Sophia's Lust: Book 1

The Marriage

"Mrs. Lombardi, Mr. Lombardi just pulled in, I'll get dinner started right away. Sorry we couldn't finish our conversation from earlier.”

"Don't worry Mona, next time"

I was surprised that Matteo was home early today. I quickly ran to the master bedroom, to change my clothes and fix my hair.

"My king you're home early today" I said embracing him.

"Not for long, I left some important documents in the closet" He replied moving me off of him.

"Stay for dinner, just for one hour" I pleaded.

"I don't have time for dinner, I have an important meeting."

"But it's getting late, is there another woman?” I asked.

“Please don’t start with this again.”

“ Matteo, you made me quit my position as CEO of my father's company, you don't allow me to see my friends or family or go anywhere. You're never home, you don’t even touch me anymore. This is not the marriage I wanted, it's like you married me just for me to be a trophy wife."

"This is not the marriage I wanted either; this childless marriage!" Matteo yelled

"It's not my fault that I have been unable to conceive Matteo"

"Look Sophia, I don't have time for your whining and complaining today, don't wait up for me tonight.”

As Matteo walked about, I fell to the floor and broke down in tears as I remembered how perfect everything was between us at the beginning of our marriage.

The wedding was incredibly beautiful, it was truly the best day of my life. We had it on the beach with family and friends. Matteo’s mother didn’t like me, she wanted to have full control of the wedding plans and I wouldn’t let her.

Our honeymoon was unforgettable. We made love on the beach, and everywhere in the villa. The honeymoon lasted for 4 months, we traveled to eight different countries and made love in each of them. I never thought it was possible to feel that happy. Matteo was perfect sometimes too perfect.

The Matteo I knew and loved back then was so romantic, passionate, sweet, and gentle. I miss how we would rub our noses together as he'd cuddle me. I miss the way we'd spend hours just talking and laughing with each other. I miss how he'd get me roses every single day for no reason. I miss how he'd always carry me on his back so I wouldn't have to walk too much. I miss how he'd massage my body and kiss every part of me. I missed his touch, and I miss him being inside of me. I miss how he'd start singing to make me smile whenever I was stressed out with work. I missed how he'd make me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. I miss how he'd randomly pick me up from work and take me to an exotic country to make love to me. I would do anything and everything Matteo wanted, expect have a child, that was my biggest fear.

Now we just co-exist in this big mansion, one he barely lives in; one where I’m all alone. I can feel his resentment towards me, as if he knew the truth, that I was preventing him from having a child. I have been taking birth control behind Matteo’s back, which is why I have not been able to conceive. Now he hates me, and I hate myself for not giving him a child. A part of me wants to stop taking the birth control pills so we could have a child and be happy again but a part of me can't let go of what happened with my first love, Julius.