08 October 2005 the day when the earthquake come and change everything in just one second.The biggest reason my parents left our beloved house just for safety reasons and move to an other city just to keep their children safe.
about 1year later we have a new member in our house every one was happy. The new member bring many happiness and the new member was me 'zxien'. my parents give me the name because they thought I was the one who's the reason of all the hapiness. I live my life with my mom dad 2 sisters and 1 brother very happily . Everything was going fine until one day the internet blows up with the news that doctors discover a virus name 'covid 19' .
the same day I graduated from my middle school and it was time to go to high school and start a new journey.
zxien :Naina(to her best friend) do you hear the news about the virus that is currently everywhere on internet
Naina:I have but i think that just an nonesen i don't believe in things like that.
zxien : whatever it's the last day of our school promise me you are going to be with me forever
Naina: promise. but why are you saying that today?is there something in your mind?
zxien : nothing i just want to make sure that you will never leave me even if you find someone new...
Naina:that can never happen it's been 8 year since we are toghter
zxien: yeah it is but i don't wanna lose you in my life
Naina: come-on just tell me. did something happen to you? why are you like this today
(bell rings)
zxien: oh! it's time to leave I will see you soon.bye bye
Naina but i was asking you something.
zxien: bye bye I'll see you soon
Naina: bye. (whisperes) she's definitely out of her mind
(every one goes to their house)
(at dinner table)
zxien's dad: did you guys hear about the virus its getting more serious
zxien's mom:there is nothing like this that is just an rumer how can you guys believe on it
Sia: I think that's an serious matter zxien don't you think so
zxien: I do but no one is going to believe me
Natalia: can you guys stop talking about all that stuff I didn't came here to listen all that
zxien : ok let's change the topic it just giving me anxiety
Sia: ok Natalia tell us about your in law's are you happy with them
Natalia: absolutely I am it's been 5 year since my wedding why are guys asking me that now?
zxien: we are just making sure that you remember every thing or not
(every one start laughing)
Sia : we are just teasing you
zxien: I miss dude(ranz) so much we all are here but he is there(Canada) all alone
Natalia: yes it's been so long seens we all meet him
Sia: yes
Zxien:I really wana meet him
Sia:me to
(news starting playing) it is going to be lockdown in our country bcz of COVID and school college and offices are closed no one can go outside the country
zxien:huh! we can't go anywhere
dad: yes that's what they're saying
zxien : but I don't want to just stay in my room for a long time
Dad: why don't we go back to our village its a great chance for you guys to see yours Old house
zxien: that's an awesome idea
Dad: tomorrow we are leaving for village make sure that all of you are done with your packing and wake up early in the morning
NEXT MORNING
zxien:I think it's the time to wake up now
but i don't know what i am going to do there
zxien : sia wake up we are getting late
Sia: give me one minute more please
zxien getting ready and going outside
zxien: dad I am ready
Dad: where is everyone
zxien: they are getting ready
zxien sits in the car
after some time everyone come and they leave for their old house
everyone taking pictures but zxien looking outside the window
after a long drive they arrive
aunt: welcome everyone
zxien: thank you
aunt:oh zxien you grow up so well
zxien:thank you
every one go to their aunt house for some refreshments meanwhile zxien with her cousin (ayla)
ayla:it a long time since I meet you
zxien:yeah it was but i really miss you guys soo much
ayla: you guys are here for a long time if I am not wrong .
zxien : yeah we are
just like that we spend more than five months there in nature and when we come back it was still lockdown . during the pandemic I slowly start losing my confidence and my anxiety become more serious meanwhile I have to start my high school I use to have online classes at home
and one day government announce that school college and offices are going to be open from the beginning of March.
march 1 the first day of school i though It was going to be fine and obviously it was until they month of march end because the one thing i was always scared of loosing I lose in that situation the person who promise me that she will never leave me no matter what happens but i think she was lying to me but I lost Naina from my life
she betrayed me like 8 years friend ship was nothing to her she started ignoring me because she find a new best friend and i start having more serious mental breakdown and have social anxiety that means I hate my self and think others do the same.I think she's just an lesson to me
somethime people just teach you a lesson that you don't even want to learn.
I use to think that I was alone there was no one by my side. seeing people being happy around me annoy me alot.
I use to think that i don't have that much confidence to face people and tell them what is happening in my life.
loosing all my hope and use to hate my self.because of covid i lose so many things in my life like Best friend confidence appearance and many other
sometimes i use to remember all the things and always wanted to die.
during covid I graduated from my high I made a new friend. who taught me an other reason to live a happy life and she was the reason that today I am alive.
she helps me alot to be confident love my self and many other things.may 6 our summer vacation started and I really wanna visit my village. we all visit aut village once again
but this time 3 year later.there were many things that change my appearance my attitude way of talking being more kind of mature being more serious.
these are the things that were changed.
I was the same person but not the same personality that i use have when I was 13.we all were there to make memories and for our mental and physical health. one day something strange happen a teenager boy coming in my room kissing my forehead and saying that he will always protect me and take me with him
giving me a bracelet and leaving . when I wake up I think that was a dream because I don't know how he looks I don't know him all I know about him was he have the butterfly tattoo on his neck same like the one I have on my shoulder.
I think that all way just a dream until the next day start I was cleaning my room.
I found the same bracelet under my bedsheet that I see in my dream . that moment was something else for me i don't know how to react. there was many question in my mind like maybe that was not my dream . maybe that Sia's bracelet maybe I am mistaken.
zxien:Sia is this your bracelet?.
Sia: it's not mine why are you asking me that..
zxien: nothing i just found it under my bedsheet
Sia:oh! now it's your wear it.
zxien : forget it did someone else came in my room? do you know anything about it
Sia: i didn't know about it.
zxien : ok ( zxien wears it thinking that it someone else)
we use to go to our aunt house spend more time there and like this i forgot about the bracelet
we enjoy every minute there
zxien: its been a whole month since we are here
Sia: right do you know that Dad's friend and there family are coming here
zxien: oh shoot i literally forgot about it
Sia: go and change your cloth they will be here I any minute
zxien : ok
that was strange for me I don't know why
Mr and Mrs Arthur arrived with there son
San we welcome them and they we have so many fun with them until i notice san was wearing the same bracelet and now I think that was not my dream .and I really wanna know what was happening with me. dinner was ready we had dinner and after that sia san and me went to the garden for a small walk. mom call sia for help and she left us alone.
San: oh zxien look we have the same bracelet
zxien: yeah I just realize it
San: by the way do you want to be my friend?
zxien:yes about I think it's to fast.
San: maybe but we can know each other well
zxien: maybe....
San: is there something you want to know about me.?
zxien: nothing...
oh is your neck alright because you are wearing a neck sticker.
San: oh it just hurt a little that's why i have that
zxien: oh..
and here we started to become friends but i know that he was the same person because he dont have a tattoo.
we come back to our city they were now our neighbors and now we become best friend one day uncle Arthur tells everyone that there a person who wants to kill me because uncle Arthur have some issues with him.
but I never understand that why he want to kill me when he have a problem with uncle. time flys like this i was 18 when uncle ask me and San to leave the country for a year because the person will kill me. it was a shock to me butt still we have done with our process and someday later we leave for the airport to start our new lifes I always dream about becoming a fashion designer and it was a dig day because I got addmision in south Korea's biggest university in Seoul.
and San join the a company . every one was thinking that me and San are leaving in a dorm but we were not. we bought a apartment the very next month and now the thing was to choose the rooms. we choose them it was my first time living without my parents and I was scared as hell but I manage to live there to achieve my dreams . after some days i start working with a brand as a designer. waking up every day making breakfast and going to university coming back getting ready for the like that I spend most of my time.
during dinner time
zxien: san I really wanna have a turtle
San: what? are you sure
zxien: I mean yeah i really wanna have one.
San: if you want you have it
zxien:hm by the way why don't you go to the doctor with me?
San: for what?.
zxien: for your neck
most of the time you are massaging your neck why don't you just go to the doctor.
San: that's just a little issues its not that serious.
zxien: oh
San:done. am going to sleep I am really tired today
zxien: huh? suddenly
next morning
zxien: Good morning
checking everywhere
zxien: it's 7 am where is he
may be he has a meeting early today
I need to be quick because if I didn't i am about to miss my class
later the day
zxien cooking
door opens
San: listen! we are in a big problem
zxien:what? problem?
San: hm my mom is coming here to see us
zxien: but no one told me that she us coming here and how do you know that?
San:minie told me that he saw her at the airport
zxien: that's an big problem
wait what we are going to do?
San: let's do one thing you go to your friend(sojin) house and when she'll come here I will call you. Take sojin with you and go to the souel apartment when she'll ask about you I say that your university transfer you there
zxien: ok then I am leaving for sojin house bye
San:bye
I hope she don't see her
about an hour later the bell rangs
San: who's there?
san's mom: open the door San
San: oh mom what you are doing here
come inside
san's mom: surprise I am here to see my children's how's My son i really miss you
San:I miss you too
how's everyone there?
san's mom: everyone is fine
tell about your life is everything is okay?
San: it is . bur why didn't you told mean about that you are coming here
San's mom:I wanted to give you a suprise
is there a room upstairs?
San: it is but you can't go there
san's mom:why?
San: because there are a lot of things and old clothes
San's mom:i am tired I am going to take some rest
San: but you can take a nap in my room
San's mom: are you hiding something from me
she goes upstairs
San's mom : Is there anyone else living with you?
San: no one why are you asking me this
San's mom: because there is a lot of girly stuff here
is zxien living in the same building as you
he whispers damn it
San: no she use to live here.
San's mom: what do your mean
San: this apartment belongs to her she got transferred by her university to Seoul that why she is living in my apartment and i am living here
San's mom: oh she lives in there different city.let me call her and ask her to come here
zxien: hello aunty are you okay
san's mom: I am okay but can you come here
zxien:but where?
san's mom: oh I really want to give you guys a suprise but it's failed
buy the way came here really quick
zxien: oh you are in Korea that's an good news I'll try my best to be there on time
San' mom: take care bye
zxien: bye
that's wrong I really don't want to go for an 2 hours ride again
sojin: what happens?
zxien: guess what we are going back
sojin: but it's been 5 minutes since we arrived heree
zxien: that's the reason I don't want to go back
sojin: ah why we are doing this
wait does that mean she knows that you guys are living in the same apartment
zxien: she can never find out that we are living in the same house
sojin: I hope so
let's go back to the station
zxien: I am tired as hell
but let's go
arrived at the apartment
zxien ring's the bell
san's Mom open the door
zxien: hello aunty how are you
San's mom:hello.. I am fine what about my little kiddo
zxien: I am fine but i really miss you all
San 's mom: I miss you too
do you want to drink something
zxien: no tell is everyone doing well there
San 's mom; everyone is doing well
since you guys are here we all feel bored every minute nobody talks like how you two use to do
zxien: hmm
San 's Mom: I am here to take you guys with me for Sia marriage
aren't you guys excited to go
San: we are but we stil have a month
zxien: yes we have
San 's mom: no you don't if you two are coming two day's before then who's going to do the preparation.
San: I don't think so my company will give me a whole month vacations
zxien: same here i have My exam's and i can't miss them
San's mom: we are not going tomorrow so you guys haven't time to take days off
San: when are you going back?
San 's mom: do you want me to go?
San: bit likes that I was just asking that how many days are you here's so we can request our bosses too give days off
san's mom: ah I am here for three days
San: oh
San: zxien you are here how your are you to ask for vacations
zxien: ah I am going to the main office if they give me same days off then I'll go with aunt
San: oh you have a chance
but I don't think so that's my boss will give me some days off
San's mom: forget about it and help mean to prepare dinner
zxien: let me help you with that
next morning
zxien whispering
zxien: San wake up
San: hmm
zxien: dude wake up I don't know what I am going to do?
San: don't tell me that you wake me up for asking for help
zxien: absolutely! now tell me what to do
San: let's just wait for mom to go back and then apply for Visa
zxien: so you are saying that we have to tell lie to everyone now
San: I mean yeah because we don't have another option
go back to your room before mom wake up and see you in my room
zxien: ok I am going
(hours later)
everyone wakes up.
zxien cooking breakfast for everyone
San 's mom: so what you two are going to do today
zxien: I am going to my university for the vacations process
San 's mom: what about you San
San: I am going to my office and I'll ask my boss for vacations and then I'll tell you.
San 's mom: that's mean I am going to stay home alone
zxien: if they accept my request then I'll come back soon
San's mom: I wish they accept it
San: zxien I can drop you to your university
zxien: oh that's an good idea
(them having breakfast and leaving for work).
in the car.
zxien: thank God she didn't know that we live together
San: yeah by the way if you got your visa then you are going back with mom?
zxien: maybe.
san though ( I wish you don't go without me).
zxien: oh I think you're aren't going to the wrong way.
San: oh sorry I forget.
stop's the car infront of the university door
zxien: thank you for the ride
bye bye
San : bye
zxien going to the office.
zxien: sir may I come In
sir: oh come in
zxien: good morning sir
I am here to ask you that I have some urgent work so I need vacations for one month I am requesting you sir please
Sir: I know you are a foreign here but the thing is that you must need to give last exam and then you can apply for the visa.
and also you need to score good marks as always
zxien: thank you so much sir and i try my best to work hard.
thank you.
zxien coming out and going to the cafe with her friend.
sojin: zxien don't you think that you are going too fast
zxien: huh? for what
sojin: you came here with San and now you are going back to home without him
don't you think that this is wrong for him
zxien: that's the point but i don't think so he will care about it.
sojin: girl are you out of your mind if he have any problem with that he can't say anything to you
zxien: so what do you want me to do
sojin: go back home with him
zxien: ok I'll think about it but now I have to go to the office or else i am going to be late
zxien: see you later bye
sojin: text me later about it bye
zxien: ok
zxien going to the office and asking her boss for some vacation.
zxien: boss it's been so long since I meet my family and I have given all the design for the month
boss: ok make sure to tell assistant manager about it.
zxien: ok boss
zxien coming back to the house and thinking about San
zxien arrived and rangs the bell
San 's mom: oh you're here I was about to call you
zxien: for what?
San's mom: ah I was going out for shopping and i want you to come with me
zxien: just give me few minutes and then I'll go with you
San's mom: ok take your time
zxien thinking what is she going to tell her
should I tell her that I don't want to go back with her or not
zxien coming out of the room
Both pick there thingy up and close The door
in the elevator
San's mom:zxien
zxien: hm
San's mom: did you got some days off for the wedding
zxien: actually I was going to tell you about that I have an important exam next Wednesday and also it will take 2 week for the visa and ticket process so it's impossible for me to go with you tomorrow
San's mom: that's mean it's just me and San
zxien: San got visa?
san's mom: no he didn't tell me I am just hoping about it
zxien: oh
that's a good news
San's mom: did you say something
zxien: nothing
going to the stores and buying things
during that zxien got a message that you got the visa android now you can buy your tickets whenever you want
zxien: f**k it I am not going to tell anyone about it
on the other side san. he got days off but he doesn't want to go back with his mom.
thinking about zxien what if she didn't get the visa. what will she think about me. I not going to tell mom that i got the visa I am going to say that they rejected it.I came here with zxien and I'll go back with her.
at night every one comes back to home and talking about how there day's went and then San's mom asking him about the visa process
San: mom they rejected my visa and it's nothing possible to get it urgent for the second time
San 's mom: so you two are telling me that I am going back home alone tomorrow
San: zxien you also didn't get the visa
zxien: no I didn't because I have an exam on Wednesday and the visa process is going to take Alot of time .
San 's mom: since you guys are not going with me than I have to do packing and sleep early for tomorrow.you guys are going tomorrow to drop me to the airport aren't you
Both: yes we are
San 's mom: then go and sleep
zxien thinking and smiling ( thank God he is not going)
San thinking ( thank God she is not going tomorrow)
next morning everyone got up and get ready to the Seoul airport.
arrived
San 's mom: today I am going alone but you two have to come together