didn't tell anyone about it but feeling wolf before your eighteenth birthday was unheard of.
Since then I feel the wolf in my skin. It crawls inside be wanting to get out. It wants the respect that a alpha deserves. It is hungry for the power. The position. The protective instinct towards the pack grew inside , it is out of the notch.
I am scared and both excited for us to be one.
" Luke talk to be? You having being so distant since Vanessa was kidn*pped. " I look at Ashley and she pouts. I always found those lips so kissable. Now it just repels me. She touched my hands.
The wolf in me growls inside my mind. It hates the touch of this female.
I take my hands always from her touch. The touch whom I thought was my mate's. I f****d up. I really did f****d up.
I should never have taken it more. I have seen packmates being s****l before they got their wolf. A wolf craved touch. The love and affection is what keeps the pack growing. But they knew their limit.
I could have made it clear with Ashley that we could enjoy the affection but we couldn't get our self committed but I did that. She thinks of me as her mate. She is excited for me to get the wolf. And this wolf hates her touch.
I do love her. Don't get me wrong. She is my best friend. Now I don't know how to break her heart. I just wanted to rebel against Godness Moon and this has come to bite my ass.
" What's wrong with you Luke? " she sounds really confused.
" I am getting late to the practice. I'll see you later. Bye Ashley." I don't wait for her reply as I go through the corridors of my school.
I have English literature. Ashley knew this. I knew that. I just wanted to create a distance. I just wanted to think. My mind is going in spiral.
Ashley didn't deserve this assholeness. But I couldn't f*****g help it.
That's when I see Nessa and Ted. And he was f*****g touching her. My wolf went crazy inside my head it wants nothing but to tear that asshole apart who had the guts to touch Nessa.
Nessa:
Ted was just talking to me about how he was sorry he couldn't take me home that day. I was actually really sick of his apology.
The next thing I know Luke has his arm around his neck and he has held him in the wall.
" What the f**k, Luke ? What the hell are you doing?" My voice all irritated. What the guck was he doing?
" Luke, Man what's wrong? " Ted voice was all rasps. God luke was pressing in his cord.
" Luke. Let Ted go, please. " I touch his shoulder. He muscles seems to relax one by one with my touch.
I don't allow myself to over think.
He let goes of Ted and turns towards me. Both of his eyes were glowing golden. The deepest shade of golden like that of sun . The one seen in bright sunny day. And in a blink of eyes, it was all black again.
What the gell was going on?
" f**k I am sorry Ted. I am protective of Nessa since she got kidn*pped. Nothing personal bro. " Luke reply.
" It's all cool. See you at practice. " They both do some weird handshake before Ted rushes as if his pants are in fire.
" What was that luke? " I ask him.
Luke looks at me. He looks so conflicted. The looks really doesn't sit well with me.
" As I told him. I am protective of you since the k********g. " His eyes tells me that he isn't telling me the full truth but it also unknowingly convinced me to drop the topic.
He has always been protective of me. Never once has he snapped at a packmates. I let the topic go for once.
" It's your English literature, isn't it? Why are you here?" I sass. He loves it when I sass. Right now all I want is to take his conflict all away.
" I just didn't feel like going. It is going to be the end of my high school soon. I want to bunk today. Come with me." His deep black eyes always alluring me.
I couldn't say no. He would have asked me my heart and I couldn't say know. If only he knew the effect he has in me.
He is hers.
God this annoying voice reminds me.
" I have science after my free period. I can't miss it. And i don't bunk classes." I don't look at him so he can see the lie that I did want to go with him.
" Come on. Butterfly. Come with me. " He commands. His voice so dominant.
I couldn't stop the yes that flew from my mouth. I couldn't stop my heart from getting all warm when he pulls my hand and entangels it with his. I couldn't stop the smile that wouldn't leave my face.
I just couldn't do anything but to wait for a heartbreak.
And I don't know why I didn't ask him about the change in his eyes. Why I didn't ask why his eyes changed golden.