Don't know how I was able to fall asleep yesterday. After Harry left, I had a complete breakdown. Things were thrown and smashed against the walls. I screamed, I sobbed, I wished I was dead. Pulled my own hair and wanted to beat the crap out of myself for being so stubborn, so incapable. Luckily, Dom decided to stay in the hotel with me, and he was the one who dealt with the staff when they're started calling and asking the screaming match to stop. He also managed to calm me down just enough so I wouldn't broke more of the room's decorations and probably have to leave a kidney to repay for everything. Watching Harry leave made me hate myself. For not being able to deal with this situation better, for not having evolved so much in life. For being petty, for being weak. I wish, with all

