Alone

chapter 1

I woke up to my alarm blaring,I groan and start getting up going to the bathroom to do my morning business,when done I put on a black crop top with a grey sweat pants I found and my black hoodie trust me I don't want anybody seeing my scars or my body because one thing I'm sure of is that I'm f*****g disgusting and nobody wants to see that.

I tiptoe down the stairs trying not to wake sir up,I know your wondering who he is so I'll tell you,he's my savior without him I'll be dead he was with me and took care of me when I had no one I still have no one but his around to put me in my place without even hesitating to do so and I know he abuses me but I know I deserve it,he's trying to make me a better person.

I quickly make breakfast for him and take an apple while going out I would have eaten but I know I'm too fat even my siblings used to tell me that,I feel bad thinking about them, because I don't deserve to I killed them so I don't have any right to think about them because I'm a terrible person.

I get to school and just hang my head low I don't want anyone looking at me,I don't like drawing my self attention like some girls I know in this school.i know like everyone but I'm pretty sure they don't know I even exist.

I go to my locker trying to get some books out when I heard a slap,wow that had to hurt I look towards my left and saw Sam the school slut and another b***h hitting each other,I actually find it hilarious because I'm pretty sure their probably fighting for a guy who doesn't care for any of them,I just sigh and lock my locker walking away.

First period was history,and like always it was boring so like always I just zone out, next month was my birthday and I was going to spend it like always alone,I can't wait wow I think I'm gettingbetter with being sarcastic ha,mum always said I couldn't do it.

It's lunch time and I'm wondering how time seems to move so fast,on my way to the cafeteria I hit someone and immediately apologized,and start walking towards the bathroom I hurt another person s**t I don't even know her yet I hurt her,I'm a terrible person I don't deserve love,I deserve all the pain I'm going through I can't help but pinch my skin and start scratching the scars on my skin I look at myself in the bathroom mirror and let the tears fall I deserve this I see my blood oozing out of my skin.i couldn't help the sinister laugh that left my mouth.