I Wonder.

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LOCATION: LUNCH ROOM

TIME: September/4/12:31pm

Pura:

I feel trapped sometimes. Not physically, like in a box, but more in the sense that I play a role every day. Kinda like how Chris Pratt plays the same character dynamic in every movie, but instead of movies this is my life. I'm playing a role perfectly and I get rewarded for it but I just can't help but feel like I'm doing it wrong or maybe, this role wasn't meant for me. Like being Liam's girlfriend is just one of the parts I play nothing more and nothing less.

It was lunch and I was in my usual spot. Dawn wasn't here yet which isn't a big deal but it was just slightly unusual.

"Hang out with me later?" I jumped at the sudden voice in my ear looking behind me. I smiled at Liam. He looked like his usual self, dressed in normal clothes that made him look like your typical frat boy. His hair was even slicked back like he was going to a country club later. I wanted to laugh at how mundane he looked but this is what made me fall for him how normal and unbothered he appeared to be. Soon his words finally caught up to me and thinking about it, I couldn't really find any reason not to, other than I didn't want to be alone with him. Not yet at least.

"Yeah okay." I didn't want to upset him and plus there was nothing I had to do later, and also I needed to spend time with my boyfriend. Love doesn't come easy, right?

"Alright, my house." I can't deny I was a little skeptical at his words but realized there was no other place. Considering my brother was back and would not be leaving for a while.

"Okay just let me tell my parents and Dawn." And Malum is what I wanted to say. We had no plans to hang out. Actually we haven't made plans for a week now but I didn't want to seem really weird by asking him to come over but then again, we need to finish this project because the sooner we finish there is less of a window of me getting caught.

"Why do you need to tell Dawn?" I looked at his rather cute face and smiled again.

"Because I need to cover my tracks and she needs to be on the same page if anyone asks like my parents." He frowned but I ended up kissing him."Hey it's okay, they will eventually understand." I put his hands in mine and just stared into his eyes trying to reassure him.

"Yeah but I just want them to know I don't like hi-" I kissed him again, cutting him off. Not really wanting to get into that right now.

"I know, baby. I know." I whispered with a smile on my face. He smiled and kissed me on the cheek and told me he would take me to his house after school. As he was walking away Dawn was walking up meaning they had to pass each other and just like every time they see each other Liam gives a skyward smile and dawn just stares him down. If I had one wish it would be for them to get along.

"What did he want?" She state's rather coldly. I mean I knew she didn't like him but s**t.

"He wants to hang out with me later and I'm going to need you to be my cover story." She looked at me with a blank expression and I knew what that meant. No. "Why not Dawn?" She sighed and just shook her head.

"I'm not going to enable you to be in a toxic relationship, he is the worst and I'm just tired of getting involved and feeling like s**t afterwards so you can say you're hanging out with me but if your parents ever ask I'll tell them the truth." I sighed in annoyance. She was being unfair.

"I can't make it work with him if I don't talk to him." She rolled her eyes in the typical you're trying too hard way.

"Maybe it's not supposed to work with him, I've said this about a thousand time but-"

"You deserve better" we both say in unison. This led to me rolling my eyes. I honestly never really thought about better because I'm a terrible girlfriend and he was just one of those people that just got me.

"He is better now Dawn and he's just the only person that I feel a connection with." She looks at me and I'm surprised her eyes haven't fallen out with this much eye roll.

"They'll get stuck like that Dawn." She flips me off but goes back to eating her food, not talking to me.

"Are you really that mad?"

"What do you think? You keep taking back that asshole?

"Dawn if I'm being honest it's not that bad for me anymore and I love him and I just want you to support me." She slammed her hand on the table. It was really loud to the point where everyone's head turned to look at us but Dawn just smiled at them telling them to mind their own business.

"I get that but don't expect me to support that connection as far as I'm concerned he is a psychopath that you fell in love with." I started to feel my blood boil but I had to realize that she didn't really mean any harm by what she was saying but I know she meant every word and that's what aggravated me the most. I just looked back down at my food not knowing what to say after that or maybe I'm just trying to let what she said sink in all the way. Actually I should just ignore her. I know that Liam is not a psychopath, he was just a bit broken inside and I want to help him just like he helped me all those times. I can't really fault Liam for what he does. I just have to love him for who he is and just hope with time that he gets better. I sometimes feel like he has issues but none that can't be fixed by patience and time and that is something that I can give him. He doesn't ask for the world, he just asks for me to fix the things that he can't seem to fix about himself and I don't mind that. We had a lot of similar problems and we are working on them one day at a time and that's okay.