Sleepless Night

Chapter 1

Vernon

INSOMNIA hit me again tonight. I want to sleep but I just can't. I tried many times to closed my eyes but still it doesn't make any ways. I heaved a deep sigh. I sat on my mattress and facing the wall blankly. The time is 3.15 A.M and yet I can't sleep. What should I do at this time? Its so early to do something like jogging and guess what, people don't really jogging at 3.15 A.M. I'm not sure about about others, but to me, I can't jog at an early morning where no one was there. It was just an excuse but trust me, I don't like exercises. Jogging isn't my style. Not at all.

Since the day after the accident happened, I swore to myself that I can't close my eyes peacefully although I really want it. My mind kept remembering the accident happens. I talked to myself that I should know remembered the accident but my mind disobeyed me. It turns me out to be like this, now. Now, it made me became like a zombie that feeding the past memory.  

I reached out my black colour iPhone, the latest model of iPhone, beside of my left pillow and unlock the password. Not to long afterward, I open my contacts and searching this favourite person's number. I know it appropriate to disturb someone's sleeping at this time but I can't help myself. I need to sleep, too. I quickly typing words by words and sending the text. I hope that person will read my text and reply me as I asked his help at this crucial time. I counting time from milisecond second to second then to minute. Clock at the wall became my friend now.  

Beep!  

I received a text! It should be from him. God, please let me get my sleep tonight so I will not bother him anymore. Erk. I pity him but I have to pity myself too. I should be selfish at this rate of time. Slowly my middle finger click on the message icon and his text appear on my iPhone screen.  

Stupid Wolf   

You surely are brave enough to disturbed my sleep at this hour. Can you see the time before you texted me? You can't sleep? Is it my problem if you can't sleep? Just take your sleeping pills and close your eyes. It easy.  

I saved his contact name with 'Stupid Wolf' because he is really stupid to understand people's feelings. But, he easily found ways to break me down. He is stupid but brilliant in other ways. I can'tt denied the fact about he actually know where I am even though I didn't tell him anything. If I tell him I'm here, he know where exactly is. He never asked me. Just like a wolf eating a satellite. Or, maybe he did put a tracking GPS inside my body.

"If this easy, I will not asked your help, stupid! I don't wants to drinks sleeping pills but I only wants you." Why he can't reply my text with some advice or maybe a sweet good night text? Why he need to be so annoying towards me? I should teach him some manners.  

Me   

Perhaps, I have more than one life compared to you STUPID! This is your problem too! You made me got sleepless all night. I need you in here now so I can get to sleep! Please.  

Hopefully this stupid human wolf can understand my feeling. If he not, I will cut off his d**k until he lose his dignity, his powerful weapon. I swear under my late parents. Not sure how many swears I committed since I met him but surely this is the last time I committed. I will do  itfor sure soon. If I ever have a chance in my life.  

Beep!  

Stupid Wolf  

Close your eyes and sleep. Good night.  

He is so annoying! I shoved my iPhone under my butt. I angry with him, but when I think this is the latest iPhone, I immediately take it under the back of my butt and placed beside me. I don't have much money to buy another iPhone. Later, I throw my pillows on the floor and kicking the blanket away from my body. I pulled my hairs and let a silent scream out from my mouth. I don't want waking up my neighbours at the middle of night and then, they will banging my studio apartment door with their hammer. I don't want that happen. So scary even to imagining.  

Me  

I will cut your d**k, STUPID WOLF! I will!  

I promise I will cut your d**k tomorrow! You dare to ask me to go to sleep when I eagerly said I can't. This stupid man is really crossed my limit. God, please let me cut his d**k so I can see his falling dignity in front of me. This man only care about himself and never care about others. Why I met this man in my life? If I knew I will meet this stupid man in this life, I surely ask to God to not born me to the earth. Just keep me as an unborn child.  

Slowly, I wake up from bed and moving to the direction of kitchen cabinets. I'm looking for sleeping pills bottle on the kitchen cabinets. I don't remember when is the last time I took the pills and where I had put the bottle is. Yes I had insomnia before, a long ago. Its happened when I can't handle the pressure after my late parents dead. Since the day after, I depending on the drug. But, after two years ago, I had had stopped drinks sleeping pills because my body slowly can adapt with this new environment. I moved in into studio apartment since two years ago.  

I don't bother to switch on the light because I might fell asleep right after I drink the pills and collapse on the floor. At least I can sleep even on the floor. Cold floor embrace my thin body. Nice.

"Where are you my sleeping pills? I need you right now. Show your beautiful body to me dear."  

So creeps. Goosebumps over my whole body. Even myself felt creeps by my own words. I shook my head.  

God.  

I open one of the kitchen cabinets. I remembered I kept all my medicines in there. My body is weak and so my immune, too. That is why I kept medicines with me all the time. Searching is really took much time. It took over ten minutes for me to find the stupid sleeping pills bottle. Actually, the bottle was located right in front of my eyes but I didn't seen the bottle. Searching just made me feel dizziness.

"I've got you!"  

Once I want to eat the sleeping pills, I heard a knock sound on the door studio apartment. I looking at the wall where the clock hung.  

3.45 A.M  

My body froze. It could be a ghost right? A hungry ghost coming to me and want eat me. I only had my thin body. I don't have any extra fats to give to the hungry ghost. I got only bones. Useless bones, even dogs will vomit once they eat my bones.  

Knock.  

The knock heard again on my door studio apartment.  

Beep!  

Whom texted me in this crucial time?! I really don't have courage to open the door yet to reach my phone. Sighed. What should I do now?  

"Hey man w***e! Open this damn door! I'm sleepy as a crazy man now, man w***e!"  

"Man w***e?! s**t! I'm not a man w***e!" I shouting back. A growling sound can be heard from outside my door studio apartment. 

Instead of calling me a man w***e, why you just can't just call me a man hole? Its freaking annoying my ears actually. But still I don't know yet whom shouted to me. Man w***e, man w***e. My heart is aching to hearing it.

"Hey stupid! Open this damn door now or I will break this door down."

The voice... I know this voice. No way. He's coming here?! He starting banging my door apartment. Gosh. Where is his manners?! He cannot tell from his own view about my creepy neighbours? He has had been here before, many times. My neighbours are not like other's neighbours. They are too much scary. Mostl of them are labour workers and of course they need a better sleep when the nights coming. If this banging sound waking them up, we both will get hammer on our head.

I running to the door studio apartment and hurriedly unlocked the knob. I open the door and here, the stupid wolf standing in front of me with his cold shoulders. He yawning and his eyes closed. His red hair is messy and his shirt is wrinkled. He wore his loose black jeans and his favourite shoes. Blue shoes. NIKE brand.

"Raff? You are here?" I asked in disbelief. My eyes blinking to make sure I saw the reality and not hallucination. Crap. I didn't drink the sleeping pills yet.  

"My dead soul is here. What do you expect then?! Of course its me here! Move aside. Let me in and sleep."  

Raff pushed me lightly and stepped inside. He took off his shoes and walking to my bed. Suddenly he froze. His eyes watching around before he turned to the direction of me and shook his head. Blanket on the floor, pillows in front of the kitchen. I felt so embarrassed now. Slowly he collect my blanket and pillows.

"You could be crazy to last?"

"I had too."

Raff walking towards my bed and laying down. I quickly close the door and push the lock. I'm happy because he finally came to me so I don’t need to cut off his d**k tomorrow. I still standing near the door. My studio apartment is small but fit for one or two persons in one time. My apartment is like a box. I've had a toilet with a bathroom near the door apartment and the kitchen located in front of my bed. Of course my studio apartment has windows. I need a fresh air every morning. Full packages I've got. I can afford this apartment since I don't need to spend much money for the rents. My savings is not only for rents but for my living expenses and my future too.  

"Come here big troublemaker. Both of us need to sleep now. Put down the bottle and sleeps beside me. I really tired."   

Raff patting the mattress whilst looking at me. My lips made a huge smile and I running to the bed and throw my thin body on his body. His built body is really hard as a rock but its comfortable. Raff's hand s*****d my firm butt hardly and pushed me beside him. I giggling. He stared his gaze at me and I pouting my lips. I don't want to ruin this beautiful moment. Its good enough when he wants to help me.

"Are you afraid I would cut your d**k and that's why you came to my house?" I know he didn't coming here because of that. 

"You surely had a lot of courage to cut my d**k, troublemaker. Do you want cut my d**k and put it into your hole?" Raff smirk. 

"If I can," I mutters under my breath.

"Just cut my d**k and put it into your hole. Its my pleasure to serves my little boy."

"Hell you."  

Raff caresses my cheeks and kiss my lips repeatly. We both stares at each other. He yawning again. His eyes is red. I can tell Raff is sleepy, much sleepy but he can managed to came here and sleep with me. I hugged his waist and leaned my head on his chest. I can hear his heavy breathing. He must be running on his way here.  

"Thank you Raff. You are so kind to me. I'm sorry caused bothering your sleep time but I cannot sleep. I will only sleep if you are here. I'm sorry again."  

I felt sorry to him. I am a selfish person. How can I bothered him when he always kind to me? I never return him anything. Plus, I gave him a lot of troubles since after the day where the accident happened.   

"Close your eyes, shut your mouth and sleep."  

Raff always acted as a cold guy and mean but I like it. He doesn't need to act as a romantic guy or sweet talker because it doesn't suit him.   

"I like you."  

"Hmm."  

"I love you."

"Hmm." 

"I love you Raff."  

"I love you to the moon, star, and all universes. Satisfied now? If you dare to say one more words out, I will make sure you will regret for having me in here."  

Raff hugged my body tightly until my crotch meet his stomach. He is tall. His height is 185 cm whilst me is 172 cm. The different heights between made me looked small in his eyes. I don't have any good complexions compared to him. He is handsome, people called him as a demi-god whilst me is a s**t. He already made his own way and me is still looking for a better way. That's why I don't compare myself with him. Never compare honestly. I lacked self-confidence.  

I let my sigh out.  

"Good night Raff."  

I close my eyes. Finally I can sleep now. Gladly I don't have any activities to do on tomorrow so I can wake up a bit late or maybe after afternoon.   

Suddenly I feel Raff's hand slither down in my sweat pants and grabbed my crotch. My eyes widely open. I don't wore boxer when I go to sleep because its uncomfortable to me. And now, Raff's hand laid perfectly on my crotch. Damn it. Its burning me inside. I pushed his chest to back and looked into his eyes. His lips form a smirk. I can feel his hand caresses my crotch slowly whilst he close his front body towards my body. Raff starts kissing my lips. And biting my lips and my neck too. Such a hungry snake. My body react quickly with his magical touches. I felt lost now.   

"I warned you already, big troublemaker."  

I will get my sleepless night again. Raff and I will get wild again. It is a must.