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“You wont leave me?”
He frowns, shaking his head
“Never, why would i do that?
“Because its my fault”
“What makes you believe that?”
He snaps back, I close my eyes and take a breath
“Because i should have stopped him but instead i encouraged him to talk ‘it’ of the ledge”
He shakes his head
“So did i baby, this was not your fault, the only people we can blame are hadley, tate, carter and carly”
Hope growl at just the thought of them, anger rippling inside me, making me crazy as im shoved back into the moment. Whimpering i close my eyes and i shake the memory from my brain as more tears start to flow like a river on a stormy day.
“But i should have known, known how evil she is, why did i not see it”
“Because none of us did, look for years i put up with penny, slowly getting worse and worse and right up until she ran off i had her back. Its what we do in families, we put up with people who deserve much worse”
“Penny was demonic, she had an excuse, hadleys just a cold hearted raging bipolar b***h”
He nods
“I know, and honestly pennys behaviour was a lot worse than hadleys, we knew what she was capable off, hadley on the other hand we had no idea, i would have never believed it”
As sad and as angry as i am that fact did make me feel a little better. Someone knocks on the door so desmond sits up, yanking me onto his knee
“Come on in”
I look to the door just as great nana lilly walks in with a tray of food, a sombre sympathetic look on her face
“Oh babies you both look like hell”
She tuts, kicking the door over and she rushes towards the bed
“You both need to eat”
I shake my head, my stomach rolling and souring at just the thought
“No i feel sick”
“I can take that away”
She answers, i shake my head and i pull back tight against desmond
“No i don't want you to take my bond, i want to be connected to him even if hes a ghost”
Her eyes water and her chin wobbles, covering her mouth she shakes her head sadly
“I won't take it, i don't think i can, i just need to give you your appetite back and ease the pain just a little”
I look up at desmond to make sure i could trust her, he looks sad as he nods his head
“She wont take it, nobody will ever be able to take the bond from us”
Why i wanted to be fated to a dead man was a mystery to me but either way it was true, i wanted to be connected to him forever, i needed to be connected to him, i never wanted to forget his touch or how i felt when he looked straight through me and into my soul.
How it felt to be his. I never wanted to forget any of it, especially not his voice. I wanted to remember how it felt when he sang to me, how much love and devotion he put into each and every word, showering me with his love at every chance he had.
“Ok but just so i can eat, and maybe kill the acid in my heart to”
Her chin wobbles again as she reaches for my hand, as she touches me her head snaps back and she cries out in pain, as she does the door opens and drake comes in just as lilly yanks her hand back
“It's too much”
She gasps back looking at drake
“I need help or she is going to die”
Desmond yanks me closer frowning
“What? Why? Im hellhound i can't die”
She shakes her head
“Thats my point, your body can sustain this but hers cant, not without the ailm marks and they need to come now or she will fade away and i wont be able to stop it”
“No, no i cant lose her too, you need to do something nan, please do it now”
She grabs his arm and she squeezes it taking another breath as desmonds breathing slows down
“I need help, i cant do it on my own”
I growl shaking my head
“NO!! I want absolutely nothing to do with them!!”
“Baby you could die, i cant lose you, if i loose you i will be forced to live forever without you, ill be alone forever, i cant even imagine, please just let them help and as soon as they are done ill kick them out myself”
I know hes right but my heart didnt want to need them, all i needed was for the bond to form and there was one way of doing that
“You cant be serious? We have never looked worse, smelled worse, felt worse or even took a breath of fresh frigging air and you want to try and have s*x!!! NOW?”
Hope scolds me, i know shes right but i didnt want to see my family, i never wanted to see them again or at the very least not for a long damn time. I look back at desmond who was clearly panicking inside then i look back to nana and pops
“Can you give us a minute please?”
They nod, getting up and leaving the room. As the door swings closed i look back at desmond
“We need to have s*x”
His eyes widen and his forehead creases, that was clearly the last thing in the world that he expected me to say right now
“See i told you its crazy”
Hope snaps, but as i watch him his eyebrow shoots up and he purges his lips clearly considering it
“Its not a bad idea but im not sure if we would both be able to get in the mood the way we need to, and as first times go it doesnt sound romantic”
I shrug my shoulders, romance was the last thing on my mind
“What could be more romantic than having s*x to save your fated’s life”
And just like that, for the first time since gavin died desmond smiles at me, its short, brief but it made a light flicker in my heart, enough to set a flame to the burning embers in my stomach and before he has a chance to react i slam my lips against his. He moans pulling back just slightly
“Oh you mean now?”
“Yes”
I answer kissing him again, this time he kisses back softer than my own kiss, he rolls us so im on my back and he is between my legs, his lips never leaving my own as he slowly pulls on my bottom lip and he slips his tongue into my mouth, his flavour fills my mouth sending a buzz of life straight to my core and suddenly my body is flooded with arousal
That’s when I realised the closer I was to Desmond the less pain I was truly in, the closer I was to Desmond the closer I felt to gavin.
His hands slowly run down my body grabbing the hem of my shirt before he pulls it back up and over my head only leaving my lips for a second, I grab his shirt next, yanking it off his body before resting my fingers on his shoulders.
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