Inaudible Melodies

Kabanata 18

I always caught her taking glances at me. I emitted a deep sigh and stared back at her.

"Kacy, stop it."

She tilted her head and then pouted.

"I just can't help it. I mean, it's been a few days already, but I can't forget how he acted so weird that day."

She's bringing up that topic again. It's about what went on in the restaurant with Lucian involved, of course. About how he created a scene between us.

"I know how you feel," I stated.

If only she knew that I've been also wondering what comes into Lucian's mind that day. It's confusing, really.

"Did you notice that, too? There's something mysterious in his eyes the way he looks at you, Lea. I just can't point a finger at it. Basta merong kakaiba, eh!"

I was stunned. If it didn't flee from Kacy's sight, then I knew to myself that I had known it for a long time.

Binabalewala ko lang 'yon dahil hindi magandang mag-conclude sa isang bagay na wala namang patunay. Besides, he's my cousin. It's wrong to deride the way he stares at me. I don't want to assume because some things needed to be left unspoken and untouched.

"I don't know, Kacy. Lucian is something I can't decipher," I replied with a shrug of my shoulders.

"Super weird nga, Lea. Kanina pa niya tayo tinitingnan."

I heaved a sigh. "Just get rid of that letter."

"Bakit ba gustong-gusto mong itapon 'to?" then she waved the letter in front of my face.

I craned my neck to their spot and took a glimpse of his profile. I don't know if it's a good thing that his attention was now drawn towards his girlfriend. Perhaps, no. Because there's a sudden twitch in my chest that notified me it's not. I want to smack my head for thinking that way. Nahihibang na yata ako.

"It gives me a shivery uncertainty, that's why." I simply replied and then took the sling bag, and slung it around my arm.

Nagkibit-balikat na lang din siya saka tumayo na rin.

Mabuti na lang at vacant namin hanggang hapon. Teachers were also busy calculating the grades to finalize the ranking among students.

I'm not worrying about my grades. I always gush all my confidence into every answer I dotted down in the test. Masasayang ang pagsusunog ng kilay ko kung hindi ko ilalagay ang lahat ng kompyansa ko sa sarili.

If you're aiming for something, make sure to give your full blast of best to succeed in your desired goal.

Your hard work will be such a waste if, in the middle of chasing your dream, you will seize your track because of the reason that you had enough and were exhausted to go further. I mean- will you just give up right away because of that?

You should look back from where you begin and start to buckle up your limbs for the bumpy ride... because at some point, that's just how life works. Regardless of the obstacle, you will behold that you already had come a long way, therefore why bother to cut the chase?

You should put in mind to look forward and continue your track and see what's ahead of you.

Nevertheless of how ruined the path you chose, you'll still see your dreams... locked in your arms If you didn't halt. 'Cause having your dreams in your grasp doesn't mean about achieving them, it's also about the twist and turns of your journey about failures before you attain the tip of the word success.

Moreover, it was such a surprise when a man just appeared at my side and accompany me on my walk. He pretty positioned himself next to me, as if we were close.

My forehead knotted. Do I know this man?

I heard Kacy gasp. Pasimple pa niya akong kinurot sa braso ko. I glared at her but she's not that affected at all. She even looked like a fool, daydreaming while looking at this man.

"I know it's rude, but can I join you?"

"You're already rude, Mr. You didn't ask our permission first. You just jogged together with us, not minding our consent beforehand." I heard his chuckles. Napataas ang kilay ko dahil sa inasal niya.

May nakakatawa ba sa sinabi ko? Were my words a big joke to him? Does he think it's funny? Then mind him, it's not.

He maybe senses that I'm not okay being laughed at by him. By the time that his laugh withered, he slides both of his hands inside his pocket.

I admit, this man got the looks and appeal to make any women drool over him, but not me. I'm not that kind of woman blinded by his beauty and charm.

He can't capture me by that. But someone already did. It's Luci- never mind.

"You got me caught right there. By the way, I'm Denver Colorado from the college department. Future engineer." he stretches his right hand with a smile.

I just look at his hand for a seconds before sighing. I shake my hands with his. Kanina pa kami nakahinto sa hallway dahil sa lalaking 'to. Good thing that no other students are wandering around this area, 'cause I'm afraid that this conversation will be caught and definitely will be the root of gossips.

It's my first time seeing him. There were a lot of college students taking a visit in the Senior high school building. Whatever their reason was, I don't care.

But this man got my attention. He's here for what matters?

"Lea Awsman." ako na ang unang bumitaw sa kamayan namin dahil mukhang wala siyang balak gawin 'yon.

He's staring at me as if he's dreaming this day to come and amazement was vivid in his eyes. He was also dumbfounded for a moment and before blinking.

Ano bang nangyayari sa lalaking 'to?

"Siya ang pambato ng college department sa pageant! He's famous, Lea!" Kacy exaggeratedly whispered.

Sikat siya? Hmm? He looks familiar though. Ah, right! I remember him before. He was the man who participated in the pageant last year.

I'm not into pageants, really. I have no interest in things like that. Probably that's why I didn't recognize him right away, no?

"If you don't have anything to say, please excuse us. We're leaving."

"Ah, yes! Sorry, sorry. Sige, salamat." I weirdly look at him before nodding slowly.

Seriously? Where else did he pluck that kind of gratitude?

I quickly pulled Kacy away from there. I turned my head to glance at him from behind, only to find out that he's still standing there, staring from nowhere. Where could his eyes possibly reach?

Parehas sila ni Lucian. Sobrang weird.

Mahina akong napailing sa biglaan niyang pagpasok sa isip ko. Lucian always invades my mind. Ano bang ginawa ng pinsan ko sa 'kin at nagkakaganito ako dahil sa kanya?

I shook my head slightly and shut off the origin of my absurd thoughts that were attacking me before they could even thrive.