The White Beauty

Episode Fourteen Confusion and Hatred

Jasons' P.O.V.

I can see her eyes on me. Everywhere her eyes touch sends a wave of fire through me. The tingles pinpoint exactly where she's looking. Kinda makes me smirk on the inside. 

I knew it was coming. This isn't the first time my dad has hit me. I know what something like this happens and he has a calm look on his face, he's going to punish me. It's been a long time since I've hade to be 'put in my place' but that is something I'll never forget. 

As he stopped in front of me, I stood tall with my chest out. He gave me an 'I don't want to do this but you're out of line' look. I can see out of the corner of my eye that Dae and Chris are watching in shock. 

Normally dad never hits me in front of others, only in my room. But, I guess this behavior can't wait until we go back inside. I watch as he draws his arm across his chest and with a swift movement I feel the back of his hand hit the surface of my cheek. 

Before I can look at my father in the eyes again, I'm being pushed back. I can tell by the tinges shooting through me as to who it was. 

I can't believe what I see in front of me. My mate... Standing up to a King... To protect me...

Her stance is nothing like I've seen from a newborn. Under normal circumstances, I'd have to teach a pup how to defend and fight and to look as though nothing frightens them. To look the enemy in the eyes like their not afraid to die. 

But with her... She's standing there tall and prideful. Looking at my dad like she'll kill him in a heartbeat for hitting me like that. 

When I hear the death threat of a growl leave my mates' chest I know I have to act fast before this becomes uncontrollable. I quickly shift and touch her with my nose and muzzle to calm her down. It must have set her off because she pins her ears back flush with her fur. She looks at me with a whimper escaping her lips. I can see the panic starting in her eyes. 

I look at dad as he watches us with curiosity in his eyes. When I look back at her she's looking around the area.

Babe?

Her attention snaps back at me and then over to dad. Now I realize what she's doing. She's looking for a way out of this. 

Don't do it. Everything will be okay Love. 

She looks back in the distance and then back to me. No please don't do it. Please don't leave me, Love. 

And then she takes off running. I can't feel anything. I feel numb as my heart breaks. I let out a howl showing everyone how much her actions hurt me. I couldn't help it. It just came out of me with no warning at all. Blane's whimpering and pawing to get out. She's trying to leave me. I feel a whimper escape my lips as I look at my father. He gives me a nod and I waste no time going after her. 

It takes no time with Blanes' help to catch up to her. Her scent motivating me to get to her. 

I'm almost able to jump in front of her and catch her in my arms when she jumps over a log and runs right. 

I know she'll be heading for the lake now. Maybe this will slow her down so I can comfort her. As soon as she hits the clearing she stops dead in her tracks sending me crashing into her. 

She tries to get up but I need her to calm down first. The more she struggles to get away from me the more pissed I become. She won't even look at me. She's just looking for another escape. 

Why would you do that? That was so stupid of you. I told you everything was okay and now, the Goddess only knows what is going to happen. 

She wouldn't listen to me. I know she could hear me because she wasn't shutting down her mind-link but she wouldn't pay attention to my words. I'm starting to get annoyed. She won't stop looking around my legs and squirming. 

Are you even paying attention to me? My Goddess Love. What the hell are you looking at?

Frustration building up, I look behind me only to see the lake. No one is walking by. Nothing is insight. She brushes up against me as she walks towards the water. She looks with disbelief as she gets closer. 

Love?

I hear nothing back from her. Not even a grunt. 

I walk behind her wondering what is going through her head. It's just a lake... Nothing more. There is nothing significant about it.  

I can see tears falling from her eyes as she looks out onto the water. I go to step to her and comfort her but she moves to look at her reflection. I lean down after a moment and see our reflections side by side. Something about seeing us being side by side warms my heart. I no longer feel hurt or pain, just pure happiness at the sight in front of me. 

I see her shift in the corner of my eye and decide to shift with her. She looks back at the water only to see the pain she had gone through. Her hand touching her lips. I can see her tears building up in her eyes and her brows furrow together. 

"Babe?"

Before I can put my hand on her back I hear the scream, "I hate you!" leaving her body. Her fist slams into the water where her reflection is. She's sobbing but I don't know why. Why would she say that? Was it supposed to be for me? Does she hate me? She's making my heart hurt. 

I feel the urge to hold her in my arms taking over me. I try to get her off the ground but she starts hitting my chest with open palms. I grab her and pull her into me. I need her. She's the love of my like. She can't hate me. I won't let her. 

As her body starts to relax in mine, she lets out a breath and says, "I wish I was never born," as the sobs continued. 

I feel like she personally ripped my chest open. How could she say that? How could she wish my mate was never born? Do I not deserve to have someone love me? Am I that bad of a person that I don't deserve happiness?

I drop to my knees with her falling down with me. Her sobs stop as soon as we hit the ground. I sat here with my shoulders slumped over. I look down at the ground while she stares at me. I can't even look at her. I don't want her near me right now. It hurts me to think this way but she doesn't want me. 

She reaches in to touch my cheek but I move my face from her reach. I swoop in and pick her up bridal style and start walking back to our... my home... 

She looks up at me as she runs her fingers through my hair. I keep my gaze forward not wanting to look at her beautiful eyes. I can't let her see the hurt in my eyes at your words. I can't show her how much her words affected me.

"Jason, I..."

"Don't," I told her in a strict tone without looking at her. I don't want to hear her voice. I can't. It sounds like a syrens voice calling me into a death trap. Her voice alone makes me want to forget about everything. I don't need her clouding my judgment. 

Come to the Throne Room and bring Sarah with you. 

Father mind-linked me as we enter the courtyard, a man starts to approach us. She may not want me not I will not have another man look at her naken body. 

I stop and let out a low growl causing a woman to run up to him and grabs whatever is in his hands. She wants over to us as I keep my eyes on her. She unfolds a sheet and lays it across my shoulders, pulling the fabric around me and tucking the rest around my mate covering her body up as well. 

She steps back and bows her head. "Thank you," was all I said before walking into the Throne Room where Dae, Chris, Jake, and my Father waits for me. 

"So I'm going to need explanations for what happened today Jason. You not only let Sarah out of her cage but you also jumped around in the courtyard with her like a..."

I cut dad off without an ounce of worry for my actions, "You don't have to send Jake out to look for her mate." 

"What the hell does this have to do with what I just asked you, Jason?" 

I can tell he's getting pissed at me for not answering right away. 

"But it does have something to do with this. She is my mate... I knew from the moment she walked in that door but I had to make sure before I said anything. I could feel the connection with her but Blane couldn't with her wolf. I was worried there was something wrong with me. Why Blane couldn't connect with his mate was because her spirit wasn't there, not until today. She shifted in front of me for the very first time today. Blane and I were overcome with happiness to finally have our mate. I felt complete. I finally had what has been missing in us for years. She completes me, dad. I wanted to show her a life with me wasn't going to be so bad even though she wouldn't see her family again. But I guess I was wrong because she'll never accept me for who I am. A murderer. A tormentor. A ruthless Alpha. I am mated to a strong, confident, beautiful woman who would never what someone like me. Well, was mated." 

"Son, what are you doing?"

I let her out on my arms letting her keep the sheet around her. I turned her around to look into her eyes. I could see worry and confusion dancing in her eyes as she tried to study my face. 

"I Jason Rollings the fourth Alpha of the Dark Reign Pack reject you, Princess Sarah Collins, as my mate." I could see the tear building up in her eyes. Not wanting to see her cry, I turn my eyes to meet fathers. 

I can see the shock still on his face, "I'm gonna take Cynthia to Takenue tomorrow morning. I want her to see who she is marrying before anything official happens. I want her to see if she can love him in time and it'll let me see who he really is. I don't want my sister to marry someone who will abuse her." 

Before anyone could say anything I walked out of the Throne Room and to my bedroom. 

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I stood there not knowing what to do. I feel destroyed inside. I still want her. Why? I can't get her out of my head. I can't stop seeing those tears in her eyes because of my words. I hurt her. 

I HURT HER!

I'm pacing in my room. 

I start to go to the door wanting to tell her I'm sorry and that I want her to be my mate. 

I turn and walk further into my room. She doesn't want me. She'll never want me. 

I turn to go to the door again. I have to tell her I'm sorry and beg her for forgiveness. 

I turn again not sure what to think. 

I immediately turn towards the door and send my fist straight through the door. I walk over to my bed and flip the whole think over sending it through the glass doors and on to the balcony. I turn my attention to the bedside lamp sitting perfectly in the center. I pick it up and throw it at the painting my mother made for me. When the lamp hit the painting, it shredding it down the middle. 

As the pieces of glass from the lamp hit the floor, I heard someone clear their throat. I look over to see Cynthia staring at me through the hole I had just punched through the door. She stuck her arm through the door and unlocked it letting herself if. She stood there looking at me while I breathed heavily. 

"Well, I like what you've done with the place but I think it'll get too cold at night to sleep outside."

"Get out," I know she's trying to cheer me up but I'm not in the mood for her sarcasm. 

"No," She crosses her arms over her chest and raises her nose up in the air like a spoiled little brat. 

"Cynthia, I said get out. Now."

"And I said NO," Her putting extra emphasis on the 'No'.

"I swear if you don't get out of my room..."

"You'll what? Hmm? Send me off like he is? I heard you're taking me to Takenue tomorrow morning. Was I such a horrible sister that you can't even wait three weeks for me to go? Is that it? Answer me, brother!"

I walk over to her and grab her arms sternly and shake her to get her to shut up. "Will you shut the f**k up for one second. I'm taking you to Takenue in the morning because I want you to see if he is your mate. If he is then there is no harm in you marrying him." 

"But what if he isn't Jason. I'm scared that I'll never have my mate. And if I find my mate after this marriage then it'll be too late. He'll be hanged for loving the king's wife and I'll be beheaded for loving someone other than my husband. Just like our mother when she found her mate. " Tears start falling down her cheeks she lays her head on my chest. 

"Then you'll run away."