Her lost baby

Chapter seven - I'm pregnant

Nia's POV:

Things between Kevin and I don't go well. He spent some time with me, but it was once. Then, he went back to whatever he was doing. I don't mind, but I wish I had been part of his plans. I tried to talk with him again, but there was no result. My boyfriend won't tell me what he is doing. I don't need to know everything. The thing is that I'm worried about him. I fear that he is doing something horrible. My parents keep saying that I'm worrying too much. I don't know what else I can do. He is not telling me anything. I can spy on him, but this is not a solution. I can't be that person. One thing is sure. He is not cheating on me. The message on his phone said we. This means that there is more than one person involved. I don't know what he is doing. I don't have a good feeling about this. I will give him one more chance. If he doesn't want to talk with me, I will do it the hard way. That is the last thing I want to do, but I have no choice. For now, I will wait. Also, I have other things to do. I keep babysitting kids every day. I don't think I will have one. Not when it comes to Kevin. Maybe I have to make that sacrifice to save our relationship. I'll do anything for him, and he knows it. I hope that the truth won't hurt me.

For the past few days, I haven't felt well. I drank some pills, but they didn't help me. I have an appointment with a doctor. Probably, I got sick. I won't be surprised. I go out every day. My clothes keep me warm, but I guess it wasn't enough. That's why I took a week off from babysitting. I can't watch kids in that state. Otherwise, they might get sick as well. I can't let this happen. Hopefully, everything will be fine. I want to know what is going on with me.

I woke up and went to get ready. My appointment is after an hour. I went for a quick shower and then for breakfast. I thought to skip it, but I'm hungry. I need to eat something. When I was ready, I took my small backpack and walked out. I arrived and saw someone waiting. I guess my turn will be later. It's good that I bring water with me. The man walked in. After twenty minutes, it was my turn. The doctor is a woman, which will make it easier for me to explain to her what is going on.

- Nia, right?

- Yes.

- What is going on? Do you have any pain or something similar?

- No, I only had a slight stomach issue. I felt weak for the past few days.

- Ok, let me check you.

- Is there a problem?

- Lay down. I want to check something.

- Sure, no problem.

- Does it hurt here? - she asked and pressed a spot on my stomach

- No.

- How about here?

- I don't feel anything.

- Here?

- Yes.

- Let me ask you something.

- Sure.

- When was your last period?

- What?

- Answer me.

- Last month, as usual.

- Are you sure?

- Yes, I am. Why are you asking?

- Because I think I know what your problem is. Do you have a boyfriend?

- Yes, I have.

- I believe you two have an active love life.

- Not exactly. We did it for the first time less than two weeks ago.

- Really?

- Yes.

- Were you safe?

- He was. I didn't drink anything.

- Maybe you should've done it.

- Why?

- Because I think you are pregnant.

- What? I'm pregnant. That is impossible. We did it only once. How?

- I guess you got it from the first time. Aren't you happy?

- I am, but my boyfriend didn't want to have kids.

- Then he should've thought about this earlier.

- What should I do now?

- Take this pregnancy test in the bathroom there. I am ninety-nine percent sure it will be positive.

I did what the doctor told me. It's true. I'm pregnant. That is great, but I don't know how he will react. I went back and showed her the result. She sent me to a midwife. According to her, I was in the first week. She was surprised to see that it happened so quickly. Usually, it takes more time for the girl to notice it.

- What am I supposed to do?

- You need to start taking care of yourself. For now, you can still work. What is your job?

- I'm a babysitter.

- Great. I know you should reduce stress. Every emotion can affect the baby.

- That will be a bit hard.

- Trust me. It will be worth it.

- Anything else.

- No alcohol, smoking, or drugs.

- I don't take any of these things.

- Then you don't have to worry about anything.

- Maybe that is except for my boyfriend.

- Why?

- He won't be happy to hear this.

- I'm sure he will be happy. Give him some time.

- He clearly said that he doesn't want to have kids.

- Think before you do something. Tell him this.

- I will. Thanks.

- That is from me. If you have questions, feel free to ask. If you don't, you can go home.

- When should I come again?

- Once every month. You can come on the same date next month. From the seventh, you will come every two weeks.

- I understand. Thank you.

- You're welcome.

I'm pregnant. I don't know how Kevin will react to this. I sent him a message. He agreed to meet with me for lunch. For a second, I doubted if I should tell him. The thing is that after some time, he will notice my belly. I can't hide this from him. This will only make things worse. I will tell my parents as well, but it will be later.

I walked to the restaurant and waited for him. Meanwhile, I ordered food. I can't stay hungry. Now, I need to start eating more. The baby will need enough food. Soon, Kevin came. He ordered food and looked at me.

- Hey, are you ok? What is going on?

- Something happened.

- What? Are you hurt?

- No, I'm fine.

- Then?

- I.

- Come on. Tell me. I want to know.

- I'm pregnant.

- What? From who?

- Seriously?

- Yes. Now answer me.

- From you.

- That is impossible. I was safe.

- I guess that wasn't enough.

- You are lying.

- I'm not. I went to the doctor this morning. I thought I was sick, but she told me the real reason for my state. Here is the test I took.

- No, I don't believe it. How?

- I'm sorry.

- You have to do something.

- What do you mean?

- This will only make things more complicated.

- I don't understand.

- I can't take care of it.

- You won't be alone. We'll do this together.

- No, I can't. A kid doesn't fit in the picture.

- What are you talking about?

- You have to get rid of it.

- What? Are you crazy? I'm not doing that.

- I can't deal with it. I'm sorry, but I have other things to do.

- Everything will be fine. I know it.

- I'm sorry, but no.

- What is going on with you? Is this because of your secret?

- No, I don't have secrets.

- For sure, you don't. Kevin, I know you.

- So?

- You keep hiding something from me.

- I don't.

- Are you sure?

- Yes, I am.

- But I'm not. You can trust me.

- I have never hidden anything from you.

- But you have lied to me. Right?

- I.

- I know. You don't trust me anymore.

- It's not that, I swear.

- Then what is it?

- I promised not to talk about it.

- That again. When will you stop lying to me?

- I'm not lying to you. Try to understand me.

- I do, but you don't. Do you know for how long I wanted this? I'm not getting rid of the baby.

- Please, think about this.

- I'm sorry, but no. The baby is mine. I can do whatever I want with it. This includes keeping it.

- Don't make a mistake.

- How can you say that?

- This baby wasn't planned, and you know it.

- So what? Some women can't even get pregnant. I won't miss my chance.

- Fine. Do whatever you want. It's your baby, not mine.

After lunch, Kevin walked away. I was sure he wouldn't like the news. I should get hurt, but I'm not. I can't expect anything else from him. Hopefully, he will change his mind. I can't take care of a kid alone. My parents will always be by my side. Well, it's not enough. This baby needs to have a father. It's not guilty of anything that is happening between Kevin and me.

I walked around the town for a while. I needed to make myself calmer. The problem is that I have no idea what to do from now on. I need him, but I don't think he needs me. After some time, I walked home. Dad was in the kitchen. I guess he finished working earlier. Maybe I should go out for dinner and leave my parents alone for some time. They deserve it.

- Hey, dad.

- Hey, kid. How was your day?

- It was good. I see you are home early.

- I finished my work for the day. That's why I decided to go home.

- Great. Mom will love it.

- I don't think it matters to her.

- I think you two need a calm dinner.

- What do you mean?

- I will go out for the night. You and my mom can rest. I mean, no funny business. I don't want a brother or sister. - I said, and he laughed

- We are too old for this. Don't you think?

- Love doesn't know age. Now, seriously. When was the last time you and my mom had dinner together?

- I don't know. It wasn't soon.

- That's what I mean.

- Let me talk to her. The last thing I want is for you to stay outside alone.

- I will be fine. No one will hurt me.

- Why don't we go out? You can stay at home.

- That's not what I mean, but it still works.

- See?

- Fine. I see you are in a good mood today. Did something happen?

- No, I still do the same things every day.

- Then change them.

- How?

- That is something you should figure out by yourself.

- Will you invite Kevin for dinner tomorrow?

- Why?

- Because I haven't seen him soon.

- I would love to, but lately, he is busy. Kevin is working on projects for the university.

- I understand. Maybe when he is free, he will come.

- Yes, sure. I will tell him that you asked for his presence.

- Thanks. Now go and do something fun.

- I will try.

Mom came home after an hour. I managed to convince her to go for dinner with my dad. They deserve to spend some time together. I know they are busy, but this shouldn't be an excuse. The work won't go away. After all, they need to rest. The rest of the night, I was in my room. I won't get rid of my baby. Kevin can forget about this. I don't care if he will help me or not. If it's necessary, I will do this alone. I wanted to get pregnant for so long. There is no way I will miss my chance. I don't know if I will have another one. I can't risk it. I hope that I won't have a difficult pregnancy.