To the Moon and Back

chapter 32

                                                                      *Sammy’s POV*  

                   Why? Well s**t how do I explain why I was upset without scaring Jason off. If I tell him everything, he’s going to realize I’m way more trouble than I’m worth. I can feel his gaze on me, but I’m too lost in thought to respond. Soon I feel Bella nuzzle my hand, She always knows how to pull me out of my head. I take a deep breath to steady myself. I slowly look up into his eyes. I’m nervous, he’s going to see me for the damaged scared little girl I am. When our eyes meet I expect to see judgment or even disgust , but what I am met with was acceptance. He could see I was anxious, he seen me, and he wasn’t bothered. He said nothing  but gently took my hand in his and pulled me with him. He led us to one of my bigger yard chairs, it was set close to the fire pit but not close enough for ash and smoke to be an issue.  He sits down on the chair and tugs me into his lap “get comfy kitten.”  He tells me.  Well s**t don’t mind if I do. As soon as I relax into his chest his scent surrounds me. Don’t let him catch you sniffing him hell think your weird, john hated when we sniffed him. That was the last nasty thought I had about myself. Soon Jason’s scent and these delightful sparks had soothed my anxious thoughts away. All my insecurities melting away as I relax into this beautiful man’s warmth. I shift my body so that my legs lay in his lap, my bare feet rest on Jason’s leg. In this position I can snuggle even further into his embrace. In this position everything feels right in the world. This is most definitely  my new favorite method of soothing anxiety.  My head is resting on his chest, the steady thumping of his heart soothing me. I  snuggle my face into his chest and breathe in deeply.  before I could stop myself I say “Mmmm you smell so good”.  Oh, WTF  brain, I was about to panic but I feel Jason’s whole chest shaking and then I hear that damn laugh of his. Not the reaction I was expecting.  “I’m glad you like it kitten” he stops talking to lean down, his nose buries in my hair, and he breathes in deeply. “You smell divine.” His fingers go to work exploring my body gently. He is soothing me, and these Goddess forsaken sparks are different. Instead of the fireworks, that erupt under my skin sending sparks of desire to my core, they feel like soothing vibrations. Kind of like how it feels to have a kitty curled up on your chest purring, warm and comforting. We stay like that in silence for a few comfortable moments. My hand was lazily tracing his muscles through his shirt when I felt his hand moving up my dress. Instantly those sparks reverted to their delicious torture. My core was pulsing with need as his fingers inched closer. His hand stops at my hips, I have to keep from moaning. Holy s**t Samantha he barely touched you calm down woman. And that thought stood strong in my mind for all of .25 seconds. I had barely thought of controlling myself , As soon as I felt his finger hook my thong  all rational thought left the building.  “You smell so good, that I think ill be taking these home”  I should be wondering why this man keeps insisting on taking my panties, but I’m far too busy biting my lip. Maybe ill just give him these ones and ill be able to get them back in one piece. Suddenly Jason lets go snapping my thong strap back into place. I shivered and bit my lip. He soothes the slight sting with  one hand while gently tilting my chin up with his other.  Once our eyes met I can see they are filled with so much passion.  He speaks calm and gently “but first , we talk. tell me. What’s wrong?” he kisses me tenderly on my forehead. He’s so f*****g sweet that I can’t be annoyed at him for not dropping it. I’m not used to any of this, I’ve always taken care of me, I’m not used to leaning on people. He’s not just any person though, he’s special, I can’t explain it, but I know he’s different.  And this isn’t like me seeing how good my Ex could have been. This is me recognizing that the perfect male specimen who is gently soothing me is genuine.  I snuggle back into his chest breathing in deeply. His scent calms me and gives me the courage to continue “I don’t want to go into all of the messy details right now. So how about I give you the abridged version”   “fair enough” he answers immediately.  “ok.. so…the reason I was so upset earlier… well my ex..the kid’s dad called…he called like right after I hung up on you” I giggle while snuggling into Jason’s strong arms before continuing “his call came in so soon after… I thought it was you so I uh…I answered the phone ‘yes Sir’ so he started up with his bullshit  he wanted to know who I was calling sir.” When I finished talking I realized that Jason’s chest was moving but he wasn’t making  any sound. Curious I push back off his chest and look up to see what he’s doing. That’s when I see he’s desperately fighting to hold back his laughter. Once our eyes lock he loses it and we both bust into a fit of laughter.  After laughing our asses off for a while, Jason once again wraps his arms around me and pulls me to his chest. Immediately his warmth engulfs me “He did not find it so funny” I tell him with a giggle. I took a quick breath and told him all the nasty things John had said to me. His grip on me had gotten tighter it was almost uncomfortable. He quickly loosens his hold while he leans down again to breathe in my hair. After he takes a few deep breathes his grip tightens and he clears his throat before saying. “So, this tool is the kid’s dad?”  “yeah we were together 7 almost 8 years. It wasn’t all bad, but when I had Marie I grew up he didn’t. he was no longer the center of attention. And it didn’t help that I had put on so much weight. After having the kids. When john and I met I was this little stick figure and he loved it.  He didn’t like that I was bigger.” I have to take a deep breath in to keep my voice steady. Jason seems tense, angry even. His body is tense. I can tell him holding me close is as much for his comfort as mine.  He must sense how uncomfortable this conversation is making me because he starts to  trace circles on my arm. “so, I want attractive enough after having his daughter, so he went out and cheated on me. My dumb ass took him back. John is our makeup baby, lots of empty promises whispered that night. And well things just got worse from there. There’s much more but we need something stronger than coffee for that!” After I finish speaking we sat in silence for what felt like an eternity. Just as I was getting nervous about what Jason was thinking  he growls out “He. Is. An. Idiot.” Ah f**k! Goddess that growly s**t is so hot! I was so lost in thought I hadn’t noticed Jason’s  hands moving towards my hips until I was being picked up. This man had picked me up effortlessly, like I was a small child or something. As quickly as I had been lifted Is a quickly as I had been repositioned on Jason’s lap. I was now straddling this delicious specimen. Ah s**t it’s easy to get distracted like this. I’m snapped from my dirty daydreams by the voice of this perfect man under me.  “Kitten. Your ex sounds like a total turd. He was a shitty boyfriend is he at least a good father.”  The way he shows so much concern for John and Marie is seriously attractive.  Stradling him had my body burning with desire. I knew one thing for certain I was more than over speaking about my ex. I wanted to put our mouths to better use! “Not really, he’s not consistent. But that’s enough talk about him for tonight!” to really make my point I roll my hips teasingly. I made sure to grind on him. He growls lowly as he grabs my hips and hold me tight against him. “kitten? What did I tell you about  teasing?” his grip on my hips was crazy strong I couldn’t move. Like I could barely wiggle, he had even managed to somehow restrict my arms movement . I was basically caged to his chest.  I’m trying to get my brain to come up with some quick witty reply but I couldn’t remember words. These damn sparks are lighting up all over my body. they make it so hard to think, but they feel so good.  Yup words are taking to long, so I licked him. As soon as the tip of my tongue touched his cheek Jason sucked in a deep breath.  As my tongue finishes traveling across Jason’s face I hear deep rumbling growl. Jason grips my hips as if they were handle bars and press me down against his raging hard on. “f**k” we both groan. Even through his pants I can feel it. Still using my hips  to hold me where he wants me Jason starts to grind his raging hard on across my weeping flower.  My panties stand no chance against this friction and pressure. He’s slowly stroking up as he glides me across his anaconda. I’m now panting and trying to bite back moans. He’s driving me f*****g insane with these slow strokes. Goddess help me his d**k is f*****g huge I knew it was big. But now that I could feel it so well   I’m not sure if it will fit! I might actually die trying to take all that. Its even bigger than I thought, but momma didn’t raise no punk. If I die I die with a smile on my face. “oh goddess” I moan out. This is insane I’m about to come and all we are doing is dry humping!  “mmmm ahhhh oh yes goddess” suddenly he pulls me against his chest and holds me there  with one arm. His other arm still guiding my hips. “are you close kitten” Jason growls into my ear as I moan “s**t! Yes! Mmm Jason I’m about to-” “No. no you’re not kitten.” He says as he stops rubbing against me and relinquish the hold he had on my hip. WHAT!?!?!  Suddenly he picks me up and places me back laying down in his lap. I let out a small whimper at the loss of contact, which earned me a husky chuckle. Jason pulls me in close before whispering in my ear “ that’s why we don’t tease kitten. When we tease we leave our partner yearning for more. How you’re feeling right now, that’s how I’ve felt since I laid eyes on you.” I was struggling to form a coherent thought, but if I could form real words right now I’m sure I would be begging for more. I push off of his chest to look silently beg for him to touch me. I’m met with the most mischievous smile I’ve ever seen upon his beautiful face.  “Do you want me to make you come kitten?”   “Mm” I whimper out while nodding my head furiously  “Words Kitten”