I could not meet his eyes. Why was I like this? I... hated that the emotions inside could not settle on one and I was tired of them. If only I got a break! My hands were shaking when I removed each one of his buttons. There were rips in his shirt that I did not notice before. Was he hurt? “Are you hurt?” “Yes.” I did not know that. Where? Was he bleeding? “Where?” He took my hand and put it on his chest. “Every second you are away from me, I hurt.” He had no right to tell me that. He was never hurt. It was only me that suffered. I dropped on my knees, unzipping his pants, getting him out of his clothes, including his boxers. I ignored his need that sprang to my face, so did he. I quickly got off his jacket and my own clothes from my body but his eyes never left my face. What

