Hate, Love, and Revenge

I Want Raymond

Michelle

I continued to feel conflicted about the entire situation with Raymond and our status as second-chance mates. Nevertheless, Raymond's allure was difficult to resist. I could avoid him during work hours, but I believed I could maintain control over myself and the growing attraction I felt after our kiss. It's been quite challenging, to say the least.

Having to go the rest of the weekend without seeing him would have done me some good, but it didn't. It was quite the reverse. After strolling into his office this Monday morning, the mate pulled worse. Every flex of his muscle he made had me ache for him. Every time he licked his lower lip, it made me want to kiss him. Every time he combs through his hair with his fingers, it makes me wet.

I wondered if Raymond was struggling as much as I am. I wore this tight, revealing dress for him. I made sure I picked out the best dress to show off my cleavage. Raymond tried hard not to stare at me too long as his eyes had gotten dark with lust.

When Raymond said how busy we were gonna be today, I was happy to have a distraction. I would have never thought that a day's work would end with Raymond kissing me in the elevator. He wants to claim me after the meeting with the CEO. Raymond whispering that I am his was so hot. The way his big hands cupped my face and how they explored my body set me on fire. The little control I had was out the window once his lips touched mine. Over and over again, Raymond said I was his. That turned me on more than I could imagine.

He then grabbed my thighs and lifted me up, pinning me to the wall as I wrapped my arms around his waist. The kiss grew increasingly passionate, and I found myself longing for more, unwilling to have it end. Just then, the elevator dinged, indicating we were nearing our floor. Raymond gently released my lips and eased me down, once he heard the sound, I steadied myself on my feet.

We were silent as we walked to his car, and even on our way back to the pack, we were cowardly silent. The only thing I could focus on was the kids we shared. "Michelle, I want to apologize for attacking you in such a way. The CEO had no right to gaze at you in such a manner. Even though you haven't accepted me as your mate, I'm still your Alpha and I will always protect you," he stated with a lot of emotion in his voice. "Thank you for standing up for me," I replied. "It's still early, but take the rest of the day off," he informed me.

After reaching the pack, Raymond and I went our separate ways. He made his way to his office, and I went to my room. I need a distraction to keep my mind off of Raymond. My phone pinged, and I checked it to see that Raymond had sent me a text. Raymond's text stated I can take tomorrow off. Is Raymond trying to avoid me? I questioned. I texted him back, ok.

What should I do with my extra-long free time now? I could visit the hospital or perhaps the orphanage to lift the children's spirits. Alternatively, I might contact Mr. and Mrs.. Freeman to see if they need me to babysit, since it's been a while since they last called on me.

I wound up staying in my room after having dinner with the pack. It was heartbreaking that Raymond didn't invite me to dinner in his suite as he would typically do. Did I do something wrong? Am I taking too long to figure out what I want? Moon Goddess, I can't lose another mate. "Just suck it up already. You know you want Alpha, so stop letting him wait. It's been two days for Goddess' sake," Nama yelled out. "I do want him, but it's difficult, Nama," I confessed.

Not long after dinner, I showered and went to bed. However, I had a hard time falling asleep. The following morning came, and I was only able to get a little sleep. I was thinking about Raymond, his lips, his touch. Nama didn't help by picturing naughty things that Raymond can do to me. I eventually got out of bed to get myself ready for the day.

Once I had some breakfast, I decided to go outside to get some much-needed fresh air and take a light stroll to clear my thoughts. I'm not sure how long I walked for, but on my way back to the pack house, I saw Raymond playing with the pack's children. That was a lovely sight to see.

"Alpha is amazing with children," Nama stated. "Yes, he is. I don't understand; how is it that Raymond is a great father, but he has a son like Brian? I expressed. I watched Raymond for a while before deciding to head back to the pack house to relax. I was still quite sleepy, so maybe I can take a nap. I woke up in a cold sweat because, yet again, Nama gave me images of Raymond.

It was now late afternoon, and I was surprised at how long I had slept. With Raymond still on my mind, I decided a run would do me good. Once outside, I shifted into my wolf form and raced through the woods. I didn’t get back until after 6 pm, feeling both satisfied and drained. After working up an appetite, I headed to the dining hall for my late dinner, then returned to my room to indulge in a relaxing bubble bath.

When I was finally clean, I got dressed in a purple two-piece lingerie and snuggled underneath the covers. I fell asleep quickly, but I woke up thinking about Raymond once again. I can't take it anymore. I need Raymond. I threw off the cover, got out of bed, and put on my robe.

I've moved quickly out of my room to Raymond's suite. I knocked on his door, but there was no response. Since Raymond left the door unlocked, I stepped inside. I called out his name, and still no answer. I decided to walk upstairs and knock on his bedroom door.

I waited for a short time until Raymond opened his bedroom door, looking wet. He was fresh out of the shower and looked mouth-watering. "Michelle, what are you doing here so late? Did something happen?" he asked. I looked him deep in his eyes and told him the truth. "I couldn't sleep.