This is what I always dreamt about

#newlife

I woke up in the plain two hours ago and all I could think about was everything that I left behind. You know people would die to have or live that life while others will get depressed, bored or just simply hate the fact that they were born into it unless their lives are exciting while having it.

I, on the other hand, chose to have it and now it feels as if I took it for granted but in a way I think I had enough experience and now I want to do something on my own without anyone watching my every move. I also found out that they are still following me and I have trackers on me like they need it for the benefit, maybe... I don't know.

Anyway this whole thing got me thinking of what I want to do with my life and what I can accomplish with the skills, knowledge and everything else that I was taught to good use. I can use it to my own benefit. Sounds awesome and easy right? Nope, wrong its harder than it looks. They qualifications along is hard. Where will I get a job that will fit to my reputation. Yea, I kinda forgot that I had one but since I want to live my life for me I have to be hidden from all the glamour. That life was fun but its done now and gone so I am willing to wing it and start my own new and fresh start with me doing s**t no one will think I will do. The army. Yup, that was one thing I wanted to do or join special forces... lol that it one thing that I will definitely want to get into so I will start small.

God, life can be so technical. Why let it be mine? Hahahaha that will be the day I take a s**t in a public toilet with the door open. In my dreams.

So next option is... I could work for a secret service, Protect people that mean something to the world. I have the part where you get assigned for a popular singer or movie star, that's a no go.

I have so many options, then it hit me I could start my own academy. Hell yes thank you Greg xoxo.

A flight attendant called out my name bringing me back to reality.

"Ma-am, would you like anything to drink or eat? We still have another 4 hours before we land. Would you like to fresh up? I could get you a stall in the private sector (meaning first class). Business people (eyeroll) makes me think of that Kanya West song runaway. I love that song.

Did this b***h think I smell? wtf? anyway I nodded my head told her I won't be long though. As I got up I realized something. She worked for Greg, she left when she graduated with me in military camp. We both looked like s**t that day with the limp, broken arm or leg, bruised face all that s**t but we did it and it was one of our funny moments. I call her a b***h coz' she was my right hand baby girl. I gave her one look that told her to quite her job she nod her head then took my bags out and followed me to the private sector. everyone was watching me, everyone meaning the help on the plain. They knew who I was.

Once she showed me around it looked more like a dinning room or meeting room than anything else. I looked around and only one person was here. He was good looking... Maybe better than Kalan. I looked at him gave a small wave then carried on to one of the stalls to shower.

The girl that showed me around, her name is Taryn. 

"Your food menu will be on the counter. There will be someone shortly with you ma-am" she said outside the stall doors. I don't know why they make it plastic.

"Could you get my laptop please?" I asked hopping to do some of the work I felt behind done since its all sent by email.

"Sure anything else?" 

"My meds bag if that's ok?" I asked I hate asking people anything let alone for help. That's how I grew up. 

I was a little tired so a cool shower will do. I stripped then stepped into the amazing feeling of a massage shower. I nearly fell asleep again go I washed my face, did my teeth too. I know I'm lazy then I showered me completely clean. When I was done I did the usual dry get dressed thing. (Boring stuff) I dressed in dark blue skinny jeans, black and white long sleeve crop top with my black and white Air max.

I DON'T WEAR HEELS ALOT EVEN THOUGH GREG TOLD ME NOT TO WEAR SNEAKERS ONLY WHEN I AM TRAINING (whatever)

I packed my things away back into my suitcases. I walked out of the stall, Oh it wasn't that small but big enough for fit 5 people in, then went to put my bags away when Taryn came to do it for me I thanked her... Then went to take a seat. I got up again to get my menu when the guy from earlier brought it to me.

Awkward, but I took it anyway since he wasn't much of a word guy. Just the way I like it.

"I ordered for you, pasta with a coke" or maybe not. Who are you dude?

"Uhm, thanks..." this is getting a lot more weird, not how I wanted my new start to be like but he looks like he is both good and bad news. Taryn came back with my food that was ordered but this guy, I don't know why. I didn't still dwell on it. 

Taryn left again to get my meds and laptop. When she came back a saw, what looks like a file, that was stick underneath the laptop. Interesting, she still does my research for me. I gave her a thankful small smile then she left again. Once I was done eating and taking my meds I got up to put my tray on the counter when he decided to do it for me. Not thinking much I turned to take my laptop to a private room that's covered with curtains, more like a small bedroom if you ask me.

I took the file out then read through it. This guy was a f*****g mob boss, great just what I needed. More mobs and more bosses to make you look like a fool for ever loving one so f*****g much that it puts you though s**t along the way that you start to doubt yourself even more everyday... Sorry about that, forgive me.

New start I kept chanting in my head over and over that I didn't know that this guy came in till I looked up. He bent down to my level

"I always wanted to meet you" he said in a Russian accent, way sexier than Kalan. Maybe this could be my fresh start. I was brought out of my thought by a hand resting on my knee, not uncomfortable though but just right.

"Sorry, is there something I can help you with?" I asked getting to the point

He pointed to the file but I tried to close it he stopped me.

"You know a few things about me, I want to get to know you too" he said so boldly.

Damn I'm wet.... Wait what?

"I said, an I quote 'you know a few things about me and I would like to get to know you too'" He repeated. what the hell is wrong with me? Kalan never made me feel this way only hot and bothered but not in any way that will make it look as if he actually cared.... You know....

Fuck

"Ok But I am pretty sure that you know who I am" I stated 

"No, not that way. I want to know the real you, the warrior you, and the fun and joy you" Is this guy forreal?

I can't even speak b***h! How the hell do you want me to talk to a God giving gift like you?

I saw his lips twitch. s**t not again with the talking out loud thing. I looked away from him in shame coz' I know that's what I did. Out loud.

"You don't have to hide yourself from me" sat said smoothly, as if I was the only one, while cupping my cheek to make me look at him. 

At this point I don't know if I should blush or run or laugh.... I had that wild side with Kalan sometimes... No stop it HE is done with now. I scold myself.

To be honest with you, it just didn't feel like he was having any of it when we did that. It felt like all fun and games to him.

"Uhm, is there anything you  really want from me besides that?" I asked changing the subject. Good going Scout (eyeroll)

"I'm not sure yet, but I would like to find out" he said then kissed the top of my forehead muttering that everything will be ok then he got up to leave but I stopped him

"Someone once told me that, but I don't think he meant any of it" I said 

He turned to look at me then kneeled in front of me again

"Why don't you take some rest I will wake you up when the plain is about to land" he said that so casually and all I could do wan nod my stupid head... 

Really now you just left someone not so long ago now you into a new guy, such a slut.

Hey he cheated on me I did nothing but fall in love with him. He was all I needed and now... His not mine anymore.

I wanted to cry but who know how many he slept with before seeing me the next morning or so and also why do I even care? f**k him he don't deserve my tears

I put the file away and took a short nap but all I could do was toss and turn. I got frustrated then Logged onto my laptop and did my reports finished then emailed them back to Greg. I need to change my email account and everything else once I get to Chicago.

And this time I want to live in a mansion of my own. (creepy grin) I'm going to make my life fun while it lasts