Club Bosa

From good to what

 Mad pov- coming home after a great day put me in a better mood I did not realize I had been missing my job. I knew Guard would not care if I continued back at work as long as I communicated. As I walk through the door I stumble right into guards arms. "What you thinking?" I hear as I realize he has me fully in his arms. I look up into his eyes and see his smile. I tell him everything about the day. I see his concern when I describe Connie. Laughing I tell him of my evil plan that hooked her to Bosa. I hear him chuckle looking up I see the want and feel him grow hard. Kissing his cheek I ask if he's hungry knowing if I tease him there might be a punishment.

Hoping up I head towards the kitchen. I hear him come in behind me. "What are you doing?" "Starving, I haven't eaten today" I replied off handedly. The very next moment I felt his hand smacking my ass hard.

"Why haven't you eaten today" "Because I am used to eating once a day when working. I have been this way for well most of my life" "Well Love, that is going to change I need you to be able to keep your strength up, which means eating more. The rest of what he said was lost to me as he started to kiss and nibble on my neck. I felt his arms wrap around my waist and I tried not to melt against him. When his hands began to undue my blouse i started to bite my lip as I tried to simply wash my hands the moment his hands current breasts and his teeth sank deeper into my skin. I could not help but moan. I felt myself start to dampen as he picked me up and set me on a stool by the counter. Laughing I watch as he pulls ingredients out for dinner. "What am I not allowed to cook now" I ask amused. "No, just help" he replies with his back to me. Grinning I know this may be a long night... And to be honest I'm excited..

I wake up around four am feeling really off. Like I had been in a nightmare and was left with the anger and sadness. Trying not to wake Rowland up I slip out of bed very carefully and quietly. I start an extremely hot shower hoping to ease my tense body and work through these emotions quickly. I hate the fact I cant remember the dream but I still cry as if i lost the most precious thing to me. Then suddenly grow angry for a few moments before back to devastated crying over and over. Finally I just stand there head bowed letting the water run down my trembling body. I am so lost in my thoughts and feelings, that sudden moment I felt arms wrap round my body instantly I reacted and screamed. "Hey damn it hun it is just me" I hear Rowlands voice as I struggle. Instantly I feel embarrassed, and try as I might to explain what's going on. I stutter as I'm trying to find the words. I feel him hold me tighter when I finally give up and drop my head so he cant see me cry. After while we step out. I am lost in my thoughts, when Rowland tries to get me out of my head but in my mood we end up arguing.

As he is getting ready to go to work, I feel like s**t that this day started like this because of me. Sighing knowing its old insecurities talking I head to the office. Hours have passed and I stand up and stretch. I have been typing reports for hours and making sure our clubs were right where they needed to be. I finally look at my phone, there is three messages from Bosa 1 telling he was going to be late coming in and 2 calling me a punk and telling me to come down to his office to check in. I then see the message for Guard my heart skips a beat. He asks if I am okay, and if I'm planning to be home tonight. I sit there wanting to tell him I missed my girls. I don't know how to explain that on days like today they knew how to get me to get out if the funk. I wanted him to want to keep me like he planned but I didn't want him to be disappointed that I needed a bit more kinks than I thought I would... I try typing this out over and over... Finally I end up saying I'm ok... And of course I'll be home. Then I asked him to forgive me for this morning....Where else would I want to go but back to him....? I think to myself as I bury my mind back into work answering Bosa I would check in later.