The Forbidden Passion of the Alpha King

A Mighty Weak King

**P.O.V. King Alpha Julian**

“Alpha King, the Royal Council has called an emergency meeting and the leaders are waiting for you in the meeting hall,” my beta spoke with effort as he knelt down and left his neck exposed in a sign of surrender to my Alpha power.

I was out of control and it was pathetic, after all, I was the f*****g Alpha King and I was supposed to be the strongest wolf of all. However, noticing the way my room had been turned over again confirmed that I was nothing more than a weakling.

I had another fit of rage. I'm not sure what happened, I was fine a few minutes ago, but a sadness mixed with fear hit me so intensely that as soon as I had the strength, I took all my anger out on the furniture in my room.

Deep down I know that everything I've been feeling has something to do with my partner, which is why I desperately need Luna by my side.

With a lot of effort, I controlled my aura of power and finally my beta Caleb was able to stand up.

“Do you want me to ask them to reschedule the meeting?” Caleb was trying to make me more comfortable and although he was a great friend, I hated that look of pity he was giving me.

“That won't be necessary. I'll be ready in ten minutes,” I said, trying to pull myself together and ignoring the fact that I'd had a crisis just a few minutes ago. “They might want to take care of my twenty-sixth birthday, which is in a few days' time, and...” I didn't have the strength to continue saying that I'd have to choose a Luna during the party, since I'd never found my fated one.

As soon as Caleb left the room, I went to the bathroom and washed my face. As my image was reflected in the mirror, I realized that I had become a stranger even to myself.

I had always known my strength and power. I received my wolf when I was still a child of eight, unlike other werewolves who have their first transformation around the age of sixteen.

I'm not just an Alpha, I'm the Alpha King, the one chosen by the Moon Goddess to rule over all rulers. There was no match for me. No one could defeat me. At least that's what I'd learned throughout my life.

But it wasn't true.

She was killing me day after day.

I grew weaker every day I was away from my companion. I had searched all the places, all the packs, even the human settlements, but I never found her and it drove me mad.

The elders tried to calm me down, saying that perhaps my destined one was too young and hadn't yet transformed, but I wasn't convinced, because in some mysterious way, I could feel her.

I knew my companion was alive somewhere, but for some reason she stayed away and sometimes I hated her for it.

I wash my face again and try to stop feeling sorry for myself and finish getting ready to face my responsibilities.

When I finally reach the meeting room, there is no longer the shadow of that weak man from moments ago. Now I was the powerful Alpha King again and no matter how much I listened to the opinion of my council, the final voice was mine. Always mine.

“Hail King Alpha!” I heard the chorus of voices from my royal advisors greeting me as I arrived.

“Please make yourselves at home,” I ordered, getting up from the floor and starting the meeting straight away.

“King Alpha, we've arranged this meeting to discuss your twenty-sixth birthday,” I said and then fell silent for a moment, as if trying to gather the courage to speak. “We need you to choose your Luna and we thought it would be a great opportunity...”

“All right,” I interrupted him, causing everyone to gasp.

“Er, er... you mean it's okay for us to invite the families to present their best daughters?”

“That's right.”

“But it's just that Your Majesty has always been very reluctant to let us choose your Luna. Does that mean you've given up hope of finding your destined one?”

“I thought I'd made myself clear and I'm getting annoyed with so many questions,” I said to one of my best advisors, who had the terrible fault of being nosy.

I got up, a little exhausted from the conversation that was sapping my strength, and just as the meeting was about to end, a messenger delivered a message from the union of ten neighboring packs.

“King Alpha, we would like to ask Your Majesty to take action on the Star Pack, as they are deliberately breaking the rules by keeping at least fifteen members of the Polar Pack enslaved.”

“s**t!” I spoke without worrying about my posture, which should have been more formal.

I was aware that the Alpha of the Polar Pack was making a lot of mistakes and that a war was inevitable, but I think that the Alpha of the Star Pack is going too far. Even if it's permissible to keep a few war slaves, everyone knows that I don't approve of it.

“Caleb,” he said, breaking the tension in the room. “Reserve the royal group with the best soldiers. We're leaving for the Star Pack later today.”

I had already said goodbye to the royal council and was heading back to my room to prepare for the journey to another pack. As I climbed the stairs covered in a luxurious crimson carpet, I began to think that at this very moment, fifteen people must be going through the most terrible kinds of pain and humiliation. They probably didn't eat, sleep or even dress with dignity and that made my blood boil.

What many people don't know is that my mother was kidnapped when she was young and suffered a lot to keep her life, only to be saved by my father, who was the Alpha King at the time. When she died, I promised that I would always do the best for our people and that I would not allow any member of any pack to suffer while being innocent.

I was still walking thoughtfully, when my wolf Tryn, who had been silent since earlier in the day when I had a fit of rage, said in my mind, “I'm not on a good day for that b***h. Get her away from us!”

“Hi darling, I've missed you so much!” Selena approached and tried to kiss my mouth, but I pulled away, finally understanding the reason for Tryn's fury.

“Selena, I didn't give you permission to treat me so casually. As much as we have a little intimacy, don't forget your place.”

“I thought you'd miss me after not seeing me for a month. Please let me relieve some of your tension. Don't worry, I know my place very well.”

Selena walked with me to my office, which was opposite my bedroom, which was just a few steps away from us. But despite being weak and occasionally having s*x with Selena, I couldn't live with the smell of a female in my room other than my partner.

As soon as she locked the door behind us, the blonde, green-eyed woman took off her dress and stood completely naked in front of me. Her chiseled body and sensual gaze had me excited for a moment, but I was soon interrupted by Tryn, who growled in my head.

“I told you I don't like that b***h. Dismiss her. I demand our mate!”

“Werewolves are made up of a beast and a person in the same body. Our damn mate doesn't want us to find her, so don't stop me from indulging my human side,” I explained for the thousandth time to Tryn, trying to keep him out of my way.

“What's the matter, baby? Have you given up on me?” Selena said as she spread her legs and pranced to tease me.

She was leaning on my desk, ready for me, and I didn't refuse her.

Because of my conflicted relationship with Tryn, I don't allow myself to have much contact with women. He even accepts that I relieve myself, but he upsets me when I try to be a little more affectionate.

The last time I kissed a woman, Tryn took control of my body and threw the poor thing away. I'm the Alpha King and I can't let anyone think I'm weak.

That's why Selena has been one of the only ones I've stayed with, as she understands my limits and doesn't force unnecessary closeness.

It was good to be with a woman.

It was good to hear the sound of our skins colliding.

It was VERY nice to relieve myself.

But every time it happened I felt like s**t.

I don't know if it was Tryn who had the power to influence my conscience, but now even Selena's moans annoyed me. Actually, they always have, but today they're driving me crazy, but I'm embarrassed to demand silence from her.

Selena knows that I can't give her the title of Luna and if my ungrateful mate comes along I won't hesitate to take her for myself, but she still seeks me out and I value her for that and give her what I can, except to take on a relationship.

Even if I choose a companion, I can't unite with one that Tryn hates. That would be chaos and I'd certainly go mad.