Taylor
It's been a total of 2 days now. The only people I was talking to were the doctor and the servant. I have always desired this kind of peace and silence. Yet right now I feel like I'm going crazy. Had Ryan decided that he didn't want me anymore? If so, was it not better to drive me out other than leave me here? a part of me wishes that he has actually rejected me. But the other part is already broken by the imagination of that. I couldn't stop myself from thinking what life would actually be if I choose to accept him. Yet there is the idea that all of this could be a facade he was putting up and he would change immediately he got what he wanted; it was scary. I had always made a vow to myself that I did not want a mate.
I knelt in front of the sacred tree that symbolizes the spirit
