Reborn

Chapter 2

I gave up on life about 5 times before I got up from bed this morning. By the time I got to work, I had thought up about 10 ways to end my life. Of course, there's that was a pointless activity seeing as how none of them would work. Learned that after the third time I intentionally overdosed and woke up the next day without any issues. Everyone was clueless about what I had tried to do. 

The first time I tried to end my life, I drank half a bottle of my anxiety meds. Nothing happened. I thought I'd done it wrong, but I figured since no one knew about my attempt that meant I could try it again. When I failed the second time, I was hesitant to try another time, for fear of being found and being put on suicide watch. I eventually tried again, only to get the very same results. I accepted my fate with no little amount of scorn, believe me. 

Back to my present situation though. I hide my depression well. I don't want the people around me to know how deep I am in this dark hole. I tried telling someone once, they didn't really listen. Guess, I should've added tears to go with my confession instead of talking like I was discussing the weather. I eventually got tired of trying to get help; I hadn't really wanted it anyway. 

David left about an hour ago; there was an emergency at the hospital. Since none of the people who were waiting for him were critical in any way, he apologized to them and left. Promising them a discount for their next visit, of course. He shouldn't have bothered, really. Those stuck-up bitches weren't really in need of medical assistance. Most of all, they came here to get some musterbation material by looking at David and having him "examine them". The fact that he's married didn't stop them. Added to the appeal, I think. 

My mood hasn't improved, like I'd hoped, by the time the door opens again. Being alone sometimes helps with my depression. Understandable since most of it comes from the various energies I catch wind of by being around people.  That's just one of the million downsides to my "gift". Personally, consider my abilities a curse. Though even thinking that way is a sure way to seduce fate into showing me that I should be grateful for the small mercies I have. 

The man at the door is one I am not familiar with. Not really noteworthy since the town is not small enough for everyone to know each other. Not to mention we often get people from the nearby towns come into town for one thing or another. 

"Is the doctor in?" 

"Hello. How are you? I'm alright, thank you for asking. What may I assist you with today, Sir Manners?"

He looks at me for a moment, seeming confused. I get that a lot, unfortunately. 

"We don't know each other." He states.

"No, the doctor is not available. Would you like to make an appointment for tomorrow or are you going to wait for him to come back?"

"When will that be?"

"I don't know."

"I'll wait." He makes a move towards the waiting area. 

"You need to fill in this form before you sit down."

"I'm not here for consultation."

"You still need to fill it in."

He comes back to the counter, takes a pen, and starts filling it in."

"Here."

"Your name is Evan Jacobs?"

"Yes."

We stare at each other. He is handsome in every sense of the word. His face is the perfect picture for gorgeous. Makes me think of that Taylor Swift song. His lips beg me to cover them with mine and maybe a few other parts of my body too. If I didn't know better I'd say this man was made with my fantasies in mind. His body is a great cross between athletic and buff.  One word: Gorgeous. 

All of this is ruined by the lies coming out of his mouth. He is no Evan Jacobs. 

He isn't human either. But that is his business. 

"What's your business with David?"

"That's none of your concern."

"It is, actually. As his P.A, it is."

"It's personal."

I smile and decide to be honest with him. Maybe he'll be inclined to follow my lead then.

"You are lying, SIr. Your name is not Evan Jacobs. Now, I would normally let you sit there and wait for David to come back. But since you have just lied to me, that makes me less inclined to let you be. So you can either tell me your real name so I can verify your identity. Or you can leave and come back when David is in. Or since you have "personal" business with him, you can just give him a call."

By the time I am done with my grand speech, Sir Manners looks like he's killed and buried me in 5 different ways already.

"How do you know I am lying?"

"None of your concern."

"Evan is my name. "

"You really want me to believe that."

"Calder Destan."

"Thank you for sharing your name with me, Mr. Destan."

It fits him. I sensed the water in him the minute he walked through the door. The salty breeze of the ocean that makes up his aura felt like the breath of fresh air I have been denied for so long. I want to wrap it around me and never let go. 

Calder ignores me for the rest of his visit with the comfortable seats in the waiting area. I'm not offended; water beings are not friendly. It might come from being worshiped all the time. That has to do something to one's ego, I'm sure.

It's closing time by the time David walks through the door with his wife, Tania. 

"I come bearing gifts." Tania holds a bag from my favorite coffee shop and a cup of ice cream.

"I love you," I say in response, meaning every word. 

Before I can move out of the way, she has her arms around me and I have no choice but to wait her out. Tania's a hugger, and she seems very happy to use me as her cuddle toy. She doesn't know that every time she touches me I can feel her sadness. She really wants me to let her in completely and let her love me the way she wants to. Except I can never let her do that. 

I'm selfish, I know. I also know that a sure way to live a miserable life full of resentment is to trust people. I would know, I was once stupid enough to trust some people in the past. Not anymore at least. 

David notices Calder at the waiting area and leaves whatever he'd been about to say unsaid. 

"Mr. Jacobs... How may I help you, Sir?"

"I need to talk without an audience. "

"Of course. Let's go to my office."

"I'm off Boss. Won't be coming in tomorrow"

"Get home safe." He kisses my cheek and turns back to Calder, who looks like he thinks David would look good with his innards on the floor. The company David keeps sometimes.  I smile at him and pack my stuff. 

Blowing Tania a kiss, I walk out. Taking Calder's information sheet with me.