Sleepless Night

Chapter 2

Raff 

I saw Vernon far from me. He doesn't look behind. He don't even tried to look behind him. He doesn't care if I getting any hurt or what. He clearly can't see me from behind him. I tried to shouted but my voice became mute. He is with someone, a man. The man is much better than me. His facial, his body and everything he has is perfect compared with me. What on earth is this man came from? What is actually happening now?

"Vernon, I'm here. Can you see me? I tried to reach you but you don't listened to me. Not at all."

I walked beside him and touched his arm but there is no reaction from him. Suddenly, he snatched his arm from me.

"Vernon baby. This is me Raff, your stupid wolf. Please look at me even for second. I want you to know that I'm still alive and I'm here. Vernon, I-..."

The man suddenly hugged Vernon's waist and kissed his lips. The lips that only mine can owned it but now, the man snatched it from me. I saw Vernon kissed him back. The kiss became passionate. Or I can says, became more lustful. Vernon really ignored me like I wasn't here but I just few steps from me. I mean, I just beside him, while watching him kissing other man passionate.

"What are you doing Vernon?! Why you kissed this man?! He is a stranger. Nope! He is an obstacle for us! Vernon!" I shouted to Vernon but it the same. He can't hear me. He totally ignored my existence at there. This is not my Vernon. He never ignore me even for once. He always cared of me but now, he ditched me like I was a wasted garbage to him. I'm done now.

The man looking at me and smirked. He still hugging Vernon, tightly. My heart is in a painful. Watching my boyfriend with somebody else. How worst my luck is. I tried to grabbed Vernon hand and pulled him toward me but the man snatched his hand from me and made me steps forwards in hurried. I almost twisted my leg because of the unbalanced.

"I don't hurt you, man, so step out from here and give me back my Vernon. Who the hell are you?! Just take any man you want but not Vernon. Now, move aside from my boyfriend." I gave him a warning but he smiling listening to my warning. I hold my fist. I really want to punch someone and the person should be this man.

"Vernon is mine, not yours. You better get a luck for the next life, buddy. One more thing, we are going to get married in few days. We hope to see you there." He adding another heartbroken news on me.

"Hell you! Vernon is mine and no one can take Vernon from me even it is you! Let Vernon go now! You f*****g douchebag! Give me back my Vernon!"

He looked at Vernon and whispering something to my boyfriend then they laughing together. I don't know what they are talking about but it must be about me. Vernon looking at me and his lips forming a smirk. It shocking me. Vernon never smirking to me. Never for once since I dated him.

"I'm not yours, man. And I will never be yours. You're a douchebag and not him. Look at yourself. Your boyfriend had left you? You're so pathetic and that's why he left you. Please don't come to our wedding because you will ruin everything."

"You heard him. Good luck, pathetic man. See you soon. Very soon."

Then, they disappear. No more Vernon. I kneel down and starts crying. I lost Vernon. My Vernon. This is not a reality and I should wake up now. But the things happened just now is real. Vernon with that f*****g man are kissed in front of me. Then, they hugging each other. Whilst me, only be a audience of their romance.

God, wake me up from my sleep please. Please. 

And for the last time, I shouting Vernon's name out of my lung

 "Vernon!"

Thud.

I woke up suddenly from the bed. I sit up and breathing heavily. The dream just now is so real. I dreamt the same dream again. Again and again. Its over tenth times already. I placed my right palm on my chest. My heart beat is beating fast. And I felt like my chest want to explode. I need my pills but I don't found the bottle under my pillow. I turn my head around and seeing the decoration is different. My room isn't this small and too boring. Oh right, I in Vernon's room now. I came here last night after he texted me he want to cut my d**k. I lifted the blanket and see me only wore brief boxer. Ah! Vernon and me did some naughty things last night.

Vernon suddenly hissing a pain. He must hurt his head or other part of his body. I rolled my body to the bed side and saw him laying on the floor. 

"Are you okay, baby? Getting hurt anywhere?" I asked him while biting my below lips. He nod. Ah! Pity my boyfriend. He get hurt because of me, his boyfriend.

"Where? Is it hurt too much? I’m sorry Vernon baby. I didn't mean it. I thought I was in my room." 

"My head. Raff, I think I break my skull. Please help me, honey. It's really hurtful. You know my body is weak so my skull too. Please help your dying boyfriend, Raff."

Vernon blinking his eyes whilst hissing. He tried to be clingy with me. He is the same with monkey or panda. I shouldn't fell in his trap. I rolling my eyes when I heard what had Vernon said. The boy is sarcastic sometimes when you know him deeper. He just got a nerd appearance but not to mention his characters. I swear if I ever have a brother, I don't want my brother being like him. Sometimes, Vernon is annoying like how he called me out of blue just to accompanied him to sleep. He is clingy too. He and the lost puppy are the same. Always following me anywhere I go even into the toilet. Possibly Vernon envy with my d**k. I mean my d**k is bigger compared to Vernon and that’s one of reasons why I became a top.

"Raff. Are you listening to me or not? I'm hurting here. Raff, don't ignore me."

I want to ignore him but I just can't. How can I ignore a man whom I loved so much? I did ignored him few times but not this time. I should care his feelings. I caressing his head and give him a peck of kiss on his cheek and not to forget his lips too. He took this chance to kiss me back.

"Are you serious with your words, baby? I will call the ambulance now if you really broke your skull. I'm scared if your head have to get a big cut and they will open your head brutally and repair your skull with putting so many screws. I saw them on a television doing that to their patients. A mental patient, I mean. Then, the doctors will stich your wound like how I sewing my ripped pant but what I'm more afraid is, that you can't use your head anymore. Dead brain. Hah! They called as a dead brain."

I speaks with my serious tone. I tried to put my face on serious action too.

"Raff, I'm just joking but why you need to be so serious, huh? Dead brain? Dead brain your ass! I hate you Raff! You aren't helping me but you had made me scared now."

He sulking with me. Oh no. He is so cute. He pouted and sat up whilst crossed his arms. Vernon sent his glares to me but as usual, I just being me. His glares is nothing serious. He just need an attention from me, his handsome boyfriend.

"I'm serious too, troublemaker. If you really hurt your skull, we should hurry up to the hospital. I will take care of everything. Hospital's fee is on me. You just bring your hurtful skull to the hospital. Want to go now?"

"Raff! I'm not hurting anywhere! My skull is fine and me too!" He shouted in annoying. I out a laughing and that draw his attention. Suddenly, Vernon facing his body towards me. I know what will he do next. I quickly wake up and down from the bed and walking towards the bathroom. Vernon's lips is moving but I don't want to hear his question.

"Raff, are you having a dream again?"

"Nope. This is not a dream. It's nothing."

"Then, what? You screamed in your sleep. You startled me, man. Gosh. Please tell me what exactly you dreamt of about? I knew I'm not a doctor or specialist but I will help you because you’re my boyfriend."

I stood at the bathroom's door and facing him. I let out a sigh. What should I do now? I don't want let Vernon know about it. It should be a secret. My only secret. If he know my secret, he will leave me. I can't let it happen. 

"You can't help me. No one can't help me Vernon. Look, it just a stupid dream and nothing to be worry about. Come on Vernon. I don't want to starts any argument with you at the morning. We should kissing each other, a morning kiss perhaps." I lured him. He shook his head. That’s not a surprise if he refuse me when he want me speaks the truth.

"For the God sake, please tell me a way to help you. You always scared me every time you woke up from bed, Raff. You screamed my name. This is not the first time. I don't know what had you dreamt about. But I knew those dreams are bad to you. Now honey, tell me okay."

"I'm sorry Vernon. I can't be a good boyfriend to you but still I can't leave you. I want to be with you, forever. I don't want lose you. I'm scared of those dreams. It kept haunting me." 

He take few steps forward to me. He cupped my cheeks and looking straight into my eyes. I looking at Vernon. My eyes starting to hunting his face. Why he so irresistible? Especially his lips. His pinkish lips is beautiful. Every time I look at his lips, I feels like I want to eat them. And keep eating. His lips feed my hunger.

"You know I care about you so much. Nah! I won't leave you, Raff. Trust me. I don't have reasons to leave you. Now you tell me what is wrong with you because I should know about this too. Even I can't help you, I still want to know. You are my priority Raff now. I don't want lose you like how I lost my parents. Please tell me."

"I'm scared. I dreamt-... you-... you-... oh God, I don't know how to say this. I dreamt a bullshit. I-... I dreamt you." 

"Easy Raff, easy. I'm here. I'm listening every words of yours. I'm not going anywhere. You dreamt me what? Something bad?" Vernon asked me back.

I pulled his hand and get into the bathroom. I left the door open as I knew only Vernon and me in his studio apartment. Nobody can see us. I pushed him lightly to the wall and locked his body. My eyes on his lips. These lips reminding me of the shitted dream. Without replying anything to him, I putted my lips on him. I sucking his below lips as I hungrily want to eat his lips. Vernon's lips is a drug to me. Vernon kissed me back. He know how to turn me on. His hand slithering around my back whilst another his hand caressing my stomach slowly. I'm growling between our kissing. I deepen our kissing and I see Vernon is breathless now.

"Raff-... I-... I need-... to...- breathing. You-... Raff-..."

I cut off his speech and leaning my head on his shoulder. Vernon is trembling because he still trying to catching his loss breath. I look up to see his face. My finger touch his lips whilst he silently watching me.

"Your lips is mine, Vernon. No one can kiss your lips. Only me."

"I'm all yours, Raff. No one can take me from you and I won't allow this. So, what did you dreamt me about?" Vernon still asking me about my dream. He never give up. Perhaps he inherited this from one of his late parents. 

"He took you from me. He kissed you and you kissed him back. And you guys going to get married too. Its hurt me, Vernon. Its really hurt my heart. I watched how you ignoring me while I called out your name. You even don't let me touched you. You will not ignore me like how you did to me in my dreams right?"

"Hey Raff. You are my boyfriend, how can I ignore you? It just a dream and you even said it's a bullshit. So you don't need take it so serious. If I ever kiss the man, I might die at the time. By the way Raff, is he handsome? How about his body? He got six pack like you too?" Vernon's voice suddenly getting excited. I send him a glare. A death glare.

"Tell me more about him. How does he looks like and how-..."

"Vernon!"

Vernon giggling when he heard I screamed. Oh God, I still can't take those dreams as nothing. Just look at how Vernon teased me.

"Okay-okay, my bad. So, you aren't hiding anything from me right? If you're still hiding something from me, please tell me right away. Do you still have anything else, Raff?" Vernon asked me with his very soft voice

"No, I don't." I lied.

"My eyes are only on you. You still have a lot of things to think of. Me, your work, your cars, cat, those are all your concerns. Let's forget about those dreams and get a shower. Ergh! You smell like a rotten potato." 

"A rotten potato or a roasted potato?" I asked him back.

"A roasted potato? You're not hot. You just so-so."

"Huh! I'm hot okay. It just your eyes can't see the reality. Can you see any steams out from my body because of the burning? Actually, baby, I'm burning inside now. Mind to help me to cool it down?"

Vernon wrinkled his forehead while his left hand caressing my cheeks softly. Vernon's eyes down to my below body and winking when he saw my junior is waking after a short rest last night.

"What is burning? Raff, are you a potato? I thought I dating a demi god. Oh no! Why you are a potato inside a human body?! I can't date a potato especially a rotten potato. What a life I had! So sad." Vernon grunting whilst poking my chest with his index finger.

Can I just torture him from being so clingy?

"Saying whatever you want to say as long as I knew that I'm your stupid wolf. Remembered this in your mind Vernon that I never let you go from my life. You have to stay with me until forever. If you run from me, I will find you no matter how hard the ways will be. Promise with me that you will never leave me even I ask you."

He nodded. I twisting his cheeks softly and then I kiss his lips. Vernon turn on the shower before we take our shower together. 

"Shall we continue what we did last night?"

Vernon shyly nodding his head. We just need our shower fill with our hot activity like last night. He can’t resist me like how I can’t resist Vernon.

Vernon is mine and I will send off anyone whom will take Vernon from me. This is my promise to myself and Vernon.