Conspiracy

DISAPPOINTMENT

MIA

Now, some of you who have been a college student will acknowledge when I say attending lectures from 7:00AM to 6:00PM is not in anyway appealing. Mostly when you  have to jog all the way from one venue to the other or in between campuses because a lecturer decided that you've become too lazy sitting in a class.

Oh My God!

Where do our parents get this idea that without attending college you can never become a billionaire?

Wake up Grandpa! College is hell!

Well, that was my thought until I attended a statistic class with Dr. Nathan.

I'm a psychology student, but for one thing, I really hate this class because this particular lecturer walks into a class full of vibrant adult and in less than 30mins put every single grown ass student to sleep with his endless crooning about Regression Analysis and 2 or 3 way Analysis of Variance.

I keep wondering what is the importance of studying these analysis when all I will be doing is trying to understand the way the human mind works in different situations. Foolish me! little did I know that two years from now, I will be wishing I paid more attention in the class.

PRESENT

Who am I?

Sitting in class, waiting for the lecturer to arrive, I wondered how I have lost myself in my journey to becoming a better person. I came to  school because my mum thought it was the best opportunity to land a good job after graduating but here I am six years into college and still in the same class with my juniors. all my friends and classmate graduated two years ago and i'm still sitting in class attending lectures.

I am not a dull student, on the contrary, if there's one person that understood Psychology as a course better, it will probably be me but why the hell am I not graduating and I don't have any boyfriend to console me in this hard time of depression.

Sighing, I palmed my face and looked into the noisy classroom. People think me quiet but i'm not. I'm just disappointed in the hand life has dealt me. My parent are not aware of the thoughts in my head, else, I don't want to fathom what would've been said about my lackadaisical attitude towards my future. that is a lecture I will willingly give up always.

After class I stroll down to the hostel to get something to eat and ran across some friends, they invited me to hang-out but, there's no more excitement in these flimsy activities. I declined and continued towards the cafeteria. I heard some of them joking that, i'm suffering from loneliness and probably depression.

Funny thing is they are not all that wrong and defending myself will only strengthen their deduction. So, I walk away.