Twisted Choice

I need a plan

I've been in this hospital bed 3 days now, I have so many flowers surrounding me I feel like I'm at a funeral home. Sympathy is getting pretty old now, I don't want sympathy, I want the facts, the unanswered questions answered, justice and most of all I want to go home.

I havent seen my children in what feels like forever, I don't want them to see me like this, all smashed up and weak. They know me as strong and that is all they will ever know me as, I don't cry, I don't falter and I don't fail. If the police aren't smart enough to solve this case. I'm sure as hell I will. Then no one can see me as weak or frail or a victim for that matter, people will only see me as powerful, strong and determined.

I need a plan, I need to decide what to do first, I need to speak to James! He didn't return like he said he would, yet he is the only one that can give me any sort of answers, he was the only one who knows where I was found and in exactly what state. So its decided, when I get out of here I'm going to go find him, I'll make him walk me through what he remembers and...

'Heyy! You're up!!' Mia bounds around the corner interupting my thoughts, oh goody another boquet of flowers. Lillies this time, the death flower, the smell is so intense I turn my nose up at them.

'You don't like the lillies?' Mia asks looking extreamly disappointed.

'I don't like feeling like I'm already dead' I say back my tone a little too sharp.

'No one thinks you dead silly, we just want to show you how much we care and how sorry we are that you've been through so much' she has a nervous giggle to her voice.

'If you don't think I'm dead stop bringing me funeral flowers, next thing I'll be getting a wreath for goodness sake, I was attacked not murdered' im angry now I can feel the pressure rising in me, getting ready to blow, throwing back the sheets I get to my feet, pain surging through them as my cuts beg me to take it easy, but I can't I'm too angry, too restless I need to start doing something.

'Lucy please, get back into bed, I didn't mean to make you angry' Mia is half cowering half begging now, she never cowers at me, she's normally loud and demanding.

'Then stop treating me like I'm broken!!' I yell at her, furious that she wont be herself with me.

'But Lucy?' She reaches out to touch my arm as I pace up and down by the window.

'No Mia, this isn't you, you dont feel bad, you don't cower, you don't bring flowers and sympathies, YOU, you make jokes and laugh the world away!! Why is this so different?' I'm bellowing at her now.

'For goodness sake Lucy look at yourself, you were beaten and attacked, you can hardly stand on your legs and that's if you haven't just ripped all your stitches out!! I'm different this time, because its different this time!' She's finally coming back to her old self, she's shouting at me, no one has raised an eyebrow to me the whole time I've been here, let alone their voice.

'But I'm not different Mia, I need to get out of here and do something.' I say calmer, no longer pacing as the pain has become too much and all I want to do is climb back into bed but not until she agrees.

'And you will!' She doesn't understand, I don't want to wait anymore.

'No Mia you don't understand, I need to get out of here and fix this'

'Fix it how?' Shes looking at me questionably but with an undercurrent of worry, I knew shed get it.

'I want to find him, and take my life back from him.' She knows.

'I was afraid you were going to say that' Mia steps back and slumps onto the bed, deep in thought for what seems like forever.

'Okay' she says looking at me now, 'where do we start?' Yess! This is what I wanted to hear my sister, my best friend, my everything, she is going to help me get the bastard!

'We start at the begining' I finally reply, determination in my voice now.

'Fine, but its only wednesday, you need rest if you're going to do this, get the all clear from the doctor first, if you have the all clear by Friday then we will go, but that isn't up for negotiation' There she is, my beautiful fisty little sister.

I climb back into bed, thankful to be off my feet, Mia sits on the bed besides me, taking up all the space as usual. Its my little bit of perfect, my sister by my side, us against the world as it has always been. We talk for the next few hours, she tells me about grandma and the kids, how they're coping just fine without me, hmmm I suspect some mistruths in there but I don't argue just listen. She goes on to tell me all about the man she met on the night out, how she has told him she has too much to deal with at the minute and is refusing to set up a date with him. I remind her this isn't her and that she's mean, to not even entertain a phone call with the poor man, he clearly likes her, of course he does, they always do. She'd left him wanting more, he messaged she messaged, they flirted and then she found out about me and practically cut him off, the poor guy. Hopefully she entertains him with at least a phone call now she's back to her old self. I ask her about Sasha, but apparently she isn't heard from her since leaving the hospital on Sunday afternoon, Sasha is quite a quiet girl though, doesn't like drama, very sensible, that's why I like her so much for Mia, she sounds her. This whole ordeal has probably shok her up, I will have to remember to check in on her soon, make sure she's not carrying any guillt, this isn't anyone's fault other than that evil man's.

'Good afternoon girls, how are we both feeling?' Nurse Jessica enters the room, I have no idea how long we have been chatting for, but it feels like a lifetime. Its dark out and I realise its been too long. I shoot up realising the night shift must of started.

'Mia its late, you should be home already' Mia and Jessica both share a concerned look between them, but I'm too paniked to notice.

'Seriously Mia, you should be home, Jessica please can you get her a taxi and make sure its a trusted company, Mia Message me the minute you're home and lock your doors please, I couldnt bear it if...' Mia wraps he in a air tight hug, practically strangling me with her arms.

'I'll get one of the hospital taxi's to take her home, she'll get there safely I promise' Jessica speaks now calm and collected as always.

'I love you Mia' I say squeezing her back now.

'I love you most' she says gripping me back even tighter, I know she doesn't want to leave but I need to know she gets home safe, plus grandma needs her for the children.