IN 60 Days

Chapter 9 - I just want him to love me.

"He isn't doing anything Jay, stop blaming Tyler for your mistakes." I defended.

"Who should I blame, everything was alright until he came into the picture!" he exclaimed.

"Everything was not alright! You were just using me as your puppet, I am tired of the emotional blackmail, I am tired of you interfering in I and my father's business, try to stay out and stop trying to change me am not and would never be Jay reformed Lilah!" I exclaimed.

Jay visibly stilled taking a step back.

He looked hurt.

"You think am trying to change you? Am just scared Lilah he was threatening to disinherit you, I was only looking out for you." he replied.

"Am sorry. I didn't mean to." I whispered.

Tyler words were messing with my head.

"Jay reformed Lilah! Where did that even come from?" he asked.

I looked away.

He held my hands.

"I love you Lilah, I really do, I don't want all this happening around us to change the way you feel about me. Am scared Lilah, am scared that I might just not be enough." he replied.

"You have, you would always be enough Jay and that's because I love you so much." I replied.

I stood on tiptoes trying to kiss him but failed.

He chuckled then kissed me on my forehead.

"Am not short." I murmured.

"Yes you are not, it's all my fault am too tall." he pacified.

I frowned.

"You are so adorable Lilah." he commented.

"Really adorable! Am not a gold fish Jay." I replied teasing him.

He frowned.

"You are one of the most beautiful thing that has ever happened to me, I don't deserve you Lilah, that's why am so scared. Wondering if one day you would wake up and realize you are too good for me."

I blinked surprised, he was the one that was too good for me.

"I get insecure when it comes to you, cause am not sure I would survive if I lose you." he replied.

"I love you." I replied.

"Lilah I want you to know that I would never change you for anything in the world, am sorry if I made you feel like I want you to change, you are perfection, flawless." he said cupping my jaw.

"I know." I replied.

"And am sorry if you feel that am imposing my will on you but I only want the best for you." he replied.

"Don't worry I would call my dad tonight." I promised.

"No please don't, I really should learn how to stay away from you guys family issue... "

"Am sorry Jay about what I said, I wasn't thinking straight, you are family." I said holding his hand.

He smiled.

"You sure?" he asked.

"Yes I am." I replied smiling back.

"I love you Lilah."

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I unplugged my earpiece from my iPod, I have been listening to the song "Super market" by Ed sheeran since morning.

I heard the knock.

I sighed.

I bet Ma Judy has been knocking since like forever but I couldn't hear because of the loud music I was listening to.

"Ma Judy go away.... please." I shouted.

There was silence for sometime.

I heaved a sigh of relief about going back to my pity party when the knock started again.

"Ma Judy I have told you I don't want to see anybody today...please just go away." I pleaded as a tear dropped.

"Its not Ma Judy, its Tyler." The familiar husky masculine voice announced.

I stopped, Tyler here in my room, I took a quick glance at my reflection in the mirror and concluded I looked like a night mare. Dried tears streaks, smeared mascara, my room was turned upside down, as I had taken my anger out on it trashing it, my hair was a mess, I reached for a brush then stopped myself.

Its just Tyler, maybe if he sees am such a mess he would just leave I thought.

I opened the door still seated on my bed using the electronic remote.

He took a double take at seeing me and my scattered room, now I thought of it that last minute brushing would have been very much helpful because it was really taking him time to take in the whole scenario.

"Good morning Tyler." I greeted trying to help him out.

"Woah." He replied making his way towards me, he was practically lifting things up so he could pass.

The real picture of what I did began to dawn on me, how humiliating and vulnerable I looked. I didn't even want to stop to think of how Tyler would see me now.... heck Jay haven't even seen me ever in such an emotional melt down state.

"What in Jesus name happened here, a hurricane?" Tyler asked when he finally found his voice.

"Why are you here Tyler?" I asked.

He lifted an empty bottle of vodka on top of the drawer.

"You were drinking.. Explains the bad breath." He mumbled.

After the whole drama with Jay, I have been avoiding Tyler, I ignored his calls, his texts and in school I just pretended he was invisible so he was the last person I expected seeing.

"And I was worried that's why I am here, you weren't in school yesterday and by the look of things you had every intention of skipping today." He replied as if he read my mind.

"How did you Even know my address, and how were you able to get in to me without the secret security code that only insiders are given, that's the only way anyone get past the security in the house." I questioned suspiciously.

"Well concerning your address I may or may not have made Blair log into your database in the principal's office to get that." He said.

"Why would she do that?she hates me." I mumbled.

"Yeah you guys have a love - hate relationship, she is a TYLAH fan big time, gosh that stuff do has it perks though she is jealous you get to have me she is kinda happy because she loves our love story."

"We have a love story?" I asked surprised.

He rolled his eyes.

"You are either not on social media or oblivious to reality yeah we do. We are the ones who would reunite the Louis and Alexander family. The haters turn lovers." He explained.

"That's just insane." I whispered.

"Yeah I know." He mumbled.

"So how did you get the SSC?" I asked.

"Cherry gave it to me." He simply replied.

"Why would she even do that." I mumbled.

"Because we are friends." He simply said.

"We arent.... If not you would know I like being alone yesterday and two days after." I replied.

"So you could drink yourself to death, that's not really healthy, you don't go locking people out when you are sad, so what's the plan after two days you come out pretending to be fine.Talk to someone, share your grief." He replied.

I glared at him.

"You are in no position to tell me what is healthy and what is not you get?" I asked.

He didn't respond.

"Do we have an understanding on that?" I screamed.

He nodded surprised.

I looked away.

There was silence.

"I am sorry for my outburst." I Mumbled.

"Thanks for coming, am alright as you can see, I have not been eaten by some giant oyster or something you can leave Now." I said laughing awkwardly at my own joke.

"Are you kidding me Lilah, you look like shit." He replied.

"I appreciate your observation you know, I look like a mess and I feel even worst, now you can Leave." I said.

He sighed.

"Tyler leave." I whispered.

"Never wanted it to get to this." He replied then sat down on the cushion opposite my bed.

I looked at him shocked, he wouldn't dare.

"What is wrong with you Tyler... Leave now." I requested.

"I don't want to." He simply mumbled."

"Leave please." I said standing up.

"But I don't want to." He replied back pouting.

"Tyler...." I mumbled.

"Your friends are bothered, like worried sick. I am not leaving until am sure you are okay." He replied.

"My friends huh? You owe them nothing."

"I care less about them. I care about you that's why I am here and even you don't want me gone."

I rolled my eyes at him even though my heart warmed at his admission.

"I so want you gone." I replied.

"Then call the security on me." He replied raising his brow at the teddy bear beside me...it was a disguise. It had a button I only had to pressed and security would be in my room asap.

"Cherry told you about it too?" I asked.

It was a trap to see if he was lying cause Vanessa and Cherry had no clue about the Teddy.

He laughed.

"Am not dumb neither is your dad, he would want to give you maximum protection because he has a lot of enemies besides your hand has been hovering around that s**t since I entered, like you are deciding whether or not to hit the damn button." He replied.

"Leave Tyler, this might not end well." I threatened ignoring my surprise on how much Tyler knew.

"Hit the button already why are you hesitating?" He asked.

"Because...I don't want you to leave." I whispered.

I gasped shocked at my own admission and realization of how much I needed him.

I wanted to stop myself from saying the next words but it came rumbling out anyways.

"It was Mom's death anniversary yesterday, Dad didn't show up, I knew he wouldn't, he told me a long time ago he wouldn't make it but like a fool I hoped...."

"That it would be like in the movies and he would eventually come."

I nodded.

"Its crazy cause it happens every year, he disappoints me every year and still I hope that somehow my dad, was somewhere in him and he would eventually show up but he doesn't so that's why I am here throwing myself a pity Party....feeling and looking like shit." I replied.

I wobbled my legs no longer able to carry me.

He held me preventing me from falling and the tears I was trying to hide came falling.

" I just want him to love me." I whispered holding on to him.