Taste Of The Forbidden

Chapter 7- Raven's Melancholy

Chapter

James' P.o.v

Her cheeks were completely flushed, the color reminded me of bazooka bubble gum. "Ss.. say that again.." She closed her eyes in annoyance and embarrassment.." We both know you heard what I...You heard me...I've.."I cut her off before she can finish."You've never had sex.. You're a.." A small sigh escapes her lips.."Virgin"..We say this word in unison. She bites her lip once more before she attempts to rise from her seat, her words playing back in my head on repeat, but something in me makes me reach for her hand..."Wait.." But she pulls away and heads towards the door, I can see all her confidence draining in every step she takes.I call out her name as I throw some loose singles from my pocket onto the table but she doesn't look back.I search for her on the street and feel my heart begin to race as I fail to find her... She's just a girl.. why does it matter if.. I see her walking away. Her hips swaying, her pace instantly intensifies when she turns back and notices me standing there looking back at her with a blank stare. She's half a block away before my brain begins to finally scream to run after her.

Every muscle in my body feels heavy and I realize just how f*****g tired I am with each step I take as I try to catch up to her. I call out her name and finally catch up to her a block and a half later. I feel as if the air is trapped in my lungs and it burns as try to steady my breathing. She watches me, her deep brown eyes full of concern search my face looking for something unfamiliar to me. Usually when a girl looks at me it's lust, fear or hatred staring back at me, but with her there was worry and kindness behind her small troubled smile. " Wh..why the f.." I feel a bead sweat roll down my back and suddenly feel embarrassed how out of breath I actually am as I try to steady myself and rub the cramp on the side of my stomach. " Why would you run?". She bites down on her bottom lip and I can't tell if she's trying to suppressing a laugh or still embarrassed about telling me that she's a... a virgin. Her eyes slowly gravitate towards the ground and her fingers fidget and start pulling at a small loose thread of her shirt. " You know why...It'll only get.. complicated and embarrassing and and..

and you'll want more...and and..I'll be left with.." I see her struggling with her thoughts and her voice starts to become small. I take her hand, it's small soft, her skin is warm against mine.." And what?.. How do you know what I want? Maybe I just want to get to know you?... Maybe I want more than just sex." She raises an eyebrow in disbelief and begins to pull away as if she's heard this all before.... And I've said s**t like this before to other girls to get a quick f**k and never talk to them again... But with her...I don't know. Something comes over me and I pull her in close before she has a chance to walk away from me again. "Maybe I haven't been able to take my eyes off of you from the very beginning, maybe I'd give anything to be close to you Delilah. Because I don't wanna stop at just s*x with you." I feel her breathing heavy as her chest rises and falls. Her lips are soft against mine, her kiss is innocent, chaste at first. My hands grip firmly on her lower waist pressing closer into me and that action alone... causes her to let out a small moan, her fingers gently tug at my hair. She deepens her kiss and for a moment we forget our surroundings.I have to slowly pulls away from her or I won't be be able to stop myself. Her face is flushed, her lips fuller than usual... her stare dripping with arousal and I've never wanted anything more in my entire life. She shakes her head as if she's having a conversation with an invisible person and they're winning. " And.. you're sure you want more than just... because that didn't feel like wanting more than just.." She fixes her wild curls trying to calm herself down but she isn't doing well as she tries to avoid eye contact. I again take a step towards her and take her hand and give it a reassuring squeeze. I tuck one of those soft, wild curls behind her ear before taking her face in my hand. She leans into the gesture and accepts my invitation. " I wanna try... I like .. I like you and I swear you're safe. If anyone is gonna get hurt, it's me. Promise."She bites her bottom lip once more and nods her head before a soft "okay" escapes her lips. She looks at me and the only person to have that much trust in me was Tyler. But this... this was different I could feel it. She kisses me once more and I feel her relax in my arms. " You look like you're need some rest but later... maybe we could do something?" Her voice is eager and I can't help but smile.. Stop what the f**k she's... just..stop relax. I try to play it off as cool but fail feeling the excitement rise when she asks me to come over to her place later.I watch her walk away and realize how fixated I am until she turns the corner.

The walk to my car is brutal and my head is pounding as I search for a loose cigarette in the glove compartment. I plug in my phone and notice all the god damn notifications. Jesus. I light the cigarette and take a drag as I start the car.Some calls and texts from Tyler, a text from my boss and.... eighteen texts and six calls from this f*****g slut..

: I need you daddy<3: : Use my throat<3: Jesus I can't deal with this b***h right now I need to get home.I finally reach the top of the stairs only to find this b***h on the floor against my door.Her face covered in a sea of messy blue hair, knees pressed all the way to her chest causing her dress to ride up exposing her thighs even more.I roll my eyes and really don't have the energy for this s**t but I can't leave this b***h out here.I crouch down in front of her and tap her on her arm. She slowly raises her head, her jade green eyes are blood shot either from exhaustion or crying, frankly I don't care. "What are you doing here?" She digs her long nails into her knees and I can see the fear creeping in at the corners of her mouth..."Are... are you mad?...We were.. You said come over last night.. you texted me.." Fuck.. That's when it hits me and I'm flooded with the memory of my own stupidity from last night. In between round two and.. I don't know four when I was hitting no face from the back I sloppy texted this one to come over... f**k me." Ar... Are you mad at me?" Her head drops as she repeats the question once more and her voice cracks. "No..I got too f****d up last night and couldn't drive that's all. Let's go inside my head is killing me." She tries to smile and nods as I help her up. I pull her close more so because I can barely stand at this point as I struggle with the keys and not to comfort her. She smells like cherries and dark chocolate, she feels small against my frame. We walk over to the bed and she begins to strip like it's second nature to her. She lifts my shirt above my head and I let her.But something in me begins to feel uneasy.I tilt my head back for a moment and stare at the ceiling trying to silence my own thoughts.She gets on her knees and her small ink covered hands struggle as she begins to undo my belt.I slowly bring my gaze back to her, that's when I notice she's trying to hold back tears and her hands aren't as steady as usual... she isn't as euphoric as she's been in the past."Choke me daddy, make it hurt."Her voice is shaky. She doesn't have the same confidence in her seduction. I take her hand and stop her before she goes any further. I lift her chin giving her no choice but to make her eyes meet mine. " I.. I don't wanna make it hurt." I lean in and kiss her softly only for a moment. Her body tense at first as if she doesn't believe me, I don't release her until I feel her begin to calm under my touch. When pull away her eyes are full of confusion."Can we.. just sleep for a lil bit I'm just really tired." She nods, still confused as I grab a clean shirt from my dresser and pull it on her. I wipe the tears from her eyes and she drops her head in defeat as if somehow she's lost a fight. I pull her in and wrap my arms around her. Her skin feels cold against mine as she inches closer to me. I tell her to close her eyes it's okay and she nods as she let's out an almost painful, exhausted exhale.I finally close my eyes as I feel her body relax against mine.I know that look .. I've seen it before... I can't bring myself to do her what... what happened... to... I'm not them.