chaptie 2
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When I got home, I saw my mom and my brother.I didn't have the energy to say greetings to them.I walked passed them and ate inside my room.
There I cried and cried my heart out for some not-good-looking asshole. I didn't cry because of him, I cried because of myself. I feel so sorry for myself;what did I do wrong?
Not over an hour later, I heard a knock.I wiped my tears .
"Who's there?"
"My P, it's mama...come open the door and let's talk" my mom said.
I opened the door and my mom hugged me without a split second. There is the safest place I could ever be;her arms.
"My poor baby." She said while hugging me.
"He cheated on me, mamà" I said while sobbing.
She guided me to the bed and rested her head on the bed while I was hugging her.
I've never felt so safe as I'm now...with her.
"You don't deserve him...mi love". Hearing those words from my mom made me cry even more...she has always known what to say ever since I was a child. (my love).
"But,no one will ever love me again, mamà."
"And who told you that, Penelope? You're much better than that and you should know that."
As we grow older, our mom always keeps reminding us that we should always know our worth as a human being...she always tells us this phrase"don't let anybody tell you who you are."
How ironic, because here I am crying because some asshole made me feel like I'm the most worthless person that ever existed...fuck him.
"Besides,he's not that good looking and I never did like him for you" she said nonchalantly.
I chuckled.
Yeah,she's right. Christian is not that handsome, but I did never love somebody just because of their face or physical appearances... I did love them because of who they are...I love them just the way they are.
"Now,pull yourself together and go downstairs. I have an announcement to make". She got up and walk to the door.
Before she could reach the door,she faced me.
"And next time Penelope De león... If you're going to get hurt, please choose some right face that's worth crying,I don't like your type when it comes to men." She said while rolling her eyes.
"Mamá ,I'm still heart broken."I said, pouting my lips.
I closed the door and walked inside my bathroom. I look at myself in the mirror. I'm not ugly. My mom is right. He is ugly. My father is half Filipino and half Spanish. That explains why I have a perfect nose and that mestiza looks... I have long curly hair...my height is 5'8 and I have a petite body that can be used as a model. So,basically, it's his loss. It's his f*****g loss.
"Penelope!"My mother shouted.
"Coming!" Not what u think it is:)
When I got down, they were already at the dinner table.
"Sup Pierre"
"Sup" he replied while looking at my eyes. Of course, it was visible that I cried.
"Go on and ask I know you can't stop that mouth of yours,"I said, rolling my eyes
He Chuckled. Just like how handsome he can be.
I'm very close to my brother. We almost look like twins.I'm only two years older than him and in a little more time he will be graduating on his chosen course, which is medicine.
He has passion for everything, especially on his course. That's what I love about him. If he wants to achieve something, he will do everything with all his might and, of course, he's brainly.(not the app).
I stopped going to school, and decided to provide for my family. Of course, I know myself better than anyone. I have no future in school.So,why not work? I'm the one who pays the bills and Pierre's tuition and all those things.
Because my father is nowhere to be found...my father is part of the NAVY. It's been four years already and I still believe that he is still alive.They sent him on an Impossible mission and never got back.But in my heart I still believe that he's still alive.
That left my mother's heart broken for so long...but now she's slowly recovering and becoming herself again.
"What happened between you two?"
"Obviously, we broke up" I said while shrugging.
"Oh gosh! What did you do to them?"he asked with worried eyes.
"Chill ,Pierre, I did nothing they don't deserve."
"Thank, God"
He closed the gap between us and gave me a hug... And that hug made me cry again.
My mom just looked at us...My brother is the sweetest person I've ever known.
"I already told you,ate...you don't need a boyfriend when you have got a brother like me,who's handsome and loyal!"
That made me smile.
"What am I supposed to do with you? You're gay, right?" I said jokingly.
He just laughed.
This is our bonding moment, teasing, laughing,and crying in each other's arms while watching a movie.
"Gay my ass, eh for all I know, if I'm going to marry someday,you'll just cry like the baby you are."he said while sticking his tongue at me.
"Enough, you two." My mama said.
It's serious time.
"So, what's the announcement?" I asked.
"Yeah, is it really important?I need to get my sleep pa, eh" Pierre said.
My mother just glared at him.
"I'm going back to the field."
"What???" We both said, shocked by the bombshell our mother had dropped.
She can't go back there...We can't afford to lose another parent...we just can't.
"Mamà, please tell me you're joking," Pierre said.
"I'm afraid I'm not, Pierre."
"You can't be so serious mom...after what happened to papà...You really think we're ready to lose you?" I said, on the verge of crying.
This day couldn't get any worse.
"Listen first, my commander contacted me...and asked for my help."
My mother is a badass. No wonder when she decided to leave the field to take care of us, her commander made a deal with her.
And that deal is...she'll go back to the field when the team needs her,
This is it.
"Guys, don't worry...I'm not working on the battlefield anymore."
"Then, where?" We both asked.
"I'm gonna be working in the office doing some research...or whatever.But I guarantee you guys, I'm not gonna die."
"And, how do you know that?"sabi ni Pierre.
"Pierre mi love, your mother is a badass...the hell may sell ice-water, I'll still go home without a scratch."
"But, mom, that's exactly the words papa said before he went missing." I said.
" Well, your father is not as good as me I guess." She said as if it was nothing, b***h your husband is, missing:(
Something is off ...she's hiding something.
" Kids, please say yes. I'm so bored here in the house. I've got no one to talk to, I have no more dishes to break, and I definitely dont wanna do some shitty gardening...this is not the life for me."
"And soon you will both have a family of your own. I don't wanna be left here all alone, and I don't wanna be a nanny to your kids. And you can even go back to school if you want."she said, while looking at me.
That's a good and bad idea.
"But, mamà...I can do it. And how many times do I have to tell you that I'm done with school, it's not a life for me"
"This is not life for me either. Do you think that I don't know that you got yelled at work?"my mom said.
Pierre looked at me.
Of course she knew...she was not part of the field for nothing.
"This is not about me, mama!"
" You need to say yes, you know me, this is not the life I've been dreaming of."
We both looked at each other.
We both know we don't have a choice.
" Okay, mama, promise us one thing".
"Anything for the two of you."
"Don't die." We both said, holding ourselves not to cry.
We're such crybabies.Especially Pierre.
"I promise." My mom said while hugging us.
"The two of you will always be my babies...my crybabies"she said while kissing us on the forehead.
I'm scared;
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