Word spreads fast in a clubhouse built on secrets — faster, if anything, once the secret in question has just written itself into a book nobody was supposed to see. By the time the sun came up, gray and ordinary over a night that had been anything but, most of the senior patches knew Reyes's name was in the Ledger. By midmorning, everybody knew.
Selene called church early, exhausted, blood still dried faint at her jawline from the fight on the highway, and stood at the head of the table facing a room that had split itself into factions before she'd even opened her mouth.
"We give it what it wants," said a voice from the left side of the table — Big Walsh, sergeant-at-arms, a man who'd patched in the same year as Reyes and looked like the words were costing him everything he had to say them. "I don't like it. God knows I don't like it. But Reyes himself taught me the first rule of this club before either of us had gray in our beards — you don't fight the thing you can't out-fight. You manage it. We let it take him clean, the way it's owed, and we don't give it a reason to come collect extra out of anger."
"Reyes has kept half of us alive for fifteen years chasing a way out of this," Marcus said, and heard his own voice come out harder than he'd planned, an edge of the prison yard still in it. "You're talking about handing him over like he's a debt payment instead of a person."
"He *is* a debt payment," Walsh said, not unkindly, which somehow made it worse. "That's the whole horror of this club, kid, and you've been back what, five days? You don't get to waltz in here with fresh outrage when the rest of us have spent decades learning to live with what this costs."
"Then maybe the rest of you learned to live with the wrong thing," Marcus shot back.
"Enough." Selene's voice cut through the room, low but absolute, the kind of authority that came from six years of holding a gavel over exactly this kind of fracture. "We are not voting on whether to sacrifice a man like he's cargo. That is not a discussion this table is having."
"Then what discussion are we having, Prez?" This from a younger patch near the wall — Ortiz, couldn't have been more than twenty-five, voice tight with a fear he wasn't bothering to hide. "Because from where I'm sitting, either we let the book have him, or we try something that's never worked before and risk it deciding to take three of us instead of one, same as it almost did with Danny's brother's crew. I got a kid at home. I didn't sign up to gamble her having a father on some experiment Reyes cooked up alone in a closet."
The room murmured — not agreement exactly, but the low, uneasy hum of men and women who'd all just realized the same fear was sitting in their own chests, unspoken until Ortiz gave it words.
Reyes, who had been standing near the back of the room, silent through all of it, finally stepped forward.
"He's right to be scared," Reyes said, and the room quieted for him the way it quieted for Selene — old respect, earned over a decade and a half of bleeding for these people. "I've spent fifteen years chasing a door I wasn't sure existed, and now I'm the one it's decided to collect early because of it. Nobody in this room owes me the risk of their own name getting written down because of a gamble I chose to take without asking any of you."
"Then you're saying let it happen," Walsh said.
"I'm saying it's not your table's decision to make for me, and it's not mine to make for the club. It's mine to make for myself." Reyes looked to Selene, something old and clear passing between them. "I've had fifteen years to think about what I'd do if this day came. I always thought I'd be terrified. Turns out I'm mostly just tired. Tired of watching people I love get chosen for me by something that's never once asked our permission."
"So what do you want," Selene said quietly.
"I want the rewrite. Tonight, before sundown, at the fire road where it all started. Not because I think it's safe — Marcus, Selene, look at me, I know it isn't safe — but because the alternative is spending whatever hours I've got left doing nothing while a room full of people I raised half of argue about whether my life is worth the risk of trying." His voice cracked, just slightly, just once. "Let me choose how this ends. That's all I'm asking this table for. Not permission. Just the room to try."
The church went silent. Walsh looked away first, jaw working, some old grief surfacing that he clearly wasn't going to let show fully in front of the younger patches. Ortiz stared at the table like it might offer an answer nobody else had.
It was Selene who finally broke the silence, her voice steady in a way Marcus understood now had cost her everything to hold together.
"Then here's how it's going to go," she said. "Anybody who wants to ride out to that fire road with us tonight, to stand as backup, to make sure nothing else gets to him before sundown while we try this — you're welcome. Anybody who thinks this is suicide and wants no part of it, I understand, and there's no shame in that table either. But nobody in this room gets to vote on whether Reyes gets to try. That vote already happened. He just cast it."
The room fractured along exactly the lines Marcus had feared it would — some faces hardening into resolve, ready to ride; others going pale, quiet, already grieving a man they weren't sure they'd see again either way. Walsh, after a long moment, gave a single, heavy nod, the closest thing to blessing the old sergeant-at-arms had left to give. Ortiz didn't nod. He just stared at the table, and nobody blamed him for it.
Outside, the sun was already climbing toward noon — and somewhere past the fence line, the dead fire road waited, patient as it had always been, counting the hours down to sundown with a certainty none of them could out-argue.
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