To the Moon and Back

Chapter 39

                                                               *Sammy`s POV*

          I can’t seem to keep my hands off of Jason. While we kiss the intensity of those intoxicating sparky things is insane it’s hard to focus on anything other than how damn good it feels to be in direct physical contact with Jason. Even after breaking our kiss, I remain in his lap, my hands continue trailing his body. While I am loving how his embrace is so warm and comfortable, I can’t help but notice the difference in the current between us, this is intimate but not s****l . As I enjoy his warmth I marvel at  the sparks jumping from his body to my fingertips. As I absentmindedly trail my fingers across Jason’s chest, I tell him honestly “that was the best sleep I’ve had in like forever”.  He kisses the top of my head, causing a satisfied sigh to leave my lips. I lay my head  under his chin, wrapped in his arms. For the first time in such a long time I truly feel at peace.  “Look kitten the sun is rising!” Jason says excitedly as he picks me up and repositions me under his arm. He pulls my legs onto his lap. He holds me close with one arm and his other gently squeezes my inner thigh. I place my hand on top of his. At the last second he turns his hand upwards and intertwines our fingers. I snake my other arm around his arm, and we fall into a comfortable silence. We stayed like that holding on to each other till well after the sunrose. Far too soon for either of our liking our bliss was cut short by my 1st alarm.  “I don’t want to adult yet!” I whine playfully, making sure  to pout for full effect. I squeak in shock when I’m suddenly straddling Jason’s lap, how the hell is he so fast. Before I had time to fix my face Jason had hungrily sucked my pouting lip into his mouth.  My shock over his speed is forgotten as he gently teases my lip in between his perfect teeth. My core instantly moistens , every part of me is screaming to escalate the situation. Well almost every part, my brain is desperately trying to fight the desire to completely loose myself with Jason.  I have to stop myself from teasing Jason just a few swirls of my hips and hell be as worked up as I am. It’s not time for that. “mmm” s**t now he’s sucking on my lip, f**k its time to be an adult. Stupid responsibilities. Jason has to sneak out. I have to wake up the kids and get them ready for school. “Mmm” I moan again as Jason bites my lip playfully. At some point I have to pretend to be shocked when Jason ‘Surprises’ us. but first coffee! And maybe cuddles? Actually, first I need to get my lip back from this sexy hunk of man. Jason still has my lower lip hostage between his teeth. After one more moan of appreciation I make my move. While Jason still nibbles and sucks on my lip I lick him. Yup I lick him from his top lip up his face as far as I can while he still has my lip.  He immediately let’s go of my lip and we both start laughing. After we shared a good chuckle I settled back into his chest to enjoy his warmth, and those delightful tingles. “Would you like some coffee Handsome?” I ask him while snuggling my face into his chest. “yes Kitten. that sounds perfect thankyou” he tells me while hugging me tight. I don’t want to move “Carry me My Prince charming!”  I tease him , he smiles at me with an unfamiliar gleam in his eye. I don’t get a chance to figure out why he was looking at me like that. The next second I am giggling and throwing my arms around Jason’s neck. He had stood up and began walking towards my back door. He held me to him bridal style, he moved as if I weighed nothing at all. How strong is he, does he work out a lot? Or is this farmers muscles? Thank you goddess for this absolutely perfect gift of a man. I feel my cheeks heating up as we near my back door. Is He going to carry me across the threshold? Like this? He stops walking and looks down at me. He gives me this sexy ass cocky look that lets me know he knows what I’m thinking, and yes that’s what he’s doing.  “I’m Practicing for when we move in together” he says with a smirk. I just stare at him , maybe I’m still sleeping, this is probably a dream I think to myself, “and for when we get married?” I mumble as I snuggle into his chest. He chuckles no way he heard that I barely whispered it! I feel so safe in Jason’s arms, and not just because he’s carrying me around as if I was an actual kitten.  But his warmth, even just his presence calms me. And his smell good goddess his smell. I am actually comfortable smelling him. I inhale deeply as I snuggle my face into his chest. I can’t help but to think how Jason seems to melt away all of my insecurities with a single touch. He has caught me sniffing him several times and each time he’s reacted so affectionately. John used to snap at me to ‘Stop acting like an animal’ sorry I can’t I’m a mammal not a plant or mineral! Well in all honestly John had a tendency to react poorly to well pretty much anything that brought me joy.

                                                                      *flashback*

                I stood in front of my mirror after having changed twice already.  John didn’t like the first 2 saying they made me look huge.  I had thought I looked nice in both. At least I had, until john seen me.  Yeah my tummy is still squishy , I only had Marie six months ago.  I’ve lost a lot of my baby weight already just from nursing and walking with her strapped to me.  If I ask john to watch her so I can do anything he will tell me no. he works, and I don’t. my only job is to care for her, so he won’t do my job and his.  “That’s what your wearing?!? Are you planning on turning tricks tonight??” john snaps at me. “ WHAT! Are you serious right now?  It’s a loose-fitting V neck t shirt and leggings!” I snap back. “your t**s are hanging out! Whatever be a w***e. Just let’s go  I don’t have time for this s**t!” he tells me angrily. “why do you hate everything I wear?” I ask him while fighting back tears. John looks me dead in the eye and says “Its not the clothes, Samantha, it’s your body. you’re too big.” His words cut into my soul, still I wasn’t going to let him see how bad he hurt me.   I turn away from him, drawing a grounding breath, I reach for my necklaces. First my choker holding my triple goddess charm, next is my Amethyst pendant. Finally, my Pentagram , Smiling to my reflection. “Do you have to wear that s**t?!?”  He spits out In disgust when I turn around. “I told you they are special to me they symbolize my beliefs. Why can’t you just respect that?” my voice is far meeker than I can stand. I hate this I hate who he makes me. I’m so close to breaking, he doesn’t know that I know about all the females he’s texting. But with everything I read, how he mocked my body and my beliefs to these girls while trying to arrange hookups. I was disgusted and heartbroken but with how he’s acting now I’m angry. I’m fuming, how dare he as I open my mouth to let him know he’s a piece of s**t he cuts me off “I don’t have time for this s**t. I’m leaving.” He turns and starts walking to the door. “what ever ill just grab my-”  “NO” I stop in my tracks turning to him confused. “I am f*****g leaving, Without you. You can stay home and do what your good at. Stuff your f*****g face and sit on your fat ass.” I just stared at him my mouth open and bile rising in my throat. He wasted not another second of his precious time, turning and slamming the door as he left. AS soon as the door banged closed I broke. Everything I was holding onto rushed over me as if a dam had broke inside of me. Once my tears started they kept flowing, my body shook from my Sobbing. He always made me feel so worthless. I had managed to take a deep ragged breath as I looked around. I was so utterly alone. Marie was spending her first night away from me. Her first sleep over with my parents.  John was a cruel lying bastard. He lies he cheats, he doesn’t help with our child, but I’m the one that feels worthless. why am I not enough? Why won’t he love me?  “Will I ever be good enough” I cry out. My head is swirling with every negative comment every sext he sent to someone else and every disapproving look. I can’t breathe ,I can’t see the tears make everything blurry. my body is shaking and just as I’m about to pass out I start to feel an oddly familiar warmth. With the warmth comes a relaxing tingle. I finally manage to take a deep breath and I’m met with a strangely  familiar and extremely pleasant smell.  “Kitten Wake up”  that voice is so familiar and so comforting. “Sammy baby are you ok?”  whoever this man is his voice is so soothing. It sounds like home.

                                                                         *Jason`s POV*  

          My sweet mate had fallen asleep in my arms snuggled into my chest. She needed coffee Max and I wore her out. I lost count how many times we made her c*m.  My only focus was to give her as many Orgasms as she could handle “And then a few more” Max says as he puffs with pride. Her last orgasm wasn’t when she soaked my face and passed out  slumping over the top of my head. After I had gently removed her body from off my head max had insisted I clean her like wolves do, actually threatened to take control and do it himself if I didn’t!  Not being able to mark or mate with Sammy was driving my poor wolf mad. So, I licked every single drop of her juices from her oh so sensitive p***y.  Even while sleeping she was driving me mad. Her twitches and moans drew a deep growl of approval. The vibrations of my growl had caused her to come undone yet again. after I cleaned her pretty p***y one more time. I held her closer to me as my sweet kitten slept soundly curled up in my arms. I love holding her and watching her sleep and I can’t wait to make a lifetime of memories with Sammy.  But Sammy needs her rest, so I settle her on her couch.  Once I have tucked her in I head to the kitchen. With only minimal struggles I manage to locate I don’t the coffee and figure out Sammy’s coffee pot. While I’m waiting for the coffee to finish brewing I hear Sammy whimpering. I was by her side so fast that I was relieved that she was still sleeping, she would have freaked out. No human can move that fast. Another werewolf perk, Advanced hearing. If I were human I never would have heard her whimpers.  My mate has the most heartbroken look on her beautiful face. She should never look that sad. Whatever she is dreaming about is not pleasant. She has tears streaming down her face. Just as I am kneeling down to try and wake her up she whimpers out “will I ever be good enough?”  “she’s dreaming about that scumbag he hurt her J, ill rip his limbs from his body!”  max is Snarling at the mere thought of our mate being abused. “Max I don’t think he put hands on her, but he certainly hurt her heart.” I try and reason with my wolf. Rather than discuss the prick any longer we both focus our efforts on comforting our mate.  Since we know that she can feel the bond ass as strong as we do. I figure step 1 is to pick her up and hold her to me as tightly and gently as possible. As soon as I do that her whimpers die down , but don’t stop completely.    “Step 2 Nuzzle her now!”  Max commands me, under other circumstances I would not let that slide.  But I had far more important things to deal with than a power struggle with my wolf. As I nuzzled my face into her neck and face  her whimpers stopped and her face began to relax.  Finally, I could truly appreciate how cute my mate was in my arms. She was at least a foot shorter than me. I leaned down and whispered how beautiful, caring and smart she is. I squeeze her to me gently and whisper “Kitten, Wake up.” I kiss her forehead “Sammy baby are you ok?” I feel her start to stir as I nuzzle into her marking spot. “you’re having a bad dream my love.” “Jason”  she sighs as she immediately relaxes into me. “Kitten” “yes Babe?”  “anyone that thinks you aren’t good enough is an i***t. You are perfect!” She looks both shocked and moved.  I kiss her forehead  before telling her “Come on kitten coffee is ready!”