Soleil
For the first time in my life, I felt a balance within myself. It felt like I wasn’t just juggling life around to see what eventually sticks. Nor was I at the mercy of someone else’s guidance. This was just me, pure and unadulterated.
There were no nightmares. No impending force to make me cower in the deepest corner of my mind. No pull to fall into the abyss. I was handling life one day at a time. I know that’s a narcotics anonymous quote or whatever, but it was fitting.
In some way, you could call me an addict. An addict to pain, a glutton for chaos. However, unlike what is said in NA, I am not powerless against my addiction. I can choose to not allow it to consume me, to tear me apart until there’s nothing of me left.
I don’t believe Kane knew the power of his words when h
