Ella's POV
I was still a shadow of myself, wallowing in self misery and pain, and the truth is I didn't want it any other way.
I like it here, I felt I deserved all the pain and misery I was feeling.
It was all my fault... it was all my fault I fell in love with the wrong person...it was all my fault that we all went to that cursed island... it was my fault that all my friends are died now.
So yes I deserved this... I deserved everything nature is throwing my way.
I don't deserve to live, but I don't even have the courage to end it like I'm supposed to.
I am a coward... yes that is what I am , a coward and an imposter , an imposter that is here alive and still breathing, when I don't even deserve to be.
Crying became my normal act for me, I cried even when I didn't want to, I
